Time : 21h
Music : The Beatles - Entire White Album - Entire Abbey Road Album
Mood : Pissed off. Wrote bout 3 bloody paragraphs and Mozilla firefox decided to fuck up and shut down. Before I had saved anything.
For my own pleasure, it went along these lines :
Wow, I haven't written in this for so long ... I've been on Elftown for 1 year and 2 days ! And I forgot to celebrate ! *hates self*
Tme + Music : same as above
Mood : feeling bored, useless, haven't done anythin today but strangely satisfied. not anymore ... ^^
Must do : bloody homework - phona natacha for thursday - drawing for elodie - homework - concentrate - make skirt - homework
Today : Came back from Victor's around 3h40 am. Slept till 12h30. Nice evening. Should see each other more often, once every 4 months isn't enough.
Started drawing, fucked it up. I hate how it's so random, sometimes it ends up really great, but most of the time turns out to be crap. Why can't it be like Yumi's ? My artistic ego is feeling rather diminished. At least my writing skills have improved. In english.
Why do i have such an over active imagination ? grumble grumble If I didn't spend most of my days dreaming i would have got what I dream about done. Like dating Florent instead about dreaming of dating him. grumble grumble ... etc grumble some more Feeling depressed etc.
Little conscience voice comes on : "Stop moaning about yourself"..."N
And that's about all I remember. At least I'm now feeling pissed off instead of depressed.
Don't I just *love* listening to myself.
Hey ! this is a message to all my friends, sorry I haven't been on a lot lately but school started again a couple of weeks ago and I only have access to internet during the week-end when I come back home. These last two weeks have also been really exausting, I've had heaps of exams (and big ones too) so I've been spending most of my week-ends revising. Anyway, this to say that it should be getting better next week and I promise to spend more than 30mn on elftown next week-end ! I haven't forgotten any of you even if I don't have the time to talk to you much and I hope I'll see ya all soon !
love
Pinkdonkey
Hey ... Holiday Time !!!
god i'm so pleased they've finally arrived, another week of school and i won't even be able to keep my eyes open enough to ... to ... to do something really interesting where you have to keep your eyes open, I'm so tired !
by the way, it's snowing. i know that the weather is not most interesting topic, but we're in the middle of april and barely 10 days ago i was getting sun-taned during the lunchbreak at school ! real change of weather that is ...
hum ... gotta go, a superb snowball fight is just waiting for me to begin !
hmm ... been quite some time since i've written anything in here. i guess it's hard to find the time with everything else going on, exams, work, friends etc ...
I really disagree with the present school system (in France) where I often start at 8h in the morning and finish at 6h, having only a one-hour break at lunchtime... it's extremely hard to combine very good marks and having a life in this system. I'm sure I could do better at school, but I don't want to go to bed at 1h in the morning everynight. 11h at night is already late enough as I have to get up a 6h40...
I don't actually care about notes that much (even if mine are quite good) because they're just there to fool people. It's not because you get a bad mark that you didn't understand the lesson. Anyway, how can you possibly rate intelligence or learning abilities out of 10 or 20 ? But then that's another topic ...
I really think the whole system should be changed and I am currently working on an alternative one. It's still quite primary but It's growing bigger and bigger each day as I discern the problems with the current one.
(By the way, I hate it when people complain about the system (education, politics or anything else) but don't give any solutions.)
I also find it silly to want 15, 16,17 or even 18 year old to know what job they want to do later. How can you really know, having had no experience working ? And I know that on my part, I'm just interested in so many things ... I'd love to keep on learnin for years, but not what I learn at school. There should be many more different classes available (especially manual or dealing with art) but with less students,
and we should be able to do completely different subjects at the same time and also change much more easily if we dislike them.
It will also be a lot easier if teachers had to go through a psychological test to see how the behave with children and teenagers and if they have the personality to teach.
i think i'll stop now for today or it will be very hard to stop later, plus this is getting a bit gloomy ... must be the weather :/
"Shoot for the moon; cos even if you miss, you'll land upon the stars ..."
finally...week
It's so nice to see the lovely curves of the screen, to push down all the buttons of the keyboard and listen to the calming "tick clock pat toc" of the keys...oh computer I miss you so much during the week !
I'm seriously thinking of writing an "Ode to unlimited ADSL" soon ... sad isn't it ?
