Her eyes stared into a far away dream as she absentmindly chewed on her lip. This action seemed to be a particular habit that she had, her lip giving all evidence needed to prove the above statement with several red lines running across her bottom lip, showing exactly where she had chewed one too many times. A pencil rested in her right hand as she pushed herself to think of what to jot down next. Her own sigh broke up the silence of the air around her, exasperated she tossed the pencil down.

Writer's block had grasped hold of her for another day.

So.... I wasn't in the best of moods today. I mean, everything was really hectic and I was angry and kinda sad at the same time.

I suppose it shown on my face because this person came up to me and was like, "Lauren, are you okay?"

and I looked up at them and said, "Well, I'm not in the best of moods right now."

that person then continued to say, "Lauren, you can't be in a bad mood, the reason why I like you is because I don't have to deal with a sour attitude when it comes to you.... just kidding."

Does placing a "just kidding" at the end of a sentence leave you null and void for any effects you leave on the person you spoke them to? Yeah, how about no.

It angered me because she impied that I'm not allowed to be anything but an in some kind of upbeat mood.

Well fuck, I'm not very diverse or complicated at all, am I? Silly me for thinking I could feel something different.

I wasn't asking for a session, you asked me if I was okay, I answered. Sorry I didn't give the predisposed, fine.

whatever. I'm just huffy right now.

Meep, I'm sick.

It's funny to hear me speak because I sound so hoarse.

Heh Heh, you should hear me take sup calls -_-.

I cannot stop listening to Naruto songs O.O

Work has been so up and uppity. I mean, I knew when I took the position that I would have to take care of people, no problem, I can do that, however, like I informed Stephanie, these people will not wipe their own asses without you holding the toliet paper!

So, who knows.

Would you ever, in your entire life ask your boss out on a date.... when it's against the policy.

Yeah, I didn't think so.

So another question is, why is it when I'm nice to guys they're just like, yeah whatever. Yet, when I scream at you and rip you to shreads you ask to make up for me getting mad by taking me out to a nice dinner? O.o

Yeah, don't understand that.

Like I would even accept, I cannot date you! I would get fired! You are not worth my pay check, bucko.

hee hee, I told him that too.

I think I'm becoming a little mean. 0.0

Not that people don't deserve it.

I'm starting to like certain teamleads ^.^, we've been getting along, they're swell.

My head is foggy.

*bounces along to naruto music*

I suppose I should write in here a little more, I guess I've been feeling lazy. Nanowrimo finished and Laura and I ran across the finish line, our fingers flying across the keyboard :), it was an amazing feeling.

Last year I finished nanowrimo on my computer alone, it was so nice to have my friends around me this year. This past month has been a month and a half, or perhaps 2 months, I think my body has finally shut down from it because I seriously believe that I just slept two days away waking for a brief period to go to work.

This Nano ment the world to me, it was completely reconnecting. It seriously brought people together this year.

Laura has been a wonder through it all :), I'm, personally, quite proud of her. I hope she knows that she has the support of all her friends around her.

She flippin' pushed me to do Nanowrimo when I struggled to know the very people I wrote about.

I'm very thankful for that ^.^.

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On a different note, I'm listening to the beauty that is David Bowie. I love his voice.... ouu, I so almost typed out voicemail, I really don't like that. I need a vacation from my job, bleh bleh, fingers fingers.
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I have a new idea for a story that I'm going to be typing out, I'm wondering how far this is going to go, but I don't know, I like this one. I'll poke around with it for a bit.

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I suppose I'll stop typing now, I just feel as if I have more to say...

50212 thus far ;), that would be my current level of nanowrimo words. Makes me all happy and googily in side, Laura hit it ^.^ she finally made her goal ;).

So the group has been DDRing like mad crazy and oh has it been fun. I'm so excited about how every thing is going. Everything seems to be looking upward.

On a weird note...


I was coming out of quality uptraining today and my floor supervisor, Jackie, grabbed my shoulder, and I'm not saying you know, just like gentle grab, I'm saying tightly squeezing into my flesh to get me off to the side. 0.0

I had no clue what to exect, least of all what she actually said.

would you like to what she said?

^.^, she was like.... "I heard a rumor about you." my eyes widened and I attempted to look up at her as she continued to grasp my shoulder, "Oh yeah?" was my simple reply.
"Yes, I heard that you do tarot." she actually pronounced it correctly ^.^.

I laughed and affirmed that I did read, she continued on, "yes, but I heard you were fantastic about it, you know someone told me." first of all, who is talking about me, second of all, how did I get brought up into a conversation?! bah, what if she was one of those people who are snooty about those kind of things...

well, she was like, "I read palms as well, I heard you read those too?" I once again affirmed.

"I heard your fantastic at that as well." I laughed because, well, I don't know what to say back...should it have been something like, oh yeah, I really am superb? :-p.

 Anywho she was like, I would love you do give me a reading, she went on and one about how she use to do readings but she's gotten out of it now because she just hasn't had the time and she's wanted to open up a store and she talking about how her and I would make great business partners and blah blah blah and she's a scorpio and she blah blah blah and wacky stuff and she said that she just can't seem to push herself to go through with it and she wants a reading concerning the blockage to see if there is anything she could do about it. So I was like... uhm, alright. No problem.

I told Jessica and she jumped to her wanting Jackie to read her palm -_-.

I don't know, Jackie just doesn't seem like the kind of person who I would trust reading my palm.... she's kinda, well, ditzy.

but that was a weird adventure.....

she said she'd make me brownies if I read her palm...

I don't really like brownies...

-_-


The cheese is in full bloom tonight.

