Well britt just dumped me, dont blame her tho. Dont think ill forget why so i wont bother writing it. Time for dinner.
Time shouldnt be wasted. I'm not happy with my life becuase of all the time i have wasted. I'm changing that. Remember this rock, live life like its your last day, becuase one day it will be your last. ok well time to go to your sisters now.
Ack , i feel so bad. i feel like an asshole. ahh just ignore that last entry rocky, just ignore it.
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Who ever would have thought how fast love can occur. I sure didnt. I thank you Gianna, becuase if you would have never talked to britt i wouldnt be where i am right at this moment. well now i must go play my game so ~~peace~~
wow its been along time since i seen this box. Well i dont really have anything to say. Lifes ok. ALBAH! ~~peace~~
man everything is fucked up....
haha i just watched some chick get out of her car and piss infront of my house! there was 2 other cars behind her.
DAMN DAMN DAMN RUMORS!! i hate them.......i feel so bad for others who have rumors about them......
hmm. 2:44 a.m. Saturday morning....man everyone is asleep. Just some random stuff on my mind. CANT WAIT for the story to continue, were about to get into a fight! my first real fight in the story. well off to play Warcraft 3 again...haha ~~peace~~
i just rode my bike around to today with Fender. it was pretty fun. went to riverfront and watched ducks. one duck was claiming its territory and wheneever these other 2 ducks tried to get close, the first duck put his head down and charged them. It was fun. well i'm outtie ~~peace~~
ugh, ITED testing tomarrow, how lame. two hours for testing. this is gonna suck. hmm. bored. its about 11 pm. i have a terible headach so gonna go to bed to get it to go away. ~~peace~~
Well me and jessica arent gonna go out. I thought about going out with Kelsey, but i dont think i want to. I think i'm just gonna stay single and look at all my options. Myabe i will stay single for a long time. Flirt around a bit with every girl that i might be interested in. I dont want to make a mistake like last time, or the time before that. I'm going to my sis's house tonight. Well i'm gonna go take a shower, get my xbox ready and packed, then go on over..... I just wish stuff.........
wow. its 11:08. I just thought of something that i must write down and thought this the best place to do so. I'm not used to being a leader in a relationship, and therefore its mostly my fault that i havent been able to hang out with Jessica. I guess i'm just used to following in a relationship. I think that this is all going to change. I cant believe that i just now thought of this. Why did it never cross my mind before. Its all interesting now becuase what i thought was getting me down helped me to clarify things now and i now i feel great. Maybe there was a specific reason i just now thought this and not before. I dont regret anything i have done. For now i see that everything i have done has just come back and has somehow taught me a lesson. So i will never regret anything i do. Maybe the lesson was small but it was still a lesson. Even though something seemed bad at the time, later it on was good and helped me. I dont think i will be down for a long time. Well i want to get some sleep so ~~peace~~
Dont we all wish this world was perfect......i hate it how EVERYTHING changes. Nothing every stays the same. I wish somethings would stay the same. Like Love, i wish that when people fall in love they would never fall out of it. I also wish that we automatically knew who our Soul Mate is, but we have to go through pain and relationships to find them. I havent heard or met someone who has found their true love of whom loves them back on their relationship. Before i dated Erin, when people broke up i thought it no big deal. But after being dumbed i have felt the pain of which others must experince. And it makes me think of my pain, and i wish it wasnt like that for them. well i have nothing else to say so ~~peace~~
well i just had meatloaf for dinner. its tuesday. alot running through my mind. Everytime i try calling Jessica no one answers. I dont think that she wants to go out. I've been thinking maybe i shoould just stop trying to be her boyfriend and be happy as a friend. i'm getting tired of not being able to hang out with her. i'm a really nervous person and have a hard time saying things/ asking things to people in person. So much right now crowds my mind. its really overwhelming a bit. Tomarrow at lunch i'm gonna ask Jessica if sometime she would like to hang out this week/weekend. and if she cant i think ill just leave her alone and just be friends. but if we can then ill go with it and see how it works out. I dont want to think to far ahead of myself becuase in the end you just get hurt. i will never do drugs, smoke, cheat on someone, lie to get someone hurt, lie about love, cause self injury, screw someone elses life over to make mine better, i will stand up for what i believe in, and i think thats enough for now. I got some Homework to do. so ~~Peace~~
Well i just got back from Eatza Pizza, yuum pizza! Cant Wait for school tomarrow. I LOVE MEATLOAF. hmm. Nothing really good to say. o last night i drank an energy drink really fast, so i had a really strong high, then a really fast low. Marcus drank 3 or 4 of them! he was really tired. well ~~PEACE~~
well a party last night, it was great. i'm at Fenders house right now and talking to TRina/Madison and Tasha/Jessica. well i'm bored of this so ~~PEACE~~
well its 11:00 on this wonderful Sunday. WEll i have to help my sis move out a bit more today. I hope i can hang with Jessica sometime. well nothing much else to say so ~~peace~~
Boredism....It