today was fine. got bad news and REALLY good news. the bad news is my friend tigan is mad at me....for resons. no i dident do anything to her or pissed her off. i did something i shouldent which is rare b/c i also have this reputation of being a good gurl. never got in trouble or had a tarty in my life exept when i was 7......i bit a guy he was harrasing me. so i bit him. it was funny tho. he stood at least 3-5ft away from me since. but anyway the good news. my poem i wrote is in the semi finals. of i win i get 5,000 dollors. yay. so its being published in a book.......i cant wait. my mom wants me to become a wrighter but i want to be a ecobotnist or w/e its the study of plants and animals. tho it would be a miracle if i did win....... i cant wait for the results. im surprised i even got that far....but its not over. if i dont win i'll just try again later on in the year. the poem is called STOLE
You stole my dreams
You stole my hope
Whenever we are together i'm in a rope
Drop i will
Cry i shall
Knowing u took everything away from me
Everything i loved
Everything i hated
Everything exept you my best friend
thats my poem.....that got me that far. its my fav. so i enterd it. lol . g2g . chores. lol

im a day..ahead in my dairy i just found out.....pritty strange. oh well i know i can fix it but i dont feel like it. so ya today was fun and sad...i found out my friends was sent to the hospital b/c she cut her self w/ a knife 2 deep(on purpose ) and then a friend of mine 5 th hour yesterday..tried to commit sucide.........but i cant let all these thing get to me......i'm tired and need a rest a vacation....i have been so depressed lately. o well cant let my parents notice...but my dad will just yell at me saying all this crap. he dosent care im guessing or hes drunk most the time. but my mommy always cheers me up & my friend melissa. shes kool 2 shes a year older than me but hey shes way kool plus we have all the same things in common. she loves inuyasha just like me and she loove kingdom hearts. so kool so we get togeher on weekends to play for fun...but lately we havent shes grounded. but know shes ungrounded. yay. she ditched class......so she got detentions and was grounded. 3-6 3 of them......shes such a trouble maker and a lound mouth but shes fun. in a couple days im getting my hair dyed red. ya. right now its dark brown.....looks black but brown. i get that color b/c im american indian. pritty kool huh. im a cherikie or what ever lol. well i g2g my hands are gettin tired from typeing.

O-k today was a ok day...exept for my friend be a butthole.....her names brittney or britt...she was so mean 2 me and she secretly hates me i know it...sh e always tells me to shut up never anyone else just me...and she talks non stop in resource. She also hates when ppl tell her to shut up. but she tell me to shut up. frankily i'm getting tired of her. and shes so dramatic. and such a girly girl i hate it shes so weak to the point its patetic. my friend tegan pushes her and then she says "ow that hurt". such a baby. then my mom keep digging into my life. my ex only went out w/ me b/c he felt srry for me. my friends are have a major conflict and i'm in the middle. *sigh* but i'm tryin to keep my kool.....tho i havent really. im just yelling at everyone. so the'll leave me alone. thats my hole goal to get ppl to leave me alone....i have some friends but sometimes they piss me off. but i just cant be around ppl w/ out being self-conscious. i always think the worst of things......but the truth is i relly want alot of friends im just afraid a person might judge me befor they get to know me. i'm really a funny person. "UR f****** hallarius" or thats what my friends say......mostly when i'm mad and that offten..unless my friends feed me candy....then i turn into trouble.....a big trouble makes and a dare devil..i'll do anything when i'm hyper....its really funny and i yell alot when im hyper......but in a goodway...any way i g2g dinner. yum.

to days my first dairy entry. yay. tho i might have a bunch of mistakes on my typin b/c my computer wont let me see what im typing. lol.but anyway to days an o-k day...still cant find a date to turnabout:(..oh well this one guy brain turned me down..and he likes me 2..i just dont get why...mabey b/c hes friends w/ my ex. dale...hes nice tho..and really sweet but hes not for me....i guess i'll keep loking. LOL. my mommy nina cant go to turn about b/c of her parents....so her BF dales crushed.FYI: my old ex. so shes stuck at home like me. Darn. i'm happy b/c now i have a friend to talk to.....all my friends are goin. except brain hes stuck baby sitting. but anyway im goin to post some of my art up during the weekend. i just joined so i'm new.....ya new. just like me in high school....god i sound a morrn. oh well thats life. my lifes all about being a morrn and a werido. i also have the rep of being a heartless mean person....i also have attitude to other ppl. of corse they dont know me so they say stuff...but thats o-k as long as my friends now thats not true...im really a shy gurl...but around my friends.....look out lol..any way i g2g. i'll be back tom for another entrie. lol