:)
oh god, i've been sick since sunday night and i've been missing school since tuesday .... i'm sooooooooooo bored !!! ^_^ I've basically been spending my days in front of tv, the computer or reading a book...I feel miserable when not drugged up to the eyeballs with medicine and anyway no one's home...so the hell to it, i ain't got nothing to do so i'm going to complain about it :
"oh god, i've been sick since sunday..." oops, already done that :)
okay, that was soooo not funny or interesting or anything but i've got an excuse. I'm feeling sick and miserable. i'll probably be cheerful in a few hours, but right now i need some TLC ... :(
*goes and gives brother a hug, thus covering him in germs*
oh great, i'm starting school again tomorrow ... my wonderful timetable makes me start on monday at 8h and i finish at 6h ==> 9h (+1h lunchbreak) :exactly what you need to start school again after the holidays or the weekend ^_^ and just to makes things easier, i'm going back to boarding tonight (which saves me from getting up tomorrow morning at 5h30, i get to "sleep in" till 6h30 :/ )
anyway i'm looking forward to seeing my friends, having a bit of excitment around, having fun at boarding blah-blah-blah ... well that's what i'm trying to make myself believe. what i actually want to do is stay at home lazing around or spending my day on the computer trying to find a life worth living :) oh that's pretty pessimistic of me, i've got to admit i'm looking forward to seeing my hopefully-futu
have a nice week ;)
urgh...must keep eyes open...*huuuge yawwwwwwn*...m
3 cup of coffees later (not decaff !!) : hum ... i'm very tired and i'm going back to school monday (it's the end of the febuary holidays in france, well at least for me) ... I guess that sleeping for 4h last night (this morning will be more appropriate) isn't going to make it easier :) urgh ...
none of you probably wants to know all this but i'll pretend that you're all really interested and i can keep on writing about my boring teenage life, as just putting things on paper (well... screen) helps to get on with it.
Anyway, i went over to some friends last night and it turned out to be a crappy evening. i hadn't seen any of these friends for quite a while as i'm in a different lycée (ie. highschool or something like that) and a boarder while they are all together at the same school :( we were all best friends last year (when we were still in the same school) but things have changed quite a bit since ... they were all talking about people i didn't know, parties i hadn't gone to or teachers and classes they had ... i didn't have a clue of what was going on and when i asked they just said things like "it's not really interesting", "i'll tell you later" or the best one of all "you won't understand". no one seemed to be interested in what i had to say and just to make things better, one of them wasn't really speaking to me because of a really stupid month-old squabble ... of the ones with whom things hadn't changed or if they had, it was positive, none of them had been able to come.
strangely, i'm not actually that upset, i guess that it's because i won't see them till the next holidays anyway (we're all boarders and don't have much time to see each other during the week-end) and i find most of them have somehow ... regressed ... in maturaty. or maybe it's just me that has become more mature :)
thank you, invisible audience, writing it down has made things clear in my mind now and i kinda know what road to follow :)
Today started off quite nicely, I managed to get up without too many difficulties, did a tiny bit of cleaning up, had fun chating with friends or just lazing about while my mum went off shopping...and then she came back.
She had gone to Emmaus (a second-hand charity shop) where she always manages to get the most amazing things and so the thought of what she might bring back was lingering at the back of my mind. I had decided to ignore it and had pushed it far away in the deep dusty shelves of the "Ignore" section of my brain. But not thinking about did not change the facts : my mother came back with three ... sewing machines. Which brings the total of sewing machines in the house to 15... You might ask what's the point of having 15 of the bloody machines around when you only need one to sew ?? I ask myself the same.
The truth is, my mother collects them. Oh no, she doesn't go in for stamps, or coins, or even garden gnomes, but sewing machines and fabric and such other stuff. She has a whole room filled up from floor to ceiling with fabric, books on sewing, sewing machines, needles, threads and God know what. She even belongs to several sewing Internet groups. So you can see how I have been brought up ... and in 15 years I have not got used to it and I still feel pity - and horror - at this great decadence. So forgive me if I get slightly crazy when I hear the word "s*w*ng m*ch*ne" (even just writing it makes me wince). And at least you now know the origin of my slight strangeness ;o)
First day in Elftown ... got interrupted in the middle of reading the help file too install a firewire card...took about an hour and a half and I've had to reboot the computer about 8 times ... arghhhh !! So I guess I'll learn more about this site later on. I'm not new to Elfwood as I'm a great fan and browse through it as often as I can :) I'm not a writer or artist on Elfwood but I'm hoping to get a SciFi/Fantasy Gallery when I'll have the time to fill in the form ; I'm not such a great artist but can draw a bit and it's mainly to be more part of it as I go there very often :) Anyway it's 1am so I might be going to bed soon and I just noticed how long and boring my entry is ... I'll try and write something more interesting tomorrow ! (well further on today is more appropriate).