Apparently I'm a masochist........
and a Nympho.......
O.o
Stupid Boys

the rest of this week is going to be shit
Its Wednesday so i dont get to see James till friday. and on top of that my mom is telling my brothers(billy) gf(Suzy) that she needs to get out by friday since they both have lived with my mom and i for over 2 years. they had a baby together who is going to be a year on new years eve and she has a 4 year old son as well. So my house is a mess. everyone there mentioned lives here with us. now my brother is not agreeing on kicking Suzy out obviously so he is pitching a bitch about it. So basically I am not trying to be home Friday but i have nowhere to go. I'm trying to spend Friday night at James's house but he doesn't get home from school till three and i'd leave my house around 2 to take the bus and get there. so thats from 2 on friday till saturday gone but what about in the morning. ill have to be around for the war and thats not something i want to be involved in cause for once i am not apart of this. Uhgggggg idk. im getting stressed out about it.

whatever. hopefully all goes well. i have way too much on my plate. finals for college and home-life and Christmas coming up and i have NO money. UHGGGGGGG so frustrating so if you see my posting slowing down or changing slightly....youll know.

thanks all

1. What was the highlight of your week?
So far it's been with James. I love it when he just holds me and whispers sweetly in my ear.

2. Whose car were you in last, besides family?
Ummmm if i remember correctly it would be James's parents car

3. When is the next time you will kiss someone?
at around 3:00 when James gets off the bus and sees me standing at his front door.

4. What color shirt are you wearing?
black

5. How long is your hair?
Medium long

6. Are you good looking?
Sorta kinda....James thinks i am.

7. Last movie you watched?
Ummmm hmmmm P.S. I Love You

8. Who were you with?
James

9. Last thing you ate?
Chicken Tenders

10. Last thing you drank?
Whole Milk

11. When was the last time you had your heart broken?
about a year ago. but that doesn't matter now.

12. Who came over last?
James

13. Are you happy right now?
id be happier in his arms

14. What did you say last?
"Aight"

15. Where is your phone?
Right beside me

16. What color are your eyes?
Honey brown

17. Are you left-handed?
No

18. Spell your name without vowels:
Rchl

19. Do you have any pets?
Two cats, Raven and Guess, and a bunny, BooBoo.

20. Favorite Vacation?
Disney!

21. What do you dislike currently?
Having to do this stupid computers project consisting of Excel, Powerpoint, and Word,....all do tomorrow.

22. What are you listening to?
atm 98 degrees but soon ill be putting on some All That Remains or BassHunter

23. If you could have one thing right now what would it be?
James

24. What is your favorite scent?
James's cologne called Deisel

25. Who makes you happiest?
♥Him♥

26. What were you doing at midnight last night?
Sleeping

27. When is your birthday?
June 22nd

28. Who has the same phone as you?
My brother Billy, his gf's ex, and my friend Grant. LMAO everyone has an Iphone these days

29. Last time you went swimming in a pool?
I believe it was like August

30. Do you read your horoscope?
Not the often

31. Where was the last place you bought something?
Hmmmmmmmm i have to think about that one......I guess WaWa when i bought cigarettes

32. How do you feel about your hair right now?
Hate it....need it redyed and cut

33. Do you bite your nails?
No way!

35. Do you have any expensive jewelery?
Yes

36. Myspace or facebook?
Facebook

37. How fast have you driven a car?
I think like 25 or 35 seeing as how i don't drive

38. Whats something you like that you think most ppl dont?
Not quite sure really.....

39. What was or is your favorite subject in school?
Art

40. Do you have Verizon?
Nope...AT&T

41. What type of boy or girl do you usually fall for?
well it used to be the gothicish boys that not many people liked....but now i love my ghetto metalhead gamer.

42. Do you have any hidden talents?
I'd like to think so

43. Favorite Song?
Too many to pick one

44. Do you like to sing at all?
All the time!

45. Dream Job?
Large Animal Veterinarian

46. Where does most of your family live?
Glenolden

47. Are you an only child or do you have siblings?
Two older brothers

48. Do you love your parents?
Only my mother.

49. What was the first thing you thought when you woke up?
"Guta go talk to James" ^.^

50. Do you drink?
No. I hate alcohol

51. Know any other languages?
sorta kinda....

52. Ever write a coded message?
yep

53. Have you ever been IN a wedding?
yes

54. Do you have any children?
not that i know of. lmao altho James keeps saying he is pregnant. LMMFFAO

55. Did you take a nap today?
no

56. Who has the same birthday as you?
Many of my friends

57. Ever met anyone famous before?
i think so yea

58. Do you want to be famous one day?
YES

59. Any Pet Peeves?
Yeah.. Plenty

60. Are you multitasking right now?
yes

61. Do you like Britany Spears?
she can still sorta sing....but i dont like her as a person

62. What is your least favorite chore?
hmmm moping

63. Last place you drove your car?
Dont drive

64. Ever been out of the country?
Nope

65. Where were you born?
On a bed In a room in a hospital in a town in a city in a county in a state in a country in a world in a universe.....ok im stopping

66. Could you handle being in the military?
No fucking way

67. What is your average cell phone bill?
Don't know....my mom deals with that

68. Who are you thinking about right now?
James

69. When was the last time you laughed REALLY hard?
Last night when James put on my tight jeans. I almost fell off the bed laughing so hard.

