Wow...

Back home after two semesters of college. It's strange being back home. I'm actually kinda sad right now.

I mean, it's not like I don't like being home. I do enjoy the comfort of having my parents around..

But..I miss my friends. I spent so much time with them... To think days like that might not come around again for awhile.

But things'll be different next time around. I'll have friends.. A different roommate (one that WON'T get drunk.)

And I dunno what else... I just really miss my friends.

It'll be depressing when I realize, 'Oh, I'm hungry... Let's go see what Steve, Kenny, and Rhashaun are doing.'



Good times...

Let's see...A recap..

AnimeBoston was awesome... I had so much fun with my friends.. I dunno, but next year I might have a table. Depends on if I get any better. I'm definitely going to Cosplay, probably as Rock Lee. It'll be fun. I'd definitely do the Masquerade if I was him, and it was a decent costume.

Let's see... I got attacked by a robot... Power rangers...and so many anime/pop culture costumes... Ah, it was amazing...

Next year? 3 days, bitch. I wanted to buy this Cloud costume, but I'm pretty sure it would've been expensive..but it was so damn cool...

Also for next year? Water. Or some form of hydration.

I went as a half assed Turk. Or possibly Light from Death Note.

...Yeah.

I also realized that not sleeping for about 3 days isn't healthy for you. But you will be unbelieveable frustrated at your teachers for being lazy.

I stared up all night doing an html project.

Got to the school, about to pass out from exhaustion.

She was sick.

O_o Anger rising...

Sent in the project through email, and left.

Went straight to work on my animation.

From dinner to class the next morning. Still didn't finish.

But, luckily, my teacher is the man..And he was totally cool about it.

I don't even know anymore..

But, later on...

We all gathered to watch Rhashaun go crazy with his card. He had about $180 left on his cafe card, and he ended to spend it or else it would've all gone to waste.

..We spent it on drinks.

Okay, so here's what happened. We spent some money on drinks, and gathered around the table.

We were all equipped with Red Bull. We were going to do our Red Bull toast. Only, we couldn't think of what to toast to.

Me: To Army in da sky!
Guys: To Army in da sky!

Now, I had never had Red Bull before. So immediately upon drinking it, I spat it out and exclaimed,

Me: NO ONE DRINK THE RED BULL! THE RED BULL HAS GONE BAD!

The guys laughed.

Rhashaun however, had taken a swig when I had yelled. He tried to hold back laughter.

...Kinda sucks with a mouthful of Red Bull.

He was choking...

And it went the only way it could.

Through his nose.

All of us: DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMN!

Rhashaun: ARGHH!!! (throws up)

...

Me: ....O_o

...

Awkward silence.

Rhashaun: (Regains composure) Dude! You almost fucking KILLED ME!

Me:...I'm sorry! I didn't know! I..didn't MEAN to...

That was my first Red Bull...

I guess I should end this... Long diary entry. Probably should've been a story, but it was...funny.

I forgot..I have rules to obey in this household...

-Chad-

I guess my heart goes out to all those in Virginia that were victim to the shooting...

I feel so bad for them. The worse school shooting in history.

I really feel for the Professor that sacrificed himself for his students.

It's people like him that reaffirm my faith in humanity..

Wherein the polar opposite is the student that actually did the school shooting...

He did it all because his girlfriend broke up with him.

It makes me angry and sad to hear such a thing. When something like that causes you to commit such an unforgivable crime...

It's not stupid. Normal people do stupid things occasionally. I believe what he did...was downright heartless. Insane, and just horrifying.

When someone that you loved leaves you... Everything becomes justified in your mind's eye. Revenge, and all other facets of hate and sadness..

It caused him to want to commit murder...

I don't really know what to think. It was just so horrifying ly wrong...that words can't begin to describe it.

This is so fucked up. There's not much more to be said. People argue that they could've prevented deaths if officials acted quicker... Could've prevented deaths if there were stricter gun control laws...

I don't think it's time for that debate just yet...

All in all... My heart goes out to those victims.

-Chad-

Wow... I really gotta do something constructive.

...

Nope. Still here.

Wrote something dumb other than filling out paperwork.

Yay!

Anyhow, this brief rundown of my week started simple, but ended up going WAY over board with details and useless stuff.

So then, halfway through it, I kinda just threw in everything else.

Maybe I'll go back in and fix it up better.

But again, another stupid college story.

(Ayden's Easter Week)

Read it, laugh, comment, get pissed, and etc.

-Chad-

...My history of Mass communications teacher was in an episode of Miami Vice?!

WHAT?!!

Life = Study/drawing/voice acting.....

I hate people...


-Chad-

...Homework, while everyone goes to play dodgeball...

Ugh. Guess I'm through with letting my responsibilities and duties take a back seat to having fun...

