WHY do you build me up (build me up) buttercup baby just to let me down (let me down) and then mess me around and then worst of all you never call baby when u say you will but i love you still, I need you more than anyone darling, you know that i have from the start, so build me up (build me up) buttercup don't break my heart - The temptations!

hehe, sorry i'm just really bored!!

All alone, nothing to do, its lonely here, without you, the candlelight is burning low, lovesongs on the radio and memories are all i have to show, photographs, tickets for two promises that all fell through, now everything's in black in white, the colors faded with night, the stars we used to wish upon have somehow lost their light, where is the feeling we used to know, where's the music that played, what happened to the love that used to show, where did the feeling go? -- Selena

Sorry i was listening and just felt like putting it up here! lol!

Isnt it funny how fake people can be... they act one way to make you believe their one person and then later on u realize everything you thought they were was ALL a lie?! Yeah, i HATE those kind of people. I mean, i LOATHE them! They disgust me! Being that way isn't going to get them anywhere in life! EVER! They might as well figure out who they really are and stay that way! It'll make their life a lot easier, and other's less stressful!

went out to do my lateral thigh thing and i ended up doing it for 5 min, then came inside and ate fritos and bean dip and started watching harry potter on HBO! lol! Gosh, im horrible at this exercise and diet thing! oh well! ttyl! much love!

just got finished sorting all my pics on my kodak thingamabob took forever cuz i have like over 250 pics of like everything, and clint.. mmm! anyways... later!

You know what... it's funny how much a person can learn about their life and all the things they didnt see before until people point it out, and it all starts to make sense... the lies, the decieving, everything they ever wished not to be true, but in the end they have to accept that that's what happened, and there's nothing in the world they can do but accept the fact that they were stupid for not seeing it in the first place and for not listening to people when they were sitting there pointing it out to them... then they learn that there are only a few people in their lives they can trust, and the others are just there to keep them company, and that next time, listen to what your best friends tell you, and heed their advice, it'll bring a lot less stress, confusion, and heartache...

I actually kind of worked out yesterday but not really, me and sis did yoga, it helps with flexibility for cheerleading yay! and then pilates and today im gonna go do the lateral thigh thingamabob and i wanted to run, but my sis has soccer practice, so i'll just work on my abs or something, and then do yoga/pilates again... it worked a little bit, i can tell today! Well.... yeah! k byebye now!

Hey, just got done talking to miral! Sad to know he's not gonna come back to ht next year! He's a cool person! :'-( He just got back from india, he got his ear pierced, he's gonna send me a pic later! lol! He's gonna play football and i told him to send me the schedule and i'll make a few games to go and see him but its gonna be hard cuz i have to make some killeen, and then i gotta work around for celtic games if there are even gonna be any! but yeah, it makes me really depressed to know that he's not coming back!....

Girl: Do I ever cross your mind?
Boy: No
Girl: Do you like me?
Boy: Not really
Girl: Do you want me?
Boy: No
Girl: Would you cry if I left?
Boy: No
Girl: Would you live for me?
Boy: No
Girl: Would you do anything for me?
Boy: No way
Girl: What would you choose: your life..or me?
Boy: My life
The girl runs away in shock and pain and the boy runs after her and says...
The reason you never cross my mind is because you're always on my mind. The reason why I don't like you is because I love you. The reason I don't want you is because I need you. The reason I wouldn't cry if you left is because I would die if you left. The reason I wouldn't live for you is because I would die for you. The reason why I'm not willing to do anything for you is because I would do everything for you. The reason I chose my life is because you ARE my life.


awww... how cute! Now thats the kind of guy im looking for! :-)

ok, i didnt wake up early to start exercising but i'll do it after my mom leaves for her lunch break... so yeah! Cuz im a lazy butt! talking to cass right now, and trying to upload the thousands of pics i have cuz i feel like it!

Just got back from outside, i was helping my sis with soccer, and i was practicing my bball somewhat... im starting my workout tom. I'm gonna wake up, eat, do yoga and stretch for cheerleading, and then im gonna work on my abs, and then my legs, and then im gonna go run... just hopefully this time I'll actually go through with it... lol! I HAVE to get in shape.... ! lol!

Tell me this, does it make you a bad girlfriend, if you think about kissing a guy who is totally hot, while going out with a guy, and wishing that for a single moment you could be single long enough to kiss the other hot guy? and does it make you a bad gf when you get the craving to go up to a total and complete hot stranger and want to kiss them, but know you cant cuz that would be wrong, but think about doing it anyways?!?!?! well.. i don't so i think i should let it go.. am i right?

I better mark this day on my calendar cuz this is a miraculous day! HAHA!!! YES!!! THANK GOD!!!! ok... well enough of that! doo da doo! ok... Danny's calling, g2g!

