I am getting tired of waiting.

So far, college has been exactly like high school to me except for one main factor: I am now paying an extreme amount of money to have my opinions tossed aside by my instructors.

Well, fuck it. I never wanted to go to school, anyway.

FUCK THIS SHIT!

So we got a new kitten.
Yeah yeah, I know.

Anyway, it's only "temporary," according to Mom. We're supposed to be holding on to her (Jellybean) for a couple months until my Aunt can move her in.

Picture time: 

Let it be known to the world that group lab reports are gay.

God, I'm a weird person.
Work today from 4-9:30. Yay for money! I haven't really been making a lot of money...but it's not the end of the world, because I'm not spending any of it. Just saving. And when I get enough, I'll put it away. Right now it just goes into my savings. 
I love working. 

I really don't know what I want to do about this Graphic Packaging thing. I'm beginning to realize that all the advisors in the program don't take into account personal lives. And they shouldn't have to, all the time, but with me it's a little different. If I take the job at GP, I'll have to give up GameStop because I'll be working 20 hours at GP. And I would feel guilty about taking internships, which I want to do more than anything.

So I don't think I'm even going to apply at GP, even though I feel I should. I want to be able to go to China this summer, and I want to go to Japan in two summers. And I want to see if I can get a program set up with Denmark. Denmark would be amazing. 

Okay, Adriane. Do you Paper labs *mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmuuuuugghhhhh*

Bye bye entry. To all of you who didn't get around to reading it before I deleted it HAHAHAHAHAHA you'll NEVER KNOW what it was about!!!

Unless, of course, you know someone who saves all the entries I make on their computer. Or prints them off. THis would mean I have a stalker. And since you know them well enough to ask to read a specific entry, that means that you are affiliated with my stalker. And since the only people who read this diary are most likely watching my house and are most likely people I know, those people I know who are watching my house are in cahoots with my stalker!!!

I feel cyber-raped by every single one of you!

...
And I love it.
mreow.

Damn Zach to hell. -_- I will never get this song out of my head.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y6ljFaKRTrI

I'm not even angry.
I'm being so sincere right now.
Even though you broke my heart and killed me.
And tore me to pieces.
And threw every piece into a fire.
As they burned it hurt because I was so happy for you.

If I should slow my pace and finally subject me to grace
and love that shames the wise
betrays the heart's deceit and lies
and breaks the back of foolish pride.

I'm considering scaring the shit out of Zach by running in his room screaming and jumping on him while he's peacefully asleep. It's not a nice thing to do. But the voices from the video game he was playing until 3 in the morning kept giving my nightmares.

Ah, justice and sweet revenge. Fine lines, my friends, fine lines.

If I do not post again today, you may know that I have died.

The day's events can be summed up in two witty words:
College blows.

Sure do wish I could post this on my house. But no, I have to put it in my diary.



I. The Books
Put the books in order from favourite to least favourite. DH, PoA, HBP, PS, GoF, CS, OotP

How many times have you read the series? In a row, four. But I’ve read all of the books separately many, many times.

Favourite chapter? The Prince’s Tale, The Cave, The Patronus

What are your five favourite quotes from the books? Oh God.
“’DON'T--’ Screamed Snape, and his face was suddenly demented, inhuman, as though he was in as much pain as the yelping, howling, dog stuck in the burning house behind them --‘CALL ME A COWARD!’”

‘“I am not worried, Harry. I am with you.”’ -Dumbledore

“’And what would you say to Harry if you knew he was listening, Romulus?’
‘I’d tell him we’re all with him in spirit,” said Lupin, then hesitated slightly, ‘And I’d tell him to follow his instincts, which are good and nearly always right.’”

“’Good luck, Harry, wherever you are.’
‘If you read this, Harry, we’re all behind you!’
‘Long live Harry Potter.’”

“’Look…at…me…’ he whispered.”


Biggest surprise: Snape with Dumbledore. After I read it for the first time, I had to close the book and reboot my mind.

Biggest Let-down: I was never let down. This series has helped me experience every emotion I could ever possibly feel. 

One character you'd bring back to life: Yes, Fred. My heart would say Remus, so he could raise Ted, but I think that, as much as it depresses me to say so, Remus needed to pass on.

Favourite Harry moment: It would definitely have to be the combined scene when he’s with his loved ones in the Forest and when confronts Voldemort with “You weren’t.”

Favourite Ron moment: I know his heroic moments are amazing, but the slugs will forever stay as my favorite.

Favourite Hermione moment: Her defiant moment with Scrimgeour. “No, I’m not. I’m hoping to do some good in the world!”

Favourite Ginny moment: God I love Ginny. How can I choose? “I told her it’s a Hungarian Horntail. Much more macho.” lmfao.