I've been working so damn hard lately...I can only hope I get better. I haven't noticed any significant improvements, but I'm hoping that'll change.

I just noticed how untalented and lazy I am. And for the first time, I'm flooded with a resolve and determination that wasn't there before. Or maybe it always was, and I never cared to ignite that spark. But it's there now, and it won't give me any rest.

Constant studying and practicing. I just need to improve. I want to be the best, and to me...

That's all that matters anymore.

It's the only way to obtain what I desire. Not material things, not even recognition or fame and glory.

...Just the peace of mind of knowing that I've reached the plane of skill and talent that I've dreamt and aspired of getting.

It's a lifelong goal, but I don't care. I'm not getting distracted anymore.

Not by anything. Or anyone.

-Chad-

Hmm...

Really bored. Kinda pissed...But maybe it's because I'm cranky from being so damn tired. I haven't been getting much sleep lately. And the dreams I do have when sleeping have been freaking me out. I dunno.

Elftown been freakishly boring ever since I got Gaia... Gaia is...It's just more interactive. I don't plan on ditching Elftown any time soon, but I probably won't be on it as much.

Right. I'm going home in a few hours to enjoy a Spring Break that's just going to be more of a pain than anything. I'm just looking forward to hanging out with the kids.

I'm getting prepped for AnimeBoston, too... I hope it's going to be really fun. Most of my friends are going, and I might even Cosplay. It's a toss up between Mugen from Samurai Champloo, or Light Yagami from Death Note. Mugen is definitely more difficult to pull off, but it'll be fun. I look more like him anyhow. Besides, I don't even WANT to think about what would happen if fan girls saw me as Light...

Class starts in eleven minutes... I'm so detached, and I don't really want to do anything right now. I feel so damn lonely. Just...constant loneliness. I'm with friends for a good portion of my day, but it's just this feeling of detachment that leaves me so empty. Maybe, I'm what people call "depressed." Clinically.

...

FUCK!

That's seriously pathetic.

In other news, I took a personality quiz. Let's see...

"You inspire others around you with your creative energy and thirst for new experiences. You are exceptionally curious and aren't afraid of learning new things — which is probably because you tend to focus on the potential positive outcome of any experience rather than dwelling on the potential negatives. You are a true explorer in the word. You want to understand and experience it all, and you're especially open to new feelings and ideas. Compared to others who are open, you are unusually imaginative. Only 1.8% of all test takers have this unique combination of personality strengths."

...Well, that's cool. Totally contracts what I've just spent the last few minutes rambling about.

So I guess I'm neutral.

Yay...

-Chad-

Not much to say..

Maybe I'm sick...maybe not...

I saw 'The Pursuit of Happyness today..Crazy stuff. I feel tired...so I might go to bed. Can't help of thinking about certain stuff, so I'll try to keep myself occupied somehow.

Hmm....this song...'Kesenai Tsumi,' is surprisingly deep and saddening...for being upbeat and happy.

The lyrics are kinda depressing, but I do like the song. It's Japanese, and it's one of the ending songs for FullMetal Alchemist.

"With you in my usual sight, I can breath
Even though that's already plenty enough to me

The petty me does nothing but repeat mistakes
How strong a strength do I need to have so that nothing will get hurt?

Without hesitation, I believe in this love and live on
I'll tightly embrace your unbandaged wound

And together we'll keep on walking, because we can't go back
Even now, the inerasable sin deep in my chest hurts, but- Darling

I remember the painfulness of the love I lost back then
I'm a little perplexed by the vivid blueness of this sky

For example, even if I sacrificed something,
I'd only believe in one thing
The color of the bloomed flowers in the instant
when your straightforward eyes reflect

Even if I'm powerless, I'll live on strongly in this destiny
We'll join our hands and our warmths will melt together forever
If so, even if the sins of more things to come will be painful

For example, if as long as I'm with you,
even if we just turn against the waves of the world...

Without hesitation, I believe in this love and live on
I'll tightly embrace your unbandaged wound

Without hesitation, I live in this destiny and live on
If I'm with you, surely we'll be connected forever
And together we'll only look forward,
Even if nothing came to be done
Nevertheless, I'll keep on protecting you with my hands by all means-

Darling"

Aside from a few odd looks at dinner today, nothing really unusual.

-Chad-

Yuube kanashii yume wo mita...

-Chad-

*Sigh*

Okay..

First off..Two links.

http://www.us.playstation.com/Media

And click 'PLAY B3YOND SMARTER' cause it's going to educate your Wii lovin' ass.

Then, go to: http://www.vgcats.com/comics/?strip_id=191

It's a link to one of the best webcomics out there. And describes my sentiments to all lame ass anime and lame ass anime fans giving anime a bad name...

And it's annoying as hell...

