[PnkShpGnWld]'s diary

1060453  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2008-12-27
Written: (5808 days ago)

Rules: Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 16 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 16 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it’s because I want to know more about you.

1) Damn the people who made me do this.

2) My computer is fucking awesome!!

3) I miss falling downwards, it was such a nice comfy time.

4) Dachelle shouldn't have moved.

5) I wish I could fall over.

6) My tattoo is itching...

7) Die bitches

8) I Want a family

9) I need a drink...

10) I need to go play some Lazer Tag. I wanna shoot the shit outta people and burn holes in their clothes.

11) THat would be fun.. I think Im gonna go do it.

12) I feel pretty.

13) Misses Tim. And I think i need to run around.

14) I want my cat alive again.

15) I want a vitamin water. Well, I want some Vodka.

16) I still misses dachelle. I want her back in Florida!!!

Soo I'll be tagging..

ALL OF YOUS

1056245  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2008-11-25
Written: (5841 days ago)

Apparently AFK has become a rather habit for me.
And yet again, I truly cannot explain it.
I do not know why, but I just can't seem to find my way on to a computer more than a couple times a week.
Me and Tim are happy as can be.
My new fling seems to be more than just a fling.
It it turning into more than I ever expected.
It has been one month and I am damn glad it has lasted this long.
I have decided I want to be a teacher, not a Radiology Technician.
Screw what my mom wants me to be. I think that if I am going to put myself thru this hell it better be something I want.
And since I am not allowed to be a Graphic Designer, I will be a Teacher. :)
Well, I bid thee all Adieu.
-bows- Erin

1053009  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2008-11-01
Written: (5865 days ago)

I, friends, am in love!
Ever since Stephen took it upon himself to fuck my life totally over, and bring my mom into the situation, I basically told him to fuck off and leave me alone.
He finally listened.
No more brooding Ex-Boyfriend to hinder my social life, no more worries over whther or not Stephen was going to come down and screw me over again.
Tim.
One word.
Means more to me now then any one else's name EVER has.
I find peace when I am with Him at school. Everyone else can be talking and He can look at me, and I tune everything else out, except for Him.
We have so many connections, through High School. We went to the same one.
My Grandfather is a Boy Scout Troop Leader, Tim is the head of The Boy Scout Seminole Lodge.
My Grandfather went through a ceremony called "Brotherhood" and is now One rank under National Troop Leader here in the United States. Tim completed his ceremony.
It is absolutely crazy. Yet, We can't figure out why we have never met before now.
4 years We went to the same school together, in the same clubs, yet never knew.
18 damned years of being a Boy Scout Brat and I never knew.
He is the nicest, most kind person I have ever felt these feelings for in my life.
No one has yet to treat me the way he does.
Ever.
I find that I feel completely comfortable with him even though it has not been too long that We started dating.
He is fine with who I am, and is not trying to only bed me.
Not trying to change me in any way.
He wants My love.
My Life.
Just me.
It's absolutely wonderful.
I am Ecstatic! I haven't felt this way in a long time.
-sighs- A big load off of my back. I feel light as a feather.
Had to, just had to make that announcement.

As for my absence?
No reason, just everytime I looked at my computer or even touched a keyboard it felt wrong. Like I wasn't supposed to be on one.
But I can not explain it if I do not even know why.

Have a well night, all of you.
I will be on a lot, as usual. No more AFK for me.
Oh, AFK means away from keyboard.

Love you all!
Erin. xxx

1046483  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2008-09-21
Written: (5905 days ago)

So friends, Ive been in the hospital all day.
On thursday, i slipped and fell in my bathroom, hitting my side against the toilet and hitting the back of my head on the toilet paper holder.I was in a lot of pain the past few days and finally decided to go to the doctor.
The doctor took one look at my head and my eyes and immediately instructed that i go to the ER.
And there i went, and that where they found absolutley nothing wrong with me other than major swelling of my skin but nothing wrong with my actual brain.
I'm Okay apparently.
But the doctor told me to come home and take my normal migraine medication.
Even though, it doesnt work. It hasn't for the past week.
1026307  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2008-04-28
Written: (6052 days ago)
Next in thread: 1026378, 1026382

The Raven.

Is Edgar Allen Poe's main character Crazy? Or is he simply

greiving the loss of his Love, Lenore?





     The Raven, as we know, is written by one of the most

influential writers of our time, Edgar Allen Poe. When Poe

wrote this poem, many believe he was just trying to show one

mans lost love. to show how he was saddened by her demise

and to show how he feels about her being gone. However,

when many people read this poem, they sense a bit of crazy,

or mental illness issues with the narrator, which is someone

other than Poe himself. Poe is writing as a man who has lost a

love, but also a man who is just a tad crazy. Someone who

will believe anything someone says, even a bird who rests

upon Pallas.


               "Open here I flung the shutter, when,

with many a flirt and flutter,

In there stepped a stately raven of the saintly days of yore;

Not the least obeisance made he; not a minute stopped or

stayed he;

But, with mien of lord or lady, perched above my chamber

door-

Perched upon a bust of Pallas just above my chamber door-

Perched, and sat, and nothing more."

               
               "The Raven"


Some would specualte that this is to show the bird as a figure 

of wisdom, as one who would bring good news. I believe

different.



Is he crazy? This question has been asked by quite a few.

He is slowly falling asleep. When he falls asleep, he can

remember the way Lenore acts, the way she feels and

everything about her that he likes. He either dreams or

hallucinates a bird. Obvious Schitzophrenia. Hallucinations are

defined as sensory perceptions in the absence of externally

generated stimuli. (1) The knocking or Rapping on the

characters door could actually be the pounding of a migrane

from his depression or from being woke up.