So Strowie called me today, I wasn't expecting it, my nose was stuck in numbers, hundreds of numbers. Phone numbers at that. Not the most fun :-p :), however, the phone rang and it was a blocked call. So my first thought was that it must be Sarah, Stephanie's friend. I picked it up and was expecting to get into some silly talk about hookers and prostitution and me working the corner that night but it was Stroh.

Right away she sounded down and I asked her what was up and she strated telling me about Aaron. A flame of anger ignites through my body while writing that above sentence. She told me everything that's been going on and such.

She's going to talk to him, I think, I hope about how she's feeling. She wants the relationship to change, she doesn't want to leave him, but it seems like he's looking for an excuse to leave.

She's been having it rough lately. But eventually I got to cheer up a pinch and we laughed about certain things, I told her about what's been going on in my life.

She asked me about a certain someone *blush* and I told her what was going on with him and why I was worried about him. I insisted that she meet him sometime and she said she'd like to come to BW3 this upcoming Tuesday, as long as there's not a race she might need to attend to. Then she asked if I'd make an appearence with her at the car show her boyfriend is going to earlier that Tuesday, which I said I would.

Switching topics, the parents are up at the lake this weekend, they snatched my sister with her. Jake and I have been sharing the house. He's upstairs in his room though, lol, and I get the rest of the house. So it's been relaxing. I ordered us chinese for lunch and he went ahead and ordered pizza for dinner... me stuffed x_x.

It was raining earlier and I took a walk in it, oh it was fabulous and exhilerating.

I can hear Jimmy Stewart declaring his love for Margaret Sullavan in the background. It's his star of the day for TCM. Rear Window'll be on later ^.^, so will Vertigo. Ouu, which makes me want to go watch it because I just remembered the ending to Vertigo.

Life is the wheel of fortune. It has it's ups and downs. The wheel keeps spinning and eventually you'll find yourself on the bottom, then again, you'll spin around back to the top in the end. That's how the wheel goes, right?

Spin me round' wheel I'm ready for a new direction.

Tomorrow is Friday and that makes me a happy camper ^.^. It's my last day of the 5 weeks of training, which I'm ready to throw my arms up and dance around crazily. In fact, I most likely will. ;), just watch me.

So tomorrow is the big fun day even though I'm not exactly sure what my friends and I are planning to do.

I'm so excited about actually giong productive, I really do feel like I handle this. (There is good reason for uncertainty with all the crap they try to shove in your head)

Yesterday I wrote my own myth. A creation myth. I posted it as a private entry. I think it's nifty, but I want to edit it more.

I'm listening to a song called Dancing Gypsy, it's quite beautiful.

Hmm, I'm going to find something to occupy me.

Well, my parents came back from New York today. I walked into the living room (I was sleeping when the arrived) and waved and said, "Hey Uumes (I call my mom that, no it's not her first name, it's just something I've always called her) "Hey Dad" My mom didn't even turn to me, she just stared straight ahead, Dad (who is very hard of hearing) followed, they both had these grumpy looks on their faces. Knowing what I know about what happened yesterday I can understand. Finally after me going like, "Uumes? Uuma...Uumes, MOM!" She paid attention. She kinda half-smiled and I asked her how she was, she told me about her trip, dad finally noticed and said, "Hi Woo!" "Hey Dad, how are you doing?" "I'm good, I'm good." "I'm glad to hear that" Then mom was like, I got you something ^.^.

You have to understand how happy it made me to know I got something because... well that just doesn't happen a lot, so I was really grateful to hear it ^.^. Mom got me this beautiful pink purse, that cost 5 bucks, lol and a New York t-shirt. Which I just thought was pretty nifty.


I start production this Saturday, so I'll be working overtime, which, I really don't mind. I'll need that extra pay. But, I'm pretty excited, Chris, Alicia, and myself are forming an uber Friday... which I'm going to take them all out for dinner or something, maybe a nice movie, I don't know but I felt we all needed to do something fun together. I can't stay out too too late since work,but later than usual since I'll be able to sleep in until 8 (2 hours really are a blessing).

On Saturday Alicia and I are suppose to do something, so that makes me happy since we don't get to hang out as much as usual. I'm going to force her to play the SIMS 2, mwhahaha.

Over the weekend I kitty-sat for Gaiana and Adam. That was fun :), her cats are wonderful, and Chris got to stay with me for that. So we had a blast all weekend listening to music, cleaning up a bit, and enjoying the enviroment of peace. ^.^

At this moment I feel so sleepy I could fall asleep right here on my computer chair, but it would best serve my interest if I actually got myself up and clothed properly for work I don't understand why I can't answer phones in swishy pants and a mario extra life t-shirt, do you? Nada me either.

I need to drink something with an uber amount of sugar, I don't even know why I attempted to stay up, I always end up regretting it in the morning (when my eyes are puffy and can close up easier to sleep -_-) I'll tryto get through somehow :-p

Sleep away sleeping people! And let yourselves know that you are lucky, for all I really want at the moment is just a couple more hours to lay in bed.

Hello lovely diary, this would be my first entry and I really don't have anything to say right now. It's Valentine's Day. That holiday never really meant anything much to me, I always felt like love should be given on everyday and just exceptionally more on one day... I just never understood that.

I have to go to work in morning, early morning, this is the last week of my 5th week of training, so yay. I'll be finished with that soon and then start my 12:30 -8:30 shift, which kinda stinks since it's not early and eats up a crap load of your day.

My parents are in New York right now, they'll going to see the David Letterman show tomorrow evening, Dr. Phil is going to be on. Poor Mom and Dad. For everyone to look out for my dad, he looks like Santa Claus. Seriously, and if he can he'll be the one singing, "I'm a lonely little petunia in an onion patch". *shakes head* I can only imagine. Lol, I'm going to have to stay up and see it, Phil or no Phil.