Clint's so freaking hot, can't wait for school to start! YAY! Danny's back!!!

YAY! Danny's back! I totally didnt talk to him cuz of marissa last night, but thats ok! That storm thing last night was scary! and omg it was so freaking funny! This morning i was having a weird dream and i screamed really loud "MOM" cuz i did in my dream and like i woke myself up and i started laughing cuz i felt so stupid! and marissa started making fun of me! It was hilarious! Then i pushed her off her bed! HAHA! Love ya MANGO! Oh yeah, thanks for being there for me last night! I'm sorry i just started like well you know, but just know if you need me, im here!

Ya'll wanna know something hilariously funny... my ex boyfriend calls my two best friends more than he called me when we were going out! In ONE month he called my best friends more than he did me in 6 freaking months!!!!!! Ha! Don't you think thats a little funny... ha i do! I think thats a sign that it's great we're not going out anymore! haha! Gosh, how could i have been so freaking stupid, believing every piece of shit he ever told me! I feel so freaking stupid!!!

oh yeah i forgot to tell you that my back is all fine now! It's no longer peeling or discolored!!!!

Hey, I'm at marissa's house, we just got back from her bf, George's, house. It was fun, but i ate too much pizza and crazybread! mmm.. so now my stomach hurts bad!!! Well, i went to go see Fantastic Four today! OMFG!!! The Human Torch person guy thing, or "johnny", which btw, it a very hot name, so is brad and jake! oh yeah and clint, oh wait, clint is just hot, but anyways! OMG!!! I was freaking drooling (lol, marissa " *someone's name* ... droool!*) everytime he came on the screen! *drools a little*! mmm... anyways then we went to george's around 4:30 or something and we just got back at ten! It was fun, we watched movies, and there was a bit of a problem at one point, but hopefully thats over and done with! Well... oh yeah i still have to write about my time in South PAdre but I'll have to do that next week! I dont have time right now! I'm supposed to be doing my summer reading, I've started on the Iliad! It's pretty good, since its like about Troy, or Achilles, who in the movie "Troy" is played by Brad Pitt! and he is so FREAKING FINE!!! omg! We watched it in Brownsville and i nearly died! *sighs* omg he's so hot, and ORLANDO! Ugh! it's like the freaking hottest guys movie of all time!!!! mmm....!!!!!!!! well anyways the books pretty good if i picture brad pitt as achilles! mmm... ok better go now! tell ya about all my fun at South Padre later! much love to ya! Hugs and Kisses! I'm going to go wait for Danny to call! later! bye!

HeY!!! Just got back from South Padre yesterday with my bestest chica Mango!!! It was soooo much fun! HOT GUYS!!! AHHH!!! TO DIE FOR!!!! mmm.. mexico! Well I'll write all about it later when i have time! But for now i just wanted to say how freaking happy i am to find out that ANTHONY GUILLEN IS NOT COMING BACK NEXT YEAR!!!! YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *screams and jumps around excitedly* It's like a dream come true, but the bad part is neither is my friend Sarah! *sobs* and miral might not come back either, MAYBE, but that would be sad cuz he's cool! And he's clints best friend so if clint loses him, OH NO *gasps* we might lose clint, the single most hot guy in our school! NO! NO! NO!!! grr... but hopefully we wont lose him or miral! Anyways I'll write again later and tell you all about how much fun i had! later, much love!

I'm really falling for this guy I'm talking to, his names Danny, He's really nice, and he hilarious, and he likes that im weird, he says its amusing, and i can easily talk to him, the only thing is he's 17, and thats not really my style, i like guys my age, but maybe thats my problem, i need an older guy who's mature, or as mature as they come! He's going to killeen, so it will be so easy to see, almost everyday if i wanted... hmm.. It's really weird how at first you know, he was nice, but then the more i talked to him, the more i thought about him, and even after we got off the phone, after 3-4 hours on the phone, i was still smiling! Haha, i couldnt fall asleep last night cuz i was thinking about him... He's really into me, or he wouldnt have tried so hard to meet me, i almost passed him by because i was too busy thinking about some other stupid boy that i should have left a long time ago if i knew what was good for me, but i didnt, so i got screwed over, but hey, shit happens, thats life, and then other people come in your life... and it seems like God, i think you answered my prayers, cuz Danny came just in time! He's coming back from Georgia in 8 days!!! Can't wait! ok well thats all! mwah!

I'm having fun burning holes in pictures lol! I dont want to be reminded of this past year, it just makes me sad, so I'm sitting here... burning pic's but not all cuz i like how i look in some of them, so duh im not gonna ruin them! lol! mmm.. tostadas... cheese!