The representation of the raven in this poem could possibly

mean death, because the bird repeats nevermore over and

over again. depression is caused by the fact that he realizes,

Death is Inevitable. He should just wait for it to come or

basically wallow in self pity. This man yearns for his dead

love, wishing she were back and with him. He allows himself

to see the bird then watch it manifest into something

otherwordly, finally bringing the news of the fact that they will

never be reuinted, not even in the after life.



The Raven quotes "Nevermore" over and over again. He

views this bird as an instrument to help him forget.

Either, the bird will form to lenore and tell him that she

doesn't like him anymore, and it was never anything special,

or that he will be in her presence and understanding theway

he truly feels.



Nepenthe is a drug used a long time ago to supposedly

lessen the effects of Greif. He is apparently on medication.

Nepenthe is a drug, as i said, and it is pretty much like Xanex

or Alcohol.

               "Respite- respite and nepenthe, from thy memories of Lenore!

Quaff, oh quaff this kind nepenthe and forget this lost Lenore!"

Quoth the Raven, 'Nevermore.' "


               "The Raven"



Is he Grieving?

The fire Is representative of the love he felt for Lenore. The

fire is a comforting element to some. Especially in "Bleak

December"as this is supposedly the coldest time of the year,

and the worst time for someone to grieve. The cold inhibits

itand intensifies his feelings. Making the cold feelings even

colder and making him feel empty and vast and lonely.

Seeing the Raven come, gives him a sort of closure. It may be

kind of messed up closure, and a sense of rather broad

closure, but he will feel better, knowing that his lost love and

him will never be reunited. This sort of twisted closure is

acquired by the fleeting feeling of sense of self. He is coming

to grips with the way The Raven will bring him help. He

desperately longs for company, the greif of his loss is too

much.

               "Then this ebony bird beguiling my sad fancy into smiling,

By the grave and stern decorum of the countenance it wore.

"Though thy crest be shorn and shaven, thou," I said, "art sure no craven,

Ghastly grim and ancient raven wandering from the Nightly shore-

Tell me what thy lordly name is on the Night's Plutonian shore!"

Quoth the Raven, 'Nevermore.' "

               
               "The Raven"



In the end, we watch as he slowly sinks away and lets his

depression engulf him. His Chair becomes his friend as the

Raven leaves with his heart and sould, leaving his body

behind, taking with him the very part of the character that

makes him live.

1. http://serendip.brynmawr.edu/bb/neuro/neuro01/web3/Cohen.html

http://www.eliteskills.com/c/3698

http://www.poedecoder.com/essays/raven/

1025846  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2008-04-25
Written: (6055 days ago)

http://www.pdnonline.com/pdn/newswire/article_display.jsp?vnu_content_id=1002383134
Well then..
Ill say, fuck the congress.
Its wrong.
http://www.petitiononline.com/dAvsOW/petition.html
Sign this petition if you think they should keep copyrights on our photos!

1024630  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2008-04-17
Written: (6063 days ago)

I'm a total nerd ^_^ stoleedddd frommm [Scary Kids Scaring Kayla;]



--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

1. YOUR REAL NAME:
Erin

2. YOUR GANGSTA NAME: (first three letters of your name plus izzle)
Eriizzle

3. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (fav. color & fav. animal)
Green rat

4. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name & current street)
Marie Tilsen

5. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first name & first 3 letters of dad's name)
Teperdwa

6. SUPERHERO NAME: (2nd favorite color & favorite drink)
Silver Sprite

7. IRAQI NAME: (2nd letter of your first name, 3rd letter of your last name, any letter of your middle name, 2nd letter of your moms maiden name, 3rd letter of your dads middle name, 1st letter of a siblings first name & last letter of your moms middle name)
Rpie(idk)(no siblings)n

8. WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (mothers middle name)
Ann... (Ewwwness)

9. GOTH NAME: (3rd favorite color, and the name of one your pets)
Black Loki

1013044  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2008-02-19
Written: (6121 days ago)

I guess while I'm here..
My day has been going wonderfully.. I woke up, tired as hell but I guess it's all worked out.. I'm in the library right now, and i can honestly say, it smells like cat pee.. It really does..
And I'm really bored.. doing a research paper. It's on Charles Dickens, but i can't quite figure out how to pose an argument about him..
Maybe someone could help me?
Please?
Lol no, you don't have to do it..
It will bore you even more..
I know I'm bored as all hell right now.
I'll be off to lunch soon, but im not wuite looking forward to it..
It involve s painting someone's final art project, and so they can pass the class, they asked me to do it for them.
OH!!! And the books by Stephani Meyer, "Twilight" "New Moon" and "Eclipse" They are all gooood books.. I cant wait for the Fourth book to come out in September.. and the movie... it comes out in December...
I don't remember, the website, though, is
http://www.twilightlexiconblog.com/

1009851  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2008-02-05
Written: (6134 days ago)
1008341  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2008-01-30
Written: (6141 days ago)

Stolen from [Nazarath.93]

Timeline of Johnny Depp (for all you Depp fans out there)

In 1760(?) to 17(?)/ 18(?) he was a pirate
in 1799 He was a skinny constable combating a headless horseman
in 1837 he was married to a corpse
in 1874 He was a psychotic barber slitting throats
in 1904 he was writing peter pan
in 1950 he was a teen rebel
in 1959 he was an irish wanderer
in 1965ish he was a Platoon's interpreter
in 1971 he was a fraudulent druggie
in 1990 he was a unfinished experiment with scissor hands
in 1993 he was Gilbert Grape
in 1999 He was a rare book seller with satanic problems
in 2003 He was a corrupt CIA agent working in Mexico
in 2004 he was a schizophrenic writer in a bath robe.
and in 2005 he was a half sane Chocolateer

damn makes us wonder what hes gonna do next...busy guy huh?

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