the past days why do i just feel like breaking in pieces ?
is it just so right not to be complete ?
perhaps i wont feel complete anymore i dont know
and perhaps this break thing will help me
well i just know that things wont be the same anymore...

perhaps this is just another habbit ?
but ehm
i m not in a good mood today
like i havent been for days
its not like i can help it anymore
i did my best the other days and things quite changed but ehm now ?
i just cant 
so i think i wont be around  till i feel better i mean its not like there is much sense right ? ehm anyway thought you should know... i m just tired of these days *sigh*
things will so be alright NOT

its been like one week since things have changed
again
and yet all i can do is think bout her
ehm feels just quite weird every single day
and there are always the same thoughts on my mind
and always thinking what if?
but then i just understand that all i can actually do is ehm ?
think of her
and yet i dont know if i can actually tell her ><
mad at myself perhaps
i really wanted to say these....
other than that ehm i m going to leave for thesaloniki next monday so.... ehm enjoy :)

just read the mood ><



PS
Dont expect replys.....

1st
i was quite happy
then i got annoyed
then i got angry
then i dont know
i guess
bye

its been almost 3 months
i don't really am willing to talk about that but i guess i never will
i don't know why i decided to write these down i guess i just didn't wanna forget it
see i ve always not been understadable n i know that there wont be any people that may understand this
but oh well let me see
i dont mind i really need to write these down
see its been 3 months
n still i m lonely n not through it but its been 3 bloody months n i just can hardly wait ....
hopefully it ll just change n things ll get to be alright again but as long as i know its not just up to me *sighs* i need my life back
i guess i ll just make it n pretend to hug people until they get there.....

its almost been a month n it really ish killing me might not be showing it myself but oh well i guess its cause i m trying my best

brother is in hospital
bout a worm thing
is getting operated tomorrow morning

it just happened today
its the thing ummm bout his stomach!
thats it
!

n then after that
*dont wanna mention what*
just days wouldnt end
1 hour seemed like 1 day
n billy had nothing to do
its been a week like that
n billy still hasnt found out what to do
so he thinks that perhaps going on vacation on the 22nd might help.
aint taken any decisions yet
just dunno what to do the whole day
i actually have tried all the games i got in my computer
even the ones that aint in windows
+
i have played all the mame games n reached that ends...
(mame is a pack of almost 1000 games that usually were played in slot machines)
so
heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeelp!

92% percent of the teen population would be dead if Abercrombie and Fitch said it wasn't cool to breathe anymore. Repost this if you are one of the 8% who would be laughing your ass off.

Billy will b gone from the 3rd april till the 8th in a trip with his school.... hopefully he ll be back on 9th :P

is in need of someone *dont wanna name de person*

proly not gonna b around much anymre
sorry me dear friends
just everything is gettin worse n worse
perhaps i shuldnt b here anymre

been told that me shuld do lots of thingys....
still need to take sum tym to relax
wont b given that tym tho so me needs the patience
*Sigh*
family...

me wants to apologise to me friends for bein so silent the past week
me is just missin her lots n havin a rough time i guess

me wants to apologise to me friends for bein so silent the past week
me is just missin her lots n havin a rough time i guess

*neck hurst too much so i aint feelin that great well nevermind i guess*

what i ve kept on regretin this days is not grabbin the chance the other day
the real chance to talk to her....
*sigh*
been doin that a lot right?just like i just found out what it feels like i guess its just because people are like willin to help n everythin even though they cant
they do wanna but just cant
there are some things in life  for which you gotta just regret i guess oh well all i can really do is b patient till the day comes....
(please dont make any comments about this)
love ya babe

sigh
i m missin everyone
just everyone n way too much
wanna go some place n start crying
*sigh*
i guess i cant i gotta be strong for those who need me n for the others who dont
i guess i m complainin about life too
oh well
shut up billy

missin her....

i think billys sick
else just tummy hurts a lot
if i m sick its gonna take a while
else just ttyl :)