brother is in hospital
bout a worm thing
is getting operated tomorrow morning

it just happened today
its the thing ummm bout his stomach!
thats it
!

n then after that
*dont wanna mention what*
just days wouldnt end
1 hour seemed like 1 day
n billy had nothing to do
its been a week like that
n billy still hasnt found out what to do
so he thinks that perhaps going on vacation on the 22nd might help.
aint taken any decisions yet
just dunno what to do the whole day
i actually have tried all the games i got in my computer
even the ones that aint in windows
+
i have played all the mame games n reached that ends...
(mame is a pack of almost 1000 games that usually were played in slot machines)
so
heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeelp!

92% percent of the teen population would be dead if Abercrombie and Fitch said it wasn't cool to breathe anymore. Repost this if you are one of the 8% who would be laughing your ass off.

Billy will b gone from the 3rd april till the 8th in a trip with his school.... hopefully he ll be back on 9th :P

is in need of someone *dont wanna name de person*

proly not gonna b around much anymre
sorry me dear friends
just everything is gettin worse n worse
perhaps i shuldnt b here anymre

been told that me shuld do lots of thingys....
still need to take sum tym to relax
wont b given that tym tho so me needs the patience
*Sigh*
family...

me wants to apologise to me friends for bein so silent the past week
me is just missin her lots n havin a rough time i guess

me wants to apologise to me friends for bein so silent the past week
me is just missin her lots n havin a rough time i guess

*neck hurst too much so i aint feelin that great well nevermind i guess*

what i ve kept on regretin this days is not grabbin the chance the other day
the real chance to talk to her....
*sigh*
been doin that a lot right?just like i just found out what it feels like i guess its just because people are like willin to help n everythin even though they cant
they do wanna but just cant
there are some things in life  for which you gotta just regret i guess oh well all i can really do is b patient till the day comes....
(please dont make any comments about this)
love ya babe

sigh
i m missin everyone
just everyone n way too much
wanna go some place n start crying
*sigh*
i guess i cant i gotta be strong for those who need me n for the others who dont
i guess i m complainin about life too
oh well
shut up billy

missin her....

i think billys sick
else just tummy hurts a lot
if i m sick its gonna take a while
else just ttyl :)

yea right.... i m just  sick
had a really rough day n just came outa ed
i miss her a lot n just wanna talk to her...
so i hope things are gonna b allrgiht again i m glad Costas (my cousin ) is around so i m not havin that rough time....
i m probably not gonna b around for a while... :/

you see i m sleepless
+ i got school again n thats makin it worse i cnt stand bein awake over there
+ i m missin her
+ i got my cousin 2 n cant stnad seeing him like that cause hez the only person i still got
+ we are on about to get grades n that means extra pressure from my parents.... for sure even though they are gonna b good they never get satisfied....
PS... something happend at the chess club i m in n i am not really willin to talk about it but i have to deal with that 2

yea right lifez crap again
my cousinz really depressd
hez talkin bout life n how depressin it cn b n how pointless it is ... so i m just gonna try to help him
if i m down i guess thz is gonna b the reason
he just was there for me through everythin so i think that i have to do this at least for him.... or for the person he used to be

yea emptyness ..... n loadz bout it i dont know how actually to say this just needin sum space...


+
something came up agen....

dont ask why i just feel like me again.... i mean the really old me ;P
i dont have a clue why n it might b just for tomorrow so just enjoy.... its free (:

i m mad at billy.... everyone i know is mad at billy
n well i just dont see a reason to care anymore
i ll probably not be online anymore after next year starts
i guess i ll have to try to move on
(me movin on huh ?)
ermmm... i am not good at saying things like that i just know that things ll hardly ever be ok but things ll also just b perhaps not for me but for the people i care about ( they arent that many anymore )
i just think that the reason why i am writing all these down is coz i m billy n i just dont wanna b like that again cause being mad at your own self is the worse feelin u can have........ n if you doubt it try bein mad at your own self
i ve been like <blah -blah> all these time n been writin down whatever came up in my mind so if it dusnt make any sense i d like to apologise to those who ll try readin it n if it does i hope you just arent gonna feel the same thing
couldnt feel more loneliness ..............................n it SUCKS
greetings to all of you that used to say goodbye but just wont anymore....
PS
new year=no billy
PS 2
now i just see (tho its tooooooooooooooooooooo late) that some things shouldnt b said.... yet my feelings havent changd... i just didnt change my feeelings bout anyone or anythin except from me.....
so whoever read this remember therez always a way back
xxxxxxxx
THERE IS JUST ONE THING I DOUBT
THEY SAY THAT YOU UNDERSTAND HOW MUCH YOU LOVE SOMEONE WHEN THAT PERSON IS GONE.... I DONT THINK SO

well
just wanna say something...
lifez never been the way it shuld be
noone ever said that life would be fair
i know that when its up to life,life hardly ever gives something which is gonna be taken away at any time just cause you missed the spot that well kinda happened to me but i m still here nw n thats what matters
i m fine
n yet i know that all u need to do is always carry on going the way you know you should thats the only thing helping cause it makes you feel better
the explanation for that is way 2 simple
you just know for yourself that even if you didnt make it you tried to n so you wont be regreting doing something like that
what i am tryin to say is something i m not sure about at all lol :)
i ll just try to move on like nothingz happened dunno if its like that :)
my lifez a mess but i dont care i m healthy n shez around :)))