Favourite Neville moment: When he stands up to Voldemort, an obviously more frightening figure than Snape. “I’ll join you when hell freezes over. Dumbledore’s Army!”

Favourite Luna moment: At the end of OotP when she’s searching for her belongings. I felt so bad for her, but I was so impressed, too. I love Luna.

Favourite Snape moment: In the tower after he killed Dumbledore and in Dumbledore’s office after Lily died.

Favourite Dumbledore moment: Oh God. I have no idea. Probably throughout the entire chapters of The Cave and King’s Cross.

Favourite Voldemort moment: I hate him.

Favourite Sirius moment: When he’s leaving Hogwarts in the third book. “We’ll see each other again. You are -- truly your father’s son, Harry….”

Favourite Weasley family moment: I will always love when we first meet them in Philosopher’s Stone.

Favourite Draco moment: In DH when he doesn’t give away Harry, Ron, and Hermione to the Snatchers.

Moment that will always make you cry: Kreacher leading the elves into battle. Actually, that whole chapter. At that point, I’m just so overwhelmed with emotion I don’t know what to do with it all except bawl. I didn’t cry when Snape died, but I sobbed when I read the chapter after it. Oh, and definitely the scene with Harry right before confronting Voldemort in the forest… with the stone and all his family.


II. The Films
Put the films in order from favourite to least favourite: SS, CS, PoA, and then I hate the other two. In fact, if it weren’t for Lupin, I’d hate the PoA, too. SS and CS actually felt magical.

Actor most like the book character: Fred and George.

Actor least like the book character: I really have to say Dumbledore. Especially later on in the series. ESPECIALLY in OotP.


Favourite film set: Actually, I love the Dursley’s home.

Three Favourite lines from films: All the funny lines. I hate the dramatic film moments; they suck.

Favourite film scene: Oh every scene in the first two. I loved those movies.

Favourite scene in the films not included in the books: Meh. I don’t have any. Well, that’s a lie. I did crack up when Snape kept pestering Ron and Harry in GoF when they’re talking about dates to the ball, but that wasn’t entirely made up in the film.

Scene you were most disappointed didn't make it into the film: I’m sure there’s one I was really upset about, but I don’t remember. Did they include a screaming Harry at the end of OotP? Because if they didn’t I would be very upset.



III. The Universe
Five Favourite Characters: Remus, Snape, Hermione, Draco, Dumbledore

Three Least Favourite Characters: Umbridge (ugh), Fudge, Prof. Binns

Favourite member of the Trio: Hermione.

Three Favourite magical creatures: I love love love the nifflers. Kneazles are the bomb, and I was rather fond of the screwts.

Favourite family: Well, the Weasleys, yes, but I absolutely loved the moment when Neville’s Grandmother came into the Room of Requirement.

Favourite villain: I think Snape should count, even though he’s also my favorite hero.

Favourite Death Eater: Tie between Snape and Draco. Did Draco ever become an actual Death Eater?

Favourite non-Hogwarts magical building: I loved the description of the Lovegoode’s.

Favourite Diagon Alley location: The Apocathary.  It just sounds cool.

Three Favourite Spells: Muffliato, Expectro Patronum, and Ridikkulus

Three Favourite Potions: Veritaserum, Felix Felicis, and the bone-growing one…. Skelegrow, I think.

Favourite Unforgivable Curse: Um. I think Imperio. I would use it for fun things. Like making Zach do my laundry.

Favourite Department of Mysteries Room: Definitely the place with all the prophecies. The description gave me the chills.

Favourite kind of transportation: Floo. Love it.

Favourite Weasley: Molly….no, Ginny. Well, maybe one of those two.

Favourite Order member: Remus, of course.

Favourite pet: Crookshanks! Though, Hedwig was pretty derrn ba, herself.

Favourite Hogwarts room: I loved the great hall.

Favourite class: Charms.

Favourite teacher: McGonagall

Favourite DADA teacher: Dreamy Remy.

Least favourite teacher: Umbridge or Binns… can’t really decide. Goblin wars, yuck.

Favourite non-human Hogwarts resident: Haha, I would have to say Moaning Myrtle, or the Grey Lady. I have no idea.

Favourite Hogsmeade location: The Shrieking Shack.

Favourite Triwizard Champion: Um, Harry. Duh.

Favourite Triwizard Task: I loved love loved the second task.

If you had to resort the trio, so one had to go to each different House and none could remain in Gryffindor, who would go where and why? And keep Harry from becoming a Darth Vader? Hermione into Ravenclaw, Ron into Slytherin, and Harry into Hufflepuff, no matter how sexy a Syltherin!Harry would be. Bad. That would be very bad.

