priest: welcome my dear friends, to my sweet darling home for once upon a time this is and was wanderland. I hope and pray for you all that you will not become lost in your own mind, then perhaps you could escape this hell land.

alright, lets organize what I just said in the last diary entry...
age: around 30-40, I say hes 30
occupation: works with the polar express as the gate keeper...that sounds creepy
hair colour: strawberry blonde ^^ YAY!!!shaved sides and a braided rat tail in the back...though it was unbraided on the last day was, for some reason or another in my head, fluffy sexy like...
eyes: dark blue, his pupils are large because of thyroid problems...hes a sickly man evidently
cons: chews tobacco, and is a carnival worker( thats bad to the rest of the world)
pros: he can keep really really good smelling breathe and a smooth throat even though he CHEWS!!!!gives me candy and understands my problems...I love his voice, its very smooth and soothes my mind...
tattos: a star-ish thing, and a tiger
wears: his carni man clothings and a really good smelling sweater, necklace with a star and a sword, theyre in dog tag form...SUN GLASSES!!!with them he almost looks exactly like wesker almost
food habits: hates food like me ^^ but drinks pepsi and water

even through fair week is over, my migranes continue...oh well...^^ but the CARNY MAN!!!!!!I absolutely love how he looks...and no this isnt some perverted sense, from a strange artists perspective, his body was amazing to draw then there was his HAIR!!!!HA!!!!!!feathery HAIR!!!!!!this probably makes no sense to those who dont know me personally or were there to see him...I still want his sunglasses...you would all have to see him in person, the best I have is sucky little cell phone piccys, and ironically the only one that turned out good was the one where I was pretending to talk on the phone and turned sideways, he was giving me the strangest look. his voice is very smooth and relaxes me every time I hear it, hes AMAZING!!!lol he drinks pepsi a lot and glares at the others when they walk even near it...the pictures arent showing!!!!!!GAH!!!!!!!

random inspiration moment caused by a fever migrane o.O

demons inside,
come forthe with a rathe
emotions colide
so many a path

fit for only a king,
the cure is pain
let emotions sting
tears, they do stain

my head, hurts so
the devil himself haunts,
making want to let go,
like my life is just a taunt.

body blessed,
pain is a sensation.
my mind just messed,
like a contamination.

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can the sweet sins suffice?
could you take away my misery,
take my feelings no matter how nice.
and complete me with sweet blissary.

this feeling drives me far from sane,
looking into the mirror
my true feelings I can not sistain.
steal me away from this glore.

save me oh sweet heavenly being,
your smile brings me back,
bring me back to my feeling.
the devil has stolen me, I lack.

the mirror presents my appearence not,
all I can see is you, your sweet smile.
I beg of you, please save me, my blood shall clot.
my body is cut in so many places, in a complex style.

I will never understand why,
why did you deny me the first time?
all I did, and could do, was cry
such weeping was no the worst pain, but the crime.

I listened to the chimes, my head hurts so,
but yet you do not help!
I can never stop until this pain shall go.
I hope and pray that this will prove that I am no whelp.

just to look, the colour soothes my mind,
I presented the sacrifice to you each day in hopes.
you do not approve of my selfish ways,no such thing as kind
I will never understand why you hate me for my stoops.

here I lay, my body broken. I can no longer help it,
I must stop these crimes and horific plans,
I give up all my hopes and dreams of you, my heart is lit,
you decieved me, and had me join strange clans.

the devil stole my heart, then played and toyed,
I no longer own my own soul, but I shall create another!
My mind you shall never touch, nor destroy.
these defiances, proved my death though, my breathe you did smother...

IM HOME!!! lol lovely little hom with the fishies....my chick was extremely happy to see me (I mean a chicken for those who have perverted minds and CANT GET IT THROUGH THEIR THICK SKULLS THAT IM STRAIGHT!!!) she would quit climbing on me and talking...but anywhoo...Im home and theres more work to be done house work wise ^^ and friend relationships wise -.o...why cant people tweak with their OWN lives? if youre gonna mess with mine, you could at least give me cookies or e-mail me every now and then ^^ BUT!!!!!![Xiaos-magical-trip-recorings-to-a-land-unknown]shall come soon!!!!

