Know Thyself.

Think about what that means...

'Who are you.'

Who you are means alot of things. I realize it can be taken kinda vague.

Who you are is basically your identity, right? What kind of person you are, what things you're into, and the things associated with you.

What you want. What you can offer. What you stand for.

..Those are pretty important things. It defines everything in our lives, and how people percieve us.

I've come to realize that I know exactly who I am.

I also know that many of the people that care about me, don't have that much faith in me.

I know who I am, and I believe in my own worth. If you don't have faith in me, then you don't know me.

It's apparent, I think.

I'm me.

But is that really you? Do you know what you want? Do you even really know who you are?

As someone once put it...You're 'beautifully broken.'

I'm not sure even time will mend those wounds.


-Chad-

I don't really think I understood the power of religion..until this morning...

Maybe, my faith will be restored to me.

Prayer of Confession:
"Sometimes we don't want to hear your words of forgiveness, Merciful One. Sometimes we have done things that we don't think deserve to be forgiven. There are people we have harmed who will never really forget and there are people who have hurt us that we don't want to forgive. How long will we hold ourselves and others unforgiven? Open our ears to your words of comfort. Open our hearts to the mercy of your love. Open our lives that we may once again be free."

Yeah..

-Chad-

'The notes of logic always bring forth the melody of Truth.'

You may think you have 'the best boyfriend in the world' but that doesn't mean you love him.

...And he's not.


Only time will tell how things turn out.

-Chad-

Of all the things I've done...

Of all the hopes and dreams I had.

Nothing is more vital than my memories.

I won't delete everything, block people, and pretend things are fine by running away.

...I know my faults. I admit them. But...the things I was accused of? Bullshit.

A new infatuation..Once again. I'm not surprised. This is all too familiar. And all so boring.

I'm not you. I do different things, and I don't run away.

I no longer wish to be associated with you...Or anything.

I know why it happened. But, it's no concern now. Just willing to move on, as I should have.

I have my memories.

Good. Bad. Sad.

...The happiest/saddest times of my life.

..All cherished.

...Because it makes me who I am. Who I will be. And who I'm associated with now.

...I am my own man.

...And I don't need you anymore...

I'll love you for the rest of my life. Not just because you were my first.

...But because when I say 'I love you' it's forever.

...That's what unconditional love is.

That's what my love is.

..Even if it gets taken for granted, it's my love.

You're just not worthy of it.

-Chad-

I just want things to go back to normal...

I hate dealing with this crap...

Its tough for both sides...

All I want is for you to be okay.

All I want is to hold you.

I hate this. So why is it happening?

Fun, fun..

Great time at the dance...

I had fun.

Then soccer game? Kick ass. 4-1, Us. Suck it, Dirigo. Poor Benji...Getting a concussion and all.

Ah. And then the quality time with the two bosom buddies...

...Who are SO friggin' WEIRD!!!!

...Seriously??? Who makes a brownie ball and gets a concussion from it???

...Finlay.

Or..I should say, Milkless.

Yeah. I'm Milkfull.

Dani's Milkduds.

...Damn. The Yellow Submarine. Totally random acid trip..

Anyhoo, a totally awesome 4 day weekend for me.

-Chad-

WOOT!

Wow...Can't believe how happy I am...

I SAW ADVENT CHILDREN!!!!

Oh man...

Talk about SWEET movie. Kicked so much ass..

So yeah. Suck it, lame asses.

...And I'll tell you some other time...

-Chad-

My diary won't be empty anymore...

I dunno about sad..

But definitely not empty..

Yeah, count it...

1.

...Right on.

-Chad-