Which qualities do you see in Harry that are distinctly not Gryffindor ones? Definitely the attachment he holds in his friends and any parental figures. I think that’s more Hufflepuff. 

Severus Snape - Innately good or innately evil? Self motivated or really Dumbledore's man? Um, I love Snape. He is a horrible man, but his characterization is outstanding. I believe that he longed to be innately good, especially after Voldemort killed Lily. And I believe he was more self-motivated than anything.

How do you feel about James Potter and the Marauders? Well, I will always hate Sirius as a character, I think. I am just disgusted with him. I think that James was a dick when he was younger but he obviously grew up quite a bit. Peter makes me … I can’t even describe. The thought of a younger Peter kind of makes me pity him, but the older Peter… I thought of many tortures for him… anyway… we all know my feelings for Remus. He has his faults, but… love is blind.



IV. The Fandom
How long have you been a HP fan? In between PoA and GoF, almost right before GoF came out. I actually listened to the first two on tape, before reading any of them, and that’s what hooked me. It was much more magical, I think. (I now have all the books on my iPod and listen to them as I go to sleep).

Favourite wizard rock band: Whoever Mr. and Mrs. Weasley danced to in the … sixth book. (I think sixth).

Number of midnight releases have you attended: Two. But they were SWEET.

Favourite HP website: Well, the Lexicon, of course, but that’s not including fan fiction sites. 

Favourite podcast: I don’t really do the whole pod cast thing. Not because I’m against them (I think they’re friggin sweet), but because I’m too lazy to stay with one.

Favourite fanartist: draykonis

Most ridiculous Potter theory you've heard: Dumbledore + McGonagall. I knew Dumbledore was gay since the first chapter of HP. He was wearing a purple gown and high-heeled boots, people.

Favourite LJ HP community: Not sure. Probably the Ass Ship, just because I visit it the most. But I was pretty into one of the Snarry ones, a while ago.

Which would you rather see - a sequel or a prequel? Definitely a prequel. Give me more MWPP-era Remus, please.

Which stereotypes do you associate with each house? Self-oriented for Slytherin, Brave for Gryffindor, …. Fluffy for Hufflepuff (please don’t ask) and Hermione for Ravenclaw. Yes, Hermione.


V. Either/Or
Floo powder or broom: Floo. A broom does not seem stable.
Bertie Bott's Every Flavour Beans or Chocolate Frogs: Live a little. Bertie’s.
Death Eaters or Dumbledore's Army: DUMBLEDORE’S ARMY!
Fred or George: Forge.
CAPSLOCK HARRY or Emo!Harry: I love Capslock. He’s so much fun to laugh at. Emo!Harry makes me cry.
The Ministry of Magic or Gringotts: Ministry.
Sirius or Lupin: Seriously? (Haha)….  Remus.
Occlumency or Legilimency: Legilimency
Animagus or Metamorphagus: Metamorphagus
Mermish or Parselmouth: Parselmouth.
Draco or Lucius: Draco!!
Peter Pettigrew or Mundungus Fletcher: Fletcher. I love him. And hate him.
Whomping Willow or Flying Ford Anglia: Anglia.
Invisibility cloak or Pensieve: Pensive
Grimmauld Place or The Burrow: The Burrow
Werewolf or Inferi: Werewolf… much less… Dawn of the Dead-y.
Herbology or Care of Magical Creatures: Magical Creatures.
Professor Binns or Professor Umbridge: O.O Death! Um, no. Probably Binns.
Yule Ball or Quidditch Championship: The Ball, most likely.
Peeves or Nearly Headless Nick: Nick. Peeves drove me insane.
Hippogryff or Thestrals: Thestrals
Durmstrang or Beaubaxtons: Beaubaxtons
S.P.E.W or the Inquisitorial Squad: Um, SPEW. Definitely.
Three Broomsticks or The Leaky Cauldron: Leaky Cauldron. 
Portkey or Apparation: Portkey. It would give me an excuse to touch weird things.
Butterbeer or pumpkin juice: Butterbeer.




VI. You at Hogwarts
List the Hogwarts Houses in order of which House you'd most likely be Sorted into (1 being most likely): Hufflepuff, Slytherin, Ravenclaw, Gryffindor

What's in your wand? Unicorn hair, I think.

What character do you empathize with, or resemble most? I most definitely empathize most with Neville. 

Which character would you ask to the Yule Ball? Hahahahahahahahaha Draco.

Which character would you like to use a love potion on? Seamus, I think.

Which character would you like to use Veritaserum on? Um, I think it would have to be Snape.

What would you use Felix Felicis to do? I think I would save some up for any time I planned fighting a megalomaniac Dark Lord….

What job would you most like to try? Librarian. 

If you were an animagus, what animal would you turn into? I think I would have to be a Giraffe.