Im off to montana for about 4 days -.o Ill be back thursday, I may be able to get on later during that, but Ill most likely only get to checking my e-mails, all friends of mine go ahead and send me some at lazarua@verizon.net ^^ bye bye for now, Ill try to have a good time

there she lays,
all dressed in black.
she was wed by the bay,
but words she did lack.

her soon to be husband,
had looked upon her with a smile
and there they would stand.
Just to wait a while.

all dressed in white,
looking upon a ring,
like the other, but not quite.
oh, what fate it would bring.

the man down upon one knee,
her small body a-quiver,
her small face full of glee,
oh quite a shiver.

back to the high school days,
her grades fail due to love pure,
her loving parents in dismays,
for love, there is no cure.

I love my music boxes....my favorite one is dying though *so sad* I want one like in RE code veronica though, the one where you put in the disc, like a record player but designed like a music box with the little prongs and everthing....those are the coolest...my trip to town was scary though....I suddenly had the urge to draw a half nude person sleeping in her death....then I went to the dentist...they had this stuffty "mustang" with HUMAN teeth...that wasnt the worst though...then there was the fish with "cute" murderous eyes..I went to the "prize" room for sitting still for more than 5 minutes and earned this strange pencil topper that is a blue elephant...with VERY CREEPY EYES...on our way out I finished the drawing and moved onto Sir Michi Vious's casual wear outfit drawing and spotted this very intent old old lady driving her van. she was bent over her steering wheel and going about 25 in a 50 mph zone...every time someone got in front of her she would honk at them, shake her fist, and say very rude words to them...I have to record every trip Im sorry, but strange and interesting things happen when I do

alright people >.< since it seems so very entertaining to you that when I tell you whats wrong and you say "oh no, that cant be it." I have choice words for you!!!!CHEESE MUFFIN GNARL STEAKS!!!!!! since when is it humanly possible for someone I barely know to tell me exactly what I feel and why? theres only a few people who can do that...if you REALLY REALLY wanna help, find a male thats seemingly perfect to me with flaws, and for the females turn into males and love me passionatly!!!!HA!!!!!!you cant, can you? then WHY KEEP ASKING THE SAME QUESTION OVER AND OVER?!

alrights peoples....I think Ive found the problem to hooking the playstaion up online!!haha!!!so if Im right, thisll be the beggining point of me getting on even less. thing is the computer evidently cant be on when I reset the router because then it immediatly goes "OOO!!!!!!compy, lets make that the more logical of all!!!HAHAHAHHA!!!" but I will still get on every once in a while. if youre on my messenger list, and you cant live with me being gone for so long (-.-) then go ahead and give me messages on here. until next time my friends!!wish me luck!!!!

[new character!!!!]
Enter Sir Michi Vious!!!
the school project poem was what started it all...put his name together and take out the sir, what do you get? hes a character I would never abandon
anywhoo the poem:
[Sir Michi Vious,]
A man of the age 29,
With long dirty blonde hair,
His foxy blue eyes
Glare down his long beak nose.
Wearing elaborate suits,
Blue trimmed with gold.
Dances slyly with girls,
In dangerous irksome ways.
Sir Michi Vious,
Lives in the attic…
Of a mansion.
Be wary of his perilous
Dances on cliffs…
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I have given him a cult revolver and a rifle he seems to have constantly misplaced when he really need it, but trips on it when not needed...he is quite the ladys man, but mainly fancies Falconys adopted daughter, Siera, yes spelt with only one "r". please excuse me lucifur for using the colour blue!!! its just a nice colour...but he always makes people pay for even the smallest of things, and plans to use the money to make a "carrot farm" to help wench the thirst problem of all birds world wide! this is horribly ironic since he is always accidently shooting Falcony's birds in a attempt to shoot Falcony making a loud noise.

character ties:
Falcony: he visits her shop frequently to buy guns and bullets...which he never does because he's convinced he's poor, he fancies her daughter
Xiao:has a crush on him, and is always broken hearted when he starts flirting with girls in front of her...
Siera:the shy girl ignores everyone, but Michi loves everything about her from her clear brown eyes to her dirty blonde hair to her perfect clear complection
Princess Sheena: She wants him for her 15 husband

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Siera!!!
age:15
height:5'6"
eye colour:brown
hair:dirty blonde
skin:pale with a slight tan
weapon: N/A

