This is for a certain someone and you know who you are!!
my immortal
i'm so tired of being here
suppressed by all of my childish fears
and if you have to leave
i wish that you would just leave
because your presence still lingers here
and it won't leave me alone
these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase
when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
and i've held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me
you used to captivate me
by your resonating light
but now i'm bound by the life you left behind
your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
your voice it chased away all the sanity in me
these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase
when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
and i've held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me
i've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
and though you're still with me
i've been alone all along
Damn today was soo much fun! Liz stayed at my house on Friday and Saturday and it was soo much fun!! lol in the morning we went jogging and then we got online and we chatted. It was soo much fun! Their was this guy mowing his lawn a cute guy and i was just playin around and i was given signs and i licked my lips and he was being funny he let the lawn mower just go and i took off my sweat shirt and her and i started jogging and when i looked back he was starin it was funny! lol i'm such a nerd about that... Yeah but it was soo much fun Liz took one of my condoms and blew it up and that shit got really fuckin BIG!! It got really big and it was still strechy! lol it was funny! We got pics of that!! lol we were being dumb. Then it started to rain and my dad's car the roof was down so we ran everywhere to find some keys and finally we ran outside when it was rainy we found a spare in his glove compartment it was so funny and we were just soaked. And we took a shower together that was interesting!! lol. Then today, We went jogging 3 times today it was very fun then she dyed my hair brown it looks soo cute!!! lol it's so fun having her over!!
ugh i'm so sick of CAPT ( Connecticut Aplitude Practice Test).. It sucks ass!! I hate it.. But it's also fun in some ways cause well i'm with a interesting group it's me, Liz, Hope, Robby, Tim, and Charles.. lolz it was soo much fun though.. After we finished both Capt's for today we went out to the fish tanks and it was so funny cause Charles took the sharks out of thier tanks. lolz their tiny sharks. But it was funny!! But he threw them back in b4 the shark died. It was sooooooo much fun.. To bad Capt ends soon.. Even though i hate it i'll miss the stupid things we did.. lolz
Today is no school for me!! YAY!! lolz. But yeah my kittie came back home = >!!!! I was happy about that! So yeah it snowed up here in Connecticut again.. ugh soooooo sick of snow.. oh well. sooooooo bored..
Today is a bad day....... = <
I can't find my kittie he's lost somewhere!!! I miss him sooooooooooo much now!! He's my everything.. He's my everything and i miss him right now!!! tearz
damn today was a great day!! Today i made fun of Rob and his ugly ass girlfriend Amanda.. Then lata in tha day i was still making fun of them!! Then when tha day was almost done ma friend nikki needed a shirt for gym so we asked Chad- A REALLY REALLY SEXY GUY for a shirt so he only had the one he was wearing so he took his shirt off DAMN that boi has a FINE BODY!! lol. horny.. wow.. He's very musculer it was hott!! Damn can't wait to see him tomorrow!! lol..
lata
Yeah today is been very boring but oh well!!! lol. So yeah i'm in skool that's why. But oh well... So yeah i don't kno what to write about so i'll just say bye!!
ugh soo fuckin tired.. yawns streches on bed.. yawn i have to get up soo early in the fricken morning to go to NY to see some gates thing?? i don't kno wat it is but oh well~~!!! lol so yeah i'm going to bed wanna join?? lol joking.. Damn i must be tired..