Where was God when I needed a friend?
Where was God when I came to an end?
Where was God when I lost my mind?
Where was God, when I couldnet find it?

Up in heaven watching the clean boys and girls, thats where.

...has it ever happened to you. One single monumental catastophy that completely sets you into a downward spirl?
Well this would be the second time. Im totally fucked...there is no way outta this one. I fucked up bad, I guess its time to pay for it.
I never really imagined it would happen. I always figured "Im tough, fuck em. They caint touch me. And if they think they can, Ill fuck em up" I was wrong, dead wrong. Theys more of them the there was before...they keep growing in number. They going to kill me...I know it. 
I was walking through the hallway, they were speaking to one another! I heard it with my own ears! I thought I was all alone...but I know differently now. I cant fight them off any longer...I have no ally, no strength left...and no ammo. Thats right, Im in a mansion. On the top floor. The whole bottem floor is infested with...with them! They arent zombies...I thought they were but after careful observation, Ive found that they arent. They are crazed lunatics pumped to the gills with a drug. A mystery drug....no, not a drug. A VIRUS! A virus that infects the white blood cells and ultimately renders them into a hypnotic trance. There only goal, is to see me dead.

Im really loving this game for the PS2! Resident Evil 4. Kick ass...

Yo, Ill stop in every now and again to let people know hows Im doing. Right now Im fine. I met a girl in Buy-Low foods, Ive seen her before, looking at me lol. We'll see what happens.
Im still deep in old issues, select people will know what I mean. I dont plan of quitting anytime soon anyway, besides, Mario Wolrd is way more fun on acid!

Ok, I thought it over and maybe a better idea is to try and explain the whole of whats going on here. Ive never really said anything to anyone about this but Im going through something more than this here dog is worth. Im kinda struggling with a downward battle and I cant fight it anymore. Its a hard habit to break...even harder when you havent even broken it. Its true, Ive slipped back into old habits and at this point, Im in no mood to be helped. I just want to stay as far from reality as possible right now.
Theres been a string of fucked up shit thats happened in my life that I need to...I dont even know. Take all this shit in with a grain of salt and try to understand, Im only human...and barely that.

Sup Homeslices! lol. ehhh I dont wanna sound gay but I dont wanna be on Elftown anymore because its gay. Its like, you wanna talk to your friends, and you can see them...but they aint there because they are offline. Sucks. Im not trying to be a pair of dicknuts or anything but I made all my friends online by staying up late, before I had a serious career to think about. What Im saying is that all the people that I am close to online, are never on till really late (like 3am in the morn). I cant physically stay up that late anymore, not when I need to work in the morning. Not just that, on the weekends when I can afford to stay up late, they dont come on anyway LOL. Im not bitching or blameing but its not worth it anymore. Theres no way I can stay in contact with them so I figure its best to just skip on out and see what shit happens. I wish them all the best with life and....fuck Im bad with goodbyes! Live Long And Prosper!