Character ties:
Falcony: her adopted daughter, her father died in building fire set by Princess Sheena's hench men for not marrying her
Xiao:best friends and sworn sisters
Michi Vious:he loves her, and she doesnt even realize hes there
Princess Sheena: constantly she is almost murdered by Sheena for having a finer complection than her

lonely nights locked away in a computer room, all alone and only me, the music, my lovely pencil, and my magic nib quill. drawing endlessly listening to lucifur's complaints of how Germany's baby lotion is much better priced than in America, Tako-sons wonderful story times, Alexia talking about her cosmetic items, k'doxi and his many question, and then the other people...these conversations seem completely normal to me, and others think theyre strange...YOU TRY BEING CUT OFF OF HUMAN CONTACT FOR OVER TWO MONTHS...spending the night at tako's only makes me want to run over there again...I crave human contact O.o anything and everything can be a drug, mine
1:caffeinne
2:sugar...as in the powdery stuff...its a hobby and a passtime at the mall to steal them without being knowtist
3: ANY type of tea
4:GINSING!!!!!!
5:FRUIT!!!!!(this is the secret to my hyperness...its the natural fructose that makes me hyper)
6:hmmm.....salt used to be...its disgusting now.....
7:little candies with rum inside!!!1cooked mind you

Quote from Tako-son: "The world isn't ready for your handwriting Xiao...."

[because I feel like it, story time!!!]
   She stared at the pear hanging from the tree blessed with the kiss of the morning dew. "Xiao, what are you doing? I don't recall ever reading that khajids eat fruit." Xiao twirled in her new pink victorian dress. "Terribably [yes, to be purnounced like that!] sorry Master Princess Sheena!" She returned to folding the clothings before her.
   "Stupid freak girl! How dare you! First you defy me by not being able to wear make-up, then you fold the clothings wrong! It's left to right, now up to down!" All the while Sheena never looked up from the mirror adoring her sky blue hair.

O.o wow!!!I remembered who the "real" fourth husband is/was!!!!KING ALBERT!!!....somehow remembering this set me into some weird frenzy of putting strange braids and twirls into my hair with cheap little beads...blue,pink,and purple!!!theres four strands that are complete beads, one mainly consisting of pink, another blue, and the other two are mainly purple....perhaps Ill put a piccy up eventually after I find a way to hide my face

O.o wow!!!I actually managed to read all of my "new messages" finally....some of them were 2 months old, there is such a thing as too many friends!!!^^ my apologies to everyone though. I get about 24 a day if I do reply -.- fairly annoying, but its mainly my fault because I do multiple messages a lot if I forget to say something.

[>UPDATE ON PARRO'S LIFE]
Husband Number 5: Loz

[who are the old ones?!?!]
well my willy hearted friends who are probably staring over a tea cup horribly confused at this erm, strange attribute of me appearing online all of a sudden. In order of 5 marriage (Im a little greedy whore-ish girl)
1:Zhou Yu
2:Albert Wesker
3:Walter Sullivan
4:Tako-sama
5:Captain Hook!!!
6:Lucifur
7:Trixie's brother!!!!!!!!!!
8:Loz

he's pulled the last string for me, if theres anything that irratates me more than anything, its lies. he comes up with the idea of going to the mall, then lies about not being able to go. after all I went through to earn money, and asking one of my best friends to go with already. now im going to appear rude by suddenly going "oh its not going to happen". why advoid me AND be my friend at the same time? theres no point in it! at least I pretended to be his friend and drew him close as to not lose my temper and rip him limb from limb, but this, this is not going to pass. Ive been nothing but kind to him over the years, putting up with him tearing me away from my other male contacts (I remember the mall trip when we ran into scott well cody, very well) I put up with it! and when you bashed two of my best friends, the war between you, lucifur and alexia I dont care much about because I know that alexia would rip your tongue out of your mouth...or a much worse spot for males. for the record though, I keep a level head when angry. I wont do anything...unrational. how do I know? how likely would it be that, the mother you talk about being so strict let you be at johns still if shes supposed to be over at your house in less than three hours? and the sudden vacation being in place for a month? you wouldve known earlier, and actually expecting me to forget something you know Id look forward to after being all alone ever since the begining of summer break? how foolish is that! you are just a greedy child who hasnt even grown out of the toy playing stage. its no wonder you dont have any actual friends who are sober long enough even to realize who you really are, much less when you are a "horny teenage boy" no one would have slept with you! pointless child anticts!!! I am begining to reconsider my mothers theory is right, that you are a lonely FEMALE child looking for some attention. *shakes head at him* what a foolish move to make when everyones angry at you, I was most likely, without very much likeliness to be the only hope for you to ever be friends with the new order group ever again. I can already tell that yo will live a very lonely life, if you dont die of alcohol poisoning before your twenties.