To me, you appear as lovely as the coming storm
To me, your smile is the swelling of the sea
To me, your warmth is a hug like the suns
To me, you're like the flower and I am like the bee
To me, you're the world bathed in light
To me, your words a song of peace and hope
To me, you are my everything.
The morning moments and the celebration of the day.
The sweeping of the light across your eyes.
A beginning of time and the end of darkness.
How sweet it would be, if only it were you and me.
How wonderful a thought, the matter of us.
Have I not a right to be angry?
Have I not a right to be loved?
Either you see what it is I've done and am still doing for you and either A. you're completely naive and oblivious or B. you see what I do and don't care because I am just something to be used and thrown away.
My enemy is the control that people exert over those that think they want to be used, that the promise is greater than the actuality. But remember, you can never subjugate a liberator. An end will be met and you will stay where you are, far far away. So keep your darkness in the dark and do not spread it here.
I am expendable.
I do not enjoy being distanced and phased out. I do not enjoy having my validity lessened, I do not enjoy watching those I love being manipulated and turn against me. I do not enjoy being treated as a leper.
For each action there is an equal and opposite reaction.
I guess my super power is expendability and the unpleasantness that comes with being unimportant.
I am perhaps the biggest goddamn idiot on the face of the planet. How did I not see that I was just a resource to be used? I mean the writing was on the wall and the devil is in the details.
Well looks to me, that perhaps I've been excised.
Treated like a cancer.
If only people could see what I see.
If they felt what I feel.
Then maybe there might be hope for humanity.
I wish I could sleep.
I've come so far, and all I wish to be is there, right beside you.
At your tender mercy, if ever you act upon whims, it would be over.
Oh I forgot my place, thanks for letting me know your opinion. I will not follow it, especially if it lessens my worth or the worth of others. Equality even at an inconvenience!
Happy level up day people. Ya'll know who you are.
Today, yesterday; it has been one long continuous day. I need to settle myself down. Anxiety is a bucking bronco that just needs to be shot. I hate anxiety.
Restless, my heart yearns for things far off.
my ears ring to the silence.
I survived a violent ass thunder storm that almost turned into a tornado. It destroyed powerlines, fences and launched debris into apartments. Wood and concrete were not a match for the elements. It was terrifying.
The silence at this hour of the void bites me.
Had to go to the Er last week. Waited 3 hours to be seen, had an infection. Got expensive ass medicine, spent the week in seclusion. Still recovering wonderfully, I am thankful I got badass friends abroad! Though I am mostly silent, I am usually vigilant. Good luck friends! I hope ya'll are having a wonderful weekend of world map traveling and adventure.
The fadeaway is worse than death.