[xm3]'s diary

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Written about Friday 2005-08-26
Written: (7032 days ago)

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finally, i found a way to log in (thanks to the nurse here who's very nice). been lying here and almost pale. can't move without a wheel-chair. damn two weeks is like eternity. good thing there's that "bastard"->(a way of expressing how much i love my bro) of a brother of mine who kept me updated to what was going on here and the othew site. messin' up with my diary, wikis.... even made a wiki for me without my permission. can't delete those photos. good thing he's on vacation so he can access my house any more. gotta change my password again.
i don't know if it's good or bad to be back. but i'm at ease now that i FINALLY *punches both arms upward* i made it in just for some seconds although, finding out that i loss one Relation, it's very sad. i know it's my fault if i'm me. can't be like [xm2].(thanks bro, if ever you'll read this.)
WHAT?! even uploaded my songs without permission. oh well, i guess this is his revenge for those stuffs that we've done(brotherly thing).
i'll be adding another thing in my poetrusic. i made a lot dduring my stay here in the hospital. this boring hospital.
i guess, it's bye-bye for now. i don't know when will i be back here. i really hope sooner. can't stand it anymore here. I HATE MEDICINES!

648546 Link to this entry
Written about Thursday 2005-08-18
Written: (7040 days ago)

for you

poetry without a rhyme

'not just my pain,
you're my anger.
as i stare in your eyes i fades out.
so i wish to wake up
beside where i can see your eyes.
and if it will be now,
help me find my way now.

you're the little answer
on the last piece of this puzzle.
oh i wish to walk with you
along the sunset near shore.
and if it will be now,
hold meby the way. let's go now.

there was a trust
that made this man to grow.
but from up of it all
he'll gonna die for you.
but his little heart
is not just a heart.
it is a flame
that will never die.

"please, oh my love.
just please don't give up on me.
i will do everything
that you ask from me.
i may never be perfect
and may not be true.
can't promise i'll always be there for you."

"....i'll wait for you, i'll die without you."

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Written about Wednesday 2005-08-17
Written: (7041 days ago)

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Depressed.
Can't tell the reason.

P.S.

http://www.musmakers.com/100.experiments.experimental%20band:%20BLEEDERS?n=1124267317

647174 Link to this entry
Written about Tuesday 2005-08-16
Written: (7042 days ago)

I've been watching this house and wikis, and I find it very interesting that from all the sheets of papers, sketches and drawings, notes and poetry spread around his bedroom walls, he finally found a place where he can show everybody his works (in orderly manner).

-Christian-

645743 Link to this entry
Written about Sunday 2005-08-14
Written: (7044 days ago)

(now i get it how to highlight the name!)
[xm3] is awake now but will be confine for 3 weeks in the hospital.
He misses everybody.

645043 Link to this entry
Written about Saturday 2005-08-13
Written: (7045 days ago)

first, the name is Christian. i'm yusukedin's younger brother.

second, he gave authorization to open "all" his accounts and emails, there's a box inside his bedroom written IN CASE OF EMERGENCY CONTACT EVERYBODY.

third, he was talking about a certain Laci. whoever you are he said "sorry if he's not perfect for you".

Jon left our house last night to go to work but didn't make it to his destination. he and a couple of friends (his only real friends), had a terrible car accident and is now in ICU. he'll be confine for a while and we're not sure yet when he will be back.

thanks for all your concern in behalf of our family.

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Written about Thursday 2005-08-11
Written: (7047 days ago)

....and so he woke up from a dream
that was beautiful, and starry and, so wild
it was all still clear in her eyes.
and though her mind was foggy and blank
he wondered:
why his life couldn't be as lovely it was time

there was this king he had no castle or throne
but his horse was great and wild.
he rode alone and liked it that way
but when he met her he swore:
he would never leave her side.

they road across the land,
two lovers hand in hand,
and no danger would come near.
and when something made her cry
she'd look at him teary eyed.
and he would make her feel better.

and now this forest was his home
it was a night time and the right time for love in the dark.
she placed her hand upon her chest
and all the rest just flowed
makin' love down under an ancient far away night.

it was so grand just holding someone's hand
and now safety came naturally.
it was so clear that she would never have to fear.

"oh tell me a story of magic,
and spiralling ships, and the stars in the night.
just whisper in my ears make it soft make it clear
i want to hear every breath you say"

but he woke up from the land
tears falling in his hands
as he looked up asking: "WHY?!"

he laid back in his bed
thoughts rising in his head.
"why can't my life be beautiful?", he said

as he closed his eyes again.
just praying she'd return
but only darkness fell upon him.
.....

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