70. How many pairs of shoes do you own?
Way too many

71. Are your toes always painted?
Usually yea

72. How many piercings do you have?
Ears, eyebrow, belly button

73. What are you doing today?
Doing my project for computers class and than taking the bus to see James

74. Have you ever been gambling?
nope

75. When is the last time you updated your page?
i think a few weeks ago

76. Do you like rollercoasters?
YES!!!

77. Have you ever been to disneyland or world?
World. Twice..

78. Do you have a favorite cartoon character?
MY CAPTAIN TOSHIRO HITSUGAYA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

79. Last thing you cooked?
Chicken tenders

80. How's the weather?
Cold and windy

81. Do you e-mail?
only my professors

82. What's the stupidest thing you ever did with your cell phone?
Ummmmmmmmmmmmm dropped it while at work and broke the screen....stupid iphone....

83. Last time you were sick?
ummmm right now

85. Do you wish you could move?
yes

86. Do you take all the QuizPox.com quizzes?
O.o

87. What is your dream car?
Metallic Blue 2005 Chevy Cobalt SS Super-chargered (That is my car)

88. Have you ever wanted someone you cant have?
yes a very very long time ago

89. If you could be anywhere right now where would it be?
In James's arms.

90. Are you happy with your life?
Yes!

I'm feeling the weight of a possible breakup to come. I don't want to lose him. I CAN'T lose him. He is the reason I breath my every breath and he is every beat of my heart. He is every cell in my body and every organism not. He is the entire world, the ground I walk on, the water i drink, the food i eat, and the animals i love. He is it all. All I ever see is him and all i ever think is him. all the words that come from my mouth are about him or based off of him. My every day life revolves entirely around him. I wake early in the morning to speak to him and try to pass time when I can't see or talk to him. I actually pay attention in classes so I can get out of there sooner so i can sleep till i see him or somehow occupy myself. I sleep in on weekends till he comes to my side and i stay up late and rise early when he sleeps by my side. I find myself waking often when he is sleeping with me so i can just simply look at his face. I will drop everything for him. I find myself waking from the dead of sleep to hold him and look deep into his eyes until i fall asleep again. I would run a hundred miles just to be able to simply hold his hand. His kisses send me into space and his hugs make me cry not from sadness but from joy. Im glad to have a man like him in my life. a true one of a kind. he thinks of himself as good for nothing and not worth a thing but to me, i feel like an tiny flea compared to him. He is the vast world and i am a tiny microscopic organism fighting to live another night in the wholeness of him. I love my James so entirely that it's painful. I cry at the thought of him walking away and never turning back. I want to die at the thought of him gone. Even when he leaves me alone at night standing on my doorstep watching him and his father drive away, my chest starts to hurt and I want to curl in a ball and die until he is by my side again. I'd hate to compare this true devotional love to something as what seems to be lame as twilight but I really am Bella and he is my Edward. Wholly and entirely he is my life. I would want to spend eternity and infinity with him if I possibly could. But for now, i want to grow old with him, i want to have his children and bare his last name. I want all of it. I wish he wants it too. I love him I love him I love him I love him I love him I love him I love him I love him I love him I love him I love him I love him
I can't seem to say it enough.

Fun weekend i had! too long to tell. i know noone really cares. lmao if ya wana no the details just PM me...im too tired to type it all. I tried it before but facebook likes to be an asshole and when someone messages me i cant type on anything else but that message. So i went to hit backspace for something in my diary and yea...that didn't work. it went to the previous page. UHGGGGGGG got me so mad cuz i was almost done and everyone knows that i type alot when i give an update. shit im typing a lot now. ok....but anyways.....life is good...life is great. im done classes in like 2-3 weeks *Dances around* FINNNAAALLLLYYYYY and than ill have off from any school till next August when ill start back in the Vet Tech program hopefully at the school i want to go to. if not than ill have my fall back in the school i went to before. but yea anyways....enough of this. im tired. its 10 at night. i just finished painting class.....four hours of it. *sigh* but we are almost done. thank god.

cant wait for christmas...i still need the money for all the gifts i want to buy but........oh well...lets see how i pull it off this year.

night all. see ya some other time. teehee

Happy Thanksgiving All

Seeing New Moon today with my awesomeness bf James and possibly my friend Grant. ^.^


I LOVELZ MY JACOB BLACK

IT'S ALMOST DONNNNEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

An Immortal's Quest


Check it out, fan it, invite, PLEASE?

ok so i started making the RP now. I am keeping with what my dream was which is in the post below. If you see interest in it please feel free to join.

