I'm so angry, i got really dark at south padre but i also got burned but u couldnt tell cuz i was so dark, well now my back is peeling, not to mention grossly! and my tan is gonna be retarded! freaking pisses me off!!! grr....

Lol i just counted how many guys have told me i'm hot or beautiful or sexy or what not and over 40 guys not including the ones i overlooked or deleted msg's from have messaged me with that message! lol!!!

http://www.1webspace.biz/LiL_ChIqUiTa_BoNiTa369/Mypage.htm

my website, but i havent finished it yet!

lol im such a fatso, i just made two batches of biscuits and im eating them all myself... mmm... lol the first batch, someone :::cough mom cough::: turned off the timer and they were a little too crispy but i ate the insides anyway and decided to make more, and they came out just right! Goldeny brown! mmm.. buttered biscuits are the best thing ever! besides cheese!!!!!

omg, im so happy, i tried on a size 0 shorts from two years ago, and they still FIT!!! YAY!!! but it fights my butt a little tight, but i liek it!!!!! YAY!!!!!!! HAHAHAAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!! sorry ok....

Bored as hell sitting here on the computer like a freaking nerd listening to music since i have nothing better to do than eat and watch t.v. grr... having some great convo's with kelly, ur awesome girl! love ya for it too! mmm.. awesome blossom! lol! ok thats all i gotta say... doo da doo... later...

HAPPY FOURTH OF JULY ALL! Hope you had fun, i did sorta, well lets put it this way, i have my cotton candy and i already ate my caramel apple mmm.... lol lets see, i was gonna go with cassie, but she couldnt make it so last resort i called someone but then decided that was a prolly a bad idea so then i asked my friend kelsey, and then she was going to go with me, so then i went to the movies with my sis and parents and we saw War of the Worlds, it was pretty good! I liked it... i saw Rebecca Sanchez and i gave her a hug (she saw the same movie)... then omg right in the middle of a scary/sad/suspenseful part i dont really remember, my freaking phone goes off, on level 4 (the highest it goes) and it's george asking if i found someone to go with, but i already had so yeah... then i came home and found out the person i was going to go with couldnt come, and i thought george was still working and he wouldnt come in time by the time we were gonna take the bus so I had to go by myself... :-(.... then like i get there i call marissa, say hi, happy etc... and i call cass too, doing the same, i call devin too, so then i call george and tell him what happened... talked to him for a while, about an hour later, my arm started hurting so i hung up with him, i was waiting in line for my freaking COtton Candy and Caramel Apple, cuz I absolutely HAD to have it, and like 20 min. of being in line i was missing the fireworks, but i could still see them, oh yeah and when i was standing in line with my sister, some guy came up by me and was like "Hey Baby!" and just stood by me with two or three of his friends behind him, and i just looked at him and turned away, he seemed too old for me,(plus my sister was standing right there, it felt awkard) and his friends started like making fun of him, but there were a lot of guys there, some hot, some not, and some ok, but i was with my freaking family the whole freaking time, so of course i didnt have fun! But oh well! Theres always next year! and every weekend!!! Well that was my night! Tell ya about my day tom... well tom! so later!

hm.. lets see, last night i had to babysit this one kid, she was 5 months old, and omg she was so cute, and VERY quiete! I was very surprised, she seriously just sat there and looked around! Haha, well then i was on the computere organizing and dl songs for my ipod thingamabob... Then i went to sleep! And then George called me at 6:00 in the morning, but the weird thing was that i had woken up like 2 min. before he called for like no reason, i was like "Whoa!" and we talked for about 2 hours, he was telling me about the party he had went to! It sounded like a lot of fun! I talked to his two friends, Aaron, and DJ (he threw the party) for a while, they made me laugh, but then again so does everything! Well, me and george got off the phone and i went back to sleep, then my mom tried to wake me up at 10 to get ready for church! Crazy lady! I got up around 10:45 cuz i had to wash my hair! grr... then i went to church, came home, and now im on the computer dl more songs! and writing in this diary thing! Yep, welcome to my wonderfully boring life! hehe! Later!