Elf pack kids should just STAY on Elfpack or whatever...and NOT message me, asking if I'm the guy in the middle!

And CHRIST! I'm FUCKING 18! Why the hell are they even bothering me?! Fucking 14-10 year old emo pricks, that I'm seriously debating to tell them go fuck themselves....

ARGHHHH!!

*Sigh*

All I'm saying is....Damn kids....get fucked.

I'm out.

-Chad-

Y'know...irony and hypocrisy just piss me off.

What a concept.

I hate people sometimes...

Eh...

Just...

Okay...So I've been on Elftown for a little while, and I've even seen many pages on Myspace. (I don't EVER intend to have one.)

What the hell is with all these stupid teenage girls that have the SAME pictures in the SAME poses OVER and OVER.

They ALL look the SAME.

...Yeah..You know what pictures I'm talking about.

The really stupid ones of girls holding the camera themselves while looking at the camera in a 'provocative' manner.

What the hell..

Okay. That's not too bad..I understand..conformity. That it's a supposed 'style.'

..Okay, no... I don't.

They all talk of individualism and originality.

Apparently, none of these dumb bitches have looked up the meanings of those two words.

My cousin is guilty of hypocrisy. "I'm original unlike you!"

Lies. I doubt anyone is original anymore...And the fact that they all conform to that wannabe unconformist style...is just super irony.

And another thing...

What's with these ugly girls saying stuff like..

'im hot. im intellegent.'

...Hehehehe...That's a quote.

Yeah...I see the irony. She's ugly AND she spelled intelligent wrong.

...Okay, I have no idea where I was going with this..

...Fuck. Uh...yeah...For all you..dumb bitches out there..

Uh...read a book. Knowledge is power.

Wow..I really wish I thought this out better.

........Eh..I don't care.

Teenagers = stupid.

I am a teenager.

..Hmm.. See the irony of that?

Good.

Okay.

-Chad-

With nothing but a warm, gentle 'I love you...'

The fear subsides, sadness fades, and my yearning for comfort is abated..

You understand and can do what she could never do.

There is no more comparison. Only love.

Only this.

-Chad-

Graduation passed, and that was fun..

I do miss everyone.

In college now. NEIA, stands for the New England Institute of Art.

It's nice..

I'm staying at the dorms of Regis college. An all girls college full of uptight, bitchy, man hating lesbians.

My, I feel welcomed.

But it's okay. I've made my share of friends, and it's actually alot of fun. We're bored to tears half the time, but...it's nice.

I really dunno what I'm gonna do half the time. We're really spontaneous and hilarious as hell...I need to get a camera and take pictures of my friends..

Hmm.

Everyone's at class right now, so I'm practically all alone. I dunno. I am doing work...but it's a bit lonely.

I was so tired today...and it's raining now..so now that I got sleep and rested up, it's all wet..

Well, atleast my classes are done today. I really enjoy them. My English class teacher reminds me of Mr. Parsons back home..

My Freshmen Seminar teacher reminds me of a gnome. He wants to start a revolution..

..Just all these classes. They really could help me get to where I want to go..That kicks so much ass..

I'm happy to be here. I just kinda wish I saw everyone again..

-Chad-

"But let there be spaces in your togetherness and let the winds of the heavens dance between you. Love one another but make not a bond of love: let it rather be a moving sea between the shores of your souls."

-Kahlil Gibran

Such words...I tried looking for one of his books, but no avail. The selection isn't that great at the library, but I'll keep looking.

Hmmm....The guy knows what he's talking about. I'm in the dimly lit library right now. The Bourne Identity playing in the back. I feel detached...and everything going on feels surreal.

Maybe the island life is turning me into a softie. I dunno. It's simplistic around here. I go home in a few days, but it feels like longer.

I do feel different. It's nice here. It's almost like a taste of college, without doing any schoolwork.

It's a few minutes past nine. I think I'm going to go call Dani....

Sorry for anyone who bothered to read this. I don't have any harrowing tales of adventure out on the island. I do have tales involving spiders, though.

Fuck spiders. I'm out.

-Chad-

Oh...Graduation...

How I long for thee....

Just a few more days...

-Chad-

Yeah...I turned 18.

I'm legal now..

Lottery tickets?

Cigarettes/cigars?

Porn?

I'm good for it!


Bizzatch!

-Chad-

Alright...it's about 11:00, I haven't finished my gov. paper, and I'm tired. I'm beginning to think I'm obsessed about this play. I took a Shakespeare character personality quiz and this is the result.


"You're urbane, a fan of the good things in life, and you love a laugh. You're Benedick, from Much Ado About Nothing. Just don't let your love of a good quip get in the way of your love-life."

Hmm..Yeah, it rocks. My favorite character, other than Hamlet and Iago.

-Chad-