Guess what... i m off
well as i ve always been i guess n i hope i m wrong this time but something happend 2 someone i really care about
its probably my fault but i dont actually know wtf it is
so i dont wanna hurt the rest the same way so i just leave
hope you all dont mind...

had 2 more bad dayz why lifez always been like that????????????????????????????????????


Yea i guess you wanna know
Yesterday i went home n then well i left 5 mins later to go and go to take my extra classes where i met HER again (she also did that yea she also changd that....) anyway she was sad n i didnt know why but i didnt bother (i was thinkin that may b that would make her dislike me) but i was wrong............................
Then she was all depressd n everythin n we didnt even spoke *thought that my day would go on well* but i was called from her sister when i got home n was asked to go to some place to talk(obviously with the sister) yet there was a surprise .... i went there cause i would probably be able to explain her sister and then tell her but i was told to follow her and so did I till we reached some place which seemed like a place of a party... i sat there and noticed that everyone was there except her it felt a little weird cause i didnt knew what we would celebrate then well door bell rings n i m told to go and open (thats what i do) i notice that over there its well its HER n suddenly her face is lighted n shez happy *she hugz me n well kissez me n i dunno even whats up n am too stunned to talk* i notice that the rest say happy birthday and nice plan billy so i understand whats up but from then on i am not given a chance to explain (i havent told that to anyone yet cause well i m the one who should tell her but i dont see a way of doing it :S) so its still weird n yet i dont know why she jst puts up a smily face at the time she seez me and i dont wanna ruin all this cause i know her n i doubt whether she would last (i have been there for her all the times i doubt whether she can deal with them on herself) so i dont know :/ i hope that may b she will like someone or that i will find a reason to break up or something like that (yet i havent told that we are together OMG)

Yea yea things are agen going on like crap....................................................................................................................
2day i started school again n tomorrow i will get my books.... so i got a surprise in the mornin though.... it was a huge one actually
Billy goes to school with his cousin n his best friend.... n while walkin suddenly notices that the same girl that has been there for him has switched school and will be in his class from now and....

Guess what>
lifez kept on being a bitch
the thing bout my foot well yea my foot is crackd...
and well i m here once agen tird n really scared
guess what billy has been playing chess today all day long he was the leader in a 4 member team and the team went well *got second place out of 21 participants :P* n well i was playin as the best player next to me was the second one *livin here 2 n well i dunno i jst have seen HER (yea its her) for a long time.... n i dunno what happend and she was behavin in a weird way.... *well after 4 games we went 2 eat n well she asked me 2 be just us cause she would ask me something ... i said ok but well  it was more like a date i didnt want it to be though :S n well then she thought that we would go out together :/ but well its jst the way life is and i dont know what to do anymore then well while leavin (i was with her n her lil sister in her father's car with her father in...) she askd when we ll date again n i was like O.o n i said i dunno i got a lot of classes *couldnt stand sayin the truth at this time coz well she was there for me i couldnt say it for her the same day that she helpd me that much


*guess what i m startin to think of fillin it up lol its probably coz i write a lot over ere :P*

Yea lifez being a bitch once again one thing just leadz to another.....

yesterday i went with some friends and played some football i cn barely walk now tho :/
i got my brain down cause i ve been in classes the past 10 hours n well things cn always get worse i jst dont hope they wont anymore :S

Feeling that way is RARE....
n well as far as i know i do feel that way



Girl: Do I ever cross your mind?
Boy: No
Girl: Do you like me?
Boy: Not really
Girl: Do you want me?
Boy: No
Girl: Would you cry if I left?
Boy: No
Girl: Would you live for me?
Boy: No
Girl: Would you do anything for me?
Boy: No way
Girl: What would you choose: your life..or me?
Boy: My life
The girl runs away in shock and pain and the boy runs after her and says...
The reason you never cross my mind is because you're always on my mind. The reason why I don't like you is because I love you. The reason I don't want you is because I need you. The reason I wouldn't cry if you left is because I would die if you left. The reason I wouldn't live for you is because I would die for you. The reason why I'm not willing to do anything for you is because I would do everything for you. The reason I chose my life is because you ARE my life...

well whatever i m really down i dont wanna do anythin anymore i m tird but i cnt go n sleep i m losin ma life :'(

:(
I dont really wanna go on holidayz but that d be rude of me and me mom told me that if i jst dont go i cant stay here coz ma back is supposd 2 get betta if i jst go in the sea :(
after all i am gonna miss ya all -leavin sumday @ random :'(-

I am missin my bro :'(

well
i dont no who or hw many ppl are gonna jst read thz
i am DMing at a D&D game and actually i am not luvin it :(
i need me free tym bk
missin ya bbz
:(

hmmmmmmz
i guess i give up
neway
jst e mail....

Me diary me diary.... OoO i guess it jst is sumit that only a phew will check themselves
so for all of ya who jst see thz i am back :)
sumit else came up lolanother prob and fixed the first one :P

Well here we go agen
i know that all i do over here is hurtin ppl by lettin em no me and stuff
so i think i am gonna take a break coz i need to think of many thingz
i dunno how much this is gonna last
if anythin goes wrong someone will log in and infom
bye
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