*yawns* i dont really use this.. i have a real live journal... but sum things up sunday morning from 1 am- 7 am best time ive had in a long time.. went to cumberland farms with ajay got a bunch of scratch tickets.. lost over 20 bucks lol, drove around listening to music. went to big fords got some food, then went and watched the sun rise at 5.. made it just in time. was perfect. i dont think i could live with out ajay. he thinks its cute i have a crush on keri... *blushes* i havent liked a girl in years... but i just love her so much.

had a small argument thing with ajay, i made him dinner, steak, wich hes been bugging me to make him since we started going out... so i wanted to sit with him at MY house and watch something not boxing or rocky3... he got all pissy, im all PMSing im frustrated... he goes to other room.. i just want to be with him and comprimise on something to watch... but now.. im also a few days late on my period so im all parinoid. got mad, he left... i cryed.. mom said i should leave him... i call him tell him im thinking of just breaking up.. he comes over again, we talk, and get things cleared up. i didnt really want to break up, but my mind is just so stressed and frustrated, i didnt know what else to think of doing... if i wasnt with him, id be at home every day crying... i wouldnt leave, not for family or friends... just sit in my room morning my missing love... wundering if he misses me too.