An Immortal's Quest

It is still under construction. Give me some time. I will have it all together soon.

ok so last night i had a dream. yes i admit it was a little weird but it was longer than what i will explain.

There were two Gods who were infact brothers. Their names were Damion and Gabriel(Or Nemamiah)._{Side note: I did research on Angelic names and Nemamiah is the Angel of Just Causes which is the best fit for this story but Gabriel is much easier to remember and just as Angelic.}

Damion and Gabriel(Nemamiah) were twins who were always competing against eachother. One day, Damion came up with a game. It was a competition on who could kill the human first. Two small humans came around one day falling part of Damion's game. Gabriel(Nemamiah) at first seemed into it but was really holding back so he would not kill these innocent mortals. Damion killed the human and became angered with his brother for not truly playing the game. The twins dueled in an epic battle. Gabriel threw Damion to the ground. Damion looked at his twin and said "Why my dear brother, do you hate me so?" in which Gabriel(Nemamiah) replied, "Because, brother, you kill for joy and fun. I vow that from here forward you will be silenced and mortal until a mortal woman admits her love for you." With that said, Gabriel(Nemamiah) waved his hand muting his brother and taking away his immortality.
Damion was now to roam the earth searching for the ONE and only ONE mortal that would confess their love for him. His main task was to do it with no words.

HAVE YOU?¿
1. Smoked a cigarette: yes
2. Smoked a cigar: yes
3. Snorted coke: no
4. Smoked Weed: yes
5. Been high: yes
6. Had sex: yes
7. Said "I hope you die" to someone: yes
8. Tried to kill someone: no
9. Tried to kill yourself: yes
10. Got in a fist fight: yes
11. Lied to your parents: yes
12. Given someone a bruise: yes
13. Ditched someone: yes
14. Freak danced: yes
15. Stole something: yes
16. Cut yourself: yes
17. Skipped school: yes
18. Hung up on someone: yes
19. Threw up at school: yes
20. Done someone elses make-up: yes
21. Kissed someone of the same sex: yes
22. Had a burping contest: yes
23. Snuck out: yes
24. Been to a school dance: yes
25. Thought your teacher was hot: yes



WOW! THATS SAD! :(

Went and saw KISS last night. Entirely FREE! I got a call around 6 from my brother's navy buddy who i talk to who invited me to KISS and i said yea...and than he invited my bf which is good cuz i wouldn't go without him. So i found out the concert started at 7:30 and it was 6:15. Yea....me...a women....i run around frantic like a chicken with it's head cut off. ha. Well James and I finally get picked up at around 6:30/6:45 and we go to his house so he can get changed(What a priss. jk) he was wearing 'nice' clothes and there WOULD be alcohol everywhere soo...yea so finally he is ready at almost 7:00 and we have to drive 20 or so min to the spectrum. We get there and luckily Nick(The guy with the tix) saw us before he went in or else we would have to find Willcall and pick them up. *shrugs* we originally had NOSEBLEED seats....literally at the top. It was terrible. view was good still and all that but i couldn't get into it and i was terrified to stand up. well then....somehow just after BUCKCHERRY my friends friend got free tickets for another area somehow. we figured anything was better than what we had. we ended up right against the stage on the right side(if you are facing towords the stage) Gene Simmons ended up sticking his tongue out at me when i did it to him, I got a guitar pick from the drummer(My fave) and the lead singer pointed at me and stared at me....which most people were since i was wearing a VERY low cut shirt that i LITERALLY popped out of. Oh well......in the end...IT WAS AMAZINGGGGGGGGG! ill have a wiki page of the pics from the concert soon. BYE ALL! TIME FOR CLASS......

~Toshi-Chan~
♥Rachel♥

Hey everyone sorry im not on much. Thats what happens when little ol' me gets a bf. well yea....if you couldn't tell by my pics and new pic wiki...im sooooo unbelievable happy with him that im like...never on much. SORRY! i promise that when i finally get the time i will be back on. Ill check in every once and awhile to check messages and maybe post in an RP or two but....sorry i wont be here much. I love you all dearly and i will be back soon.

<3333333
Love
Toshi-chan
aka
♥Rachel♥

NEWWWWWWWWWWW RRRRRROOOOLLLLLLLLLLLLEEEEEEEEEEEEPPPPPPPPPPPPLLLLLLLLLLLLAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok sorry. Just excited. I have been reading the Amelia Atwater-Rhoades series Den Of Shadows again and i'm on the fourth book called Midnight Predator. I'm like super in love with it. I have started an RP based off of it. it is Midnight RP check it out PLEASE!!?? You don't have to have read to the book to understand. You will catch on REALLLYYYY quick. It's not much of a hard concept.