HEY ALL!!! Sorry i've been gone for such a long time, i've been in too many places! And im exhausted, plus my computer was broken! OMG I just came back from South Padre and it was TOTALLY sweet! Had fun at the beach *wink wink* hsha, Crystal, u r totally awesome, had so much fun with you cassie and ur friend crystal, and the totally hot guy we went cruisin with (shhh!!!) haha we had to lie to our parents cuz we were 2 hours past curfew! Haha and we totally had a great time, eating, and video taping ourselves dancing around and being weird! Omg, "La Cucaracha" hahaha! Well here's what I've been doing lately! I went to cheer camp! It was fun, but WAY TOO exhausting! Came back had a week to clean and do stuff! THen left for SOuth PadRE BABY!!!! Went to the beach for 3 days, third day got a really bad sunburn on my back, couldnt sleep good for two nights but i still had fun anyways! Went to mexico and shopped on the fourth day! mmm.... mexico, although there were some creepy guys! hehe! haha cass, remember "I was just trying to read ur shirt" BOy please, you do not need to be bending like that to read my shirt! Pssh! Go Crystal! for telling him off! Let's see, on the 5th day we babysat for alex, and i talked to to Danny!!! YAY! GOsh, he's gonna freaking play for killeen JV and i can totally watch his games, i hope, but i'll definately skip a Celtic game to see you! And we HAVE to go skating (and dancing lol)! Anyways 6th day we went to Crystals! haha this was the funnest day! Crystal definately knows how to show people a great time! Ok here goes--- Me and Cass were ready to go to the Brownsville mall at 2:30, we were dropped off at Crystals house at 3:00, Cassies brother left us there, Didnt even take us to the mall! Grr... ok then Crystal decides to dress us up more... older lol! We're wearing these low cut shirts, and we looked pretty good not be conceited or anything, she put more eyeliner to make us look older and then we were ready, right? NO...well Crystals friend was gonna get off work at 4... did she? NO! well she had to go take her car to the shop at 6, go home take a shower and get ready, She arrives 20 minutes till curfew (10 becuz Cass's mom was freaking out!) well we go to eat at El Rey del Taco (it was mmm...mmm... good!) Then we meet Crystal's friend, Joe! (omg i thought he was sooooooo cute, but too old for me... :-( ) and he had a NICE freaking PIMP car.... so we're like "Get home 30 min late, or get crystal in trouble?" well of course, we opted for staying out later... haha sorry crystal, but we didnt get caught now did we?! ... So we stopped by his house to drop of Crystal's friend, Crystal's, car.... And we back out and omg theres a freaking Cockroach on top of the car... omg i was in the middle, and im dead afraid of those horrible things, but i thought i was afraid, oh no no no my friend, Crystal, Crystal's friend, sitting next to me starts freaking out... haha Joe tries to kill it but cant see anything so we think its gone well we go about 1/6 of a mile down the road and it was on Crystals side and she swears it flew into the car... so Joe has to stop at a gas station... well nothing! So we keep driving we get about 15 min. around town and She thinks its on her leg.... We stop at an HEB to check again, and everybody gets out, especially me , sorry cass didnt mean to get so violent and kick you out, you were too slow... (i was in the middle, lucky me!) hahaha nothing again, so when we get in the car i start singing "La Cucaracha" song and cassie and everyone joins me! haha! So then its about 11:30 and Crystal's mom calls and we're like "oh well we're just about to leave, do you want some?" her mom says yes well we just figure we will go and get them when we're coming back home! Oh god, then my mom calls and she's asking what im doing and im like "Oh nothing we're at crystals house doing nothing! oh ok mom bye!" I was so scared because his car was sooo loud... Well its 11:45 and we should head home cuz we're halfway across the city so we call to order the tacos so we can go pick them up, THeyre closed and we're like OH crap, so we call her mom and tell her they wouldnt take any more orders and so we have to pick her up some burger king, well we're about ready to arrive at her house and we have to pretend like Crystal's friend, Crystal, is driving her brothers car because her parents know that thats not her car... so Joe has to get out and walk to a friends house nearby and we'll pick him up later.... lol! omg it was soooo much fun! Then we got to crystals house, everything worked out fine! I talked to danny for like 3 hours then fell asleep, sorry danny im really crazy but its totally cool that you like it! Can't wait til football season starts! Ok well theres my Vacation so far.... Hmm... life is good!

lol llamando... haha... my sis! stuff is funny! I bought a dress... k my day was pretty good!

I had so much fun last night... my feet hurt... im so tired... hmm.... need sleep..

I was hoping maybe things would look up today, but they just seemed to get worse.. if anyone has a good plan of running away from home, please let me know, cuz at the moment i just feel like i need to get away,from EVERYTHING! If i dont i think i'll bust! or have a nervous breakdown of some sort..... sometimes i think God doesnt care, he never helps when i need him....

Have you ever felt that ur life is slowly slipping away.. and that sooner or later... you'll be screwed?