What animal would your patronus be? A goldfish.

What three things would your amortentia potion smell like? Sweat, Grass, and Dirt, though Zach says his deodorant should be one, too.

What position do you play at Quidditch? Haha, slow cheerleader who needs to shave..

Who would your best friend be were you sorted in each house and why? Slytherin, Draco, most definitely. Hufflepuff… I have no idea. Ravenclaw…. I don’t know, that either. (I guess I have to go re-read the series now…) Gryffindor, Ginny

What three characters do you think you'd get into catfights with? Lavendar, Parvati, and Cho

List 3 characters you think you'd ask on a date: Seamus, someone I can’t remember the name of in Ravenclaw and Ginny. 

Would you have joined Dumbledore's army or gone to the meeting if Hermione had asked you? Why or why not? Yes, because the title is sweet and because Umbridge is a stinking sack of whore juice.

Would you ever use an Unforgivable Curse and, if so, which one/s and why? Probably. In a war setting, most definitely. All of them/whichever needed and only in order to defend myself or someone loved.

You just got a Howler. Who's it from, and what'd you do? Was it a mistake? From Sirius (the live one). I slept with his pet werewolf. Yes, it was a mistake. Fourth time this week, too.

What type of pet do you choose as your companion at Hogwarts? A kneazle.

While shopping in Hogsmeade you stop by Honeydukes for some sweets. What treats do you purchase for yourself? I’m not very smart on the candy. So I’d have to say Bertie’s, which I love the idea of.

What is your favourite subject to study at Hogwarts and why? Artithmancy because it would be friggin sweet.

Likewise, what subject is your least favourite and why? Ancient runes. History + Language = epic fail

I will never understand fanatasy names. I get the elvish and dwarvish names. I get the weird human names. I do not get Tchakachakalla.

In chemistry on Friday:

Professor: Semimetals are what we call amphoteric because they can do either one.

Adriane sneeze-laughs. 

Semimetals are bisexual.

So the benefit of having 500 free pages a semester to print is that I cannot possibly use all of them on school-related work. 

So what am I doing? Why, printing off If You Are Prepared, of course!

-_- I would possibly kill him.

I think I may be in a bad mood.
...
I hate people.

It's the little things that get to me, you know... Excuse me for getting annoyed when I'm trying to talk on the phone and there are a bunch of retarded ASS HOLES behind me screaming and yelling. Excuse me for being bothered when you can't stop coughing in the middle of QUIET hours at the open lab, and the lady at the desk ASKS YOU TO LEAVE and you DON'T! 

But that's not the big deal. The big deal is that *I'm* the snob when I glare at the kid who is sitting only two chairs away from me, sneezing, coughing like a holy hag is losing its lungs, and WIPING HIS HANDS ON THE DESK! Excuse me? That's disgusting. And dangerous. The kid needs to put his head in a hazmat bag and inhale deeply for as long as it takes for him to pass out. Or inhale the plastic.

On the bright side, only roughtly 64 days until the end of the semester.
http://www.timeanddate.com/counters/customcounter.html?month=12&day=13&year=2008&hour=0&min=0&sec=0&p0=77

*slams head repeatedly*
Oh. My. GOD. Woman.
How have these people not learned volumes in Calc I? VOLUMES!?!?!?! This is insanity. They'd never heard of the washer method, or the disc method??!

-_- NOT COOL



...
It's times like these when I do the relatively simple math in my head. I'm playing close to $250 a credit hour for this class. Four credit hours makes it a $1000 class. 

Since I've learned half of these topics in my Calc I class (not an exaggeration; I have checked and rechecked both the syllabus and the book), we can easily conclude that the school owes me around $500 of that initial $1000.

I am still waiting on this payment.

So I walked out of Calc II this lovely morning not understanding anything that had just happened. Granted, falling asleep in class probably wasn't the best way to learn, but seriously.... she can't just go from integrating areas (which, by the way, I'm paying to "learn," even though we did that all the way back in AP Calc) to parametric curves.

Psh. Parametric curves. Who cares about those?

I have to program my calculator. And it's not working. So I'm going to make Jake make it all better...

I talked to Beth and Emily last night. It was amazing, hearing their voices again. I miss them both so much. I don't really have any friends here. There's Zach, obviously. But he doesn't blush all pretty-like when I make really crude jokes, that I don't even make anymore.....
Except Bethanie told me she was "doing wood" with Ethan..... I'll let you figure out what that means by yourself; I'm late for Econ.

For some reason, I smell bad.
So I'm skipping chemistry and going home.
Yup. You heard me.
I, Adriane Ware, am skipping chemistry, the most boring class I have, in order to go bathe (which, actually, I probably won't do).

And sleep. Sleep is amazing.