i won't be online very much tomorrow. ((10/04/2006)) got too much to do.

i'll be on for tuesday though

night night everyone xxx

i have never cried over a guy, yet here i am, completely crying my eyes out, un able to stop myself.

its all because of him
i hate him for doing this, but as soon as i think of him, my heart jumps
everything reminds me of him

hmm...

i think i shot gun would help everything go away

there is a phrase that states "no-one is perfect"
in reality, everyone is perfect.
its just the people we know, see, grew up with, can't see it
have your parents ever said they thought you were perfect?
thats because they know!
perfection isn't recognised as perfection anymore, but what we feel perfection is

eg, guys. they see perfection in a girl as the following:
1. slim
2. completely gorgeous
3. smart? ((although some guys would want her to be as dumb as possible so she can't speak her mind))
4. no problems in her family
5. never depressed- having negative thoughts
*6. completly beauitful in everyway*

the reason i have put stars around that last one is because its the most important
although we aren't all slim, good looking, smart, always happy because of our surroundings or just positive attutude, everyone who has a kind nature, is perfect.

as long as your kind to people, and treat everyone with the respect they diserve, you diserve to be called perfect. no matter how you look


which brings me to my next point.
just because we diserve all of this, doesn't mean it happens. with the magazines and newsarticles, pictures and posters of models that we see everyday are so stereotypical, that no-one thinks for them selves anymore
its pathetic!
of course there are people who think for themselves and don't care what other people think, the poeple who know what i'm going on about and know that they themselves are perfect. the others- people who have friends, good looks, lots of potential to make their dreams happen- do not admit all of this because of the stereotypes in the media.

so really, because of all what i have just said- the media has taken away the veiw of perfection.
everyone is perfect. anyone who says they aren't, need an attitude ajustment.

and if that doesn't work, a good ol' smack in the face

why can't i stop thinking about him?
i sat and thought about going to the cinema to see a movie that had been advertised. i thought instantly about going with cora and phi phi. Then i thought about going with him. i started to day dream about sitting at the back and making out- i know- cheesey. it seemed so real to me. i could feel his shirt under my hand and his warm hand on my cheek and shoulder. i found myself smiling... and now i'm writing this.... i need to hug him again. i need him here with me. i sooooo wish he lived closer. it would be so perfect.

just the thought of that daydream makes me want to loose weight all the more. i might make a character for him....

speaking of drawing- i'm gonna draw a manga version of the picture from the best day ver... with all of us on- me, phia, becca, demi and sean. i can get a picture of cora and ut her on the end XD

wheeeeeeeeeeee a quiz XD

1: Who are you?
2: Are we friends?
3: When and how did we meet?
4: Do you have a crush on me?
5: Would you kiss me?
6: Would you have sex with me?
7: Give me a nickname and tell me why you picked it.
8: Describe me in one word.
9: What was your first impression of me?
10: Do you still think that way about me now?
11: What remids you of me?
12: If you could give me anything what would it be?
13: How well do you know me?
14: Whens the last time you saw me?
15: Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't
16: Are you going to put this on your diary/presentation and see what I say about you??

there is a new wiki in my story contents... please check it out if you've read a lil or i have told you about my characters.

or y'know.. read some then check it ut so you can be part XD

joking.

loooove verli/franki
xXxxxxxxxXx

Before I start I want everyone involved in this rant to know that this is not being mean it is speaking what is on my mind and giving an opinion. If ya don't like it, then tough, its how i feel. XP

Firstly, since when has it been okay to smack your friends over the head with a extra huge ruler??
And since when has being mean shown affection?

If your friends don't like you for who you are then they really aren't friends at all are they? Real friends should like all of you and leave you when you want to be left. Not pick at your bad qualities because they pop up more often than usual.
Also, its common sense to deal with your own problems.
And especially not tell them to someone evil and intimidating.

Like today. I was doodling on Rachels drawing like she always does on mine. FOR A LAUGH
Straight away she started whining and saying it was mean. As soon as i open my mouth to say what i think, Laura comes in and tells me to shut up.
Its just not nice.

Then in PE, she 'advised' me to open up more and tell people about my problems. I do. I just don't tell her because i feel that i can't.
I tell sarah everything. She doesn't usually listen but i still tell her some then leave the rest for when its just me and her. I tell cora everything because she listens and doesn't pick at anything. I can also relate to her.
Cora= good friend
Sophia=good friend
Sarah=pain in the arse, but moderatly good friend
Rachel=friend.
Laura=demon woman
Sam=imatation of demon woman
Jamie= ...guy!
Edward = (apart from being lampost) friend
Fay= good friend
Zoe= moderatly good friend

All these people are the people i talk to basically every day.
Not all of them are on ET, but i see them at school (Bad point).

Anyone who startes to rant about my rant against me will be acused of not paying attention.
[THIS IS NOT A HUFF]
What this is, is me speaking my mind to everyone who has had simalar things happen to them or just want to read something for good quality etertainment at laughing at other peoples pathetic rants.
Laugh away...

...In fact i'm gonna have a lil laugh too. "hahahahahaha"
¬.¬ done.

A lil note for all those people who i hang around with at break and lunch times.
From now on, i will be spending my time outside or in a separate room with anyone who wishes to join me.
Hopefully you will have a better time and therefore, will stop being so picky. I mean that from the top of my head.
poop to anyone who wants to laugh and call me 'gay' or 'pathetic' or 'huffy cow' or anything in tose kind of groups.

There, my rant is done, have a laugh XP

who saw supernatural last night?

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hee heei drew a picy!

its pwetty, put when i put it up... you will not see it on my page...

as it will be sent in a message to... becca!! XD cuz its of her!!

its looooovely!

skanned but not yet coloured!

XD happy franki. xx

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for all the people who hate valentines day!

for the girls--

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w00t!! i'm back!!

damn valentines day!!!

why do all those fucking cads have to have no names on??!!

*agrevated*

aww....

i miss everyone so much!!

...especially rachie!!
lubbles!!!!

love franki xxx

i´ve been on a spanish computer... it was crud...

if you weren´t on, i´m really sorry i missed ya.

xXx
love franki

thank you to the ONE person who read that.

i wil shoot the rest of you now.

*BANG*

read my diary entry- Thursday 2005-12-22

or i will shoot you

okay!!

anyone who thinks poets suck, then you are all fuckers!!
e-mail me saying either -poets suck- or -i am a fucker-

if youagree with me that poets are the best thing since sliced bread, e-mail me saying -damn straight!!- or -poets rock mah socks!-

to help you decide, i have made a wiki with my favourite poems. so take a look, then lemme know if you agree or disagree. thank you. -Diaelo-

this really hurts--

i hate pe and i will never do it again (willingly)

damn he/she teacher!!

i tripped over the skipping rope while doing circuit training and sprained the ligaments in my right foot. so i'm borrowing my uncles walking stick... missing geography though!! yay!

and i got to rie in a wheelchair!! yaaaaaaaaaay!!

feeling extreamly upset now.

my bro was saying et was a pido chat room to his girlfriend. my dad overheard and has said he doesn't like me going on so i think he's gonna ban me from it. my mum said she'd talk to him but i doubt it'll work. :'(