im in,love with someone that is way to popular for me he doesent like me but that seems to just make me like him more i cant stop dreaming that someday we r gonna be togeva but thats never gonna happen i got sunburnt on my ches nut at the time i was in sports day dress with face paint i had his initials on my chest and i got sunburnt now i have a haunting reminder of him i have sleepless night i want him so much i will not reveal this persons name as it will offend him

oh well

stuff to do
stuff to kill
stuff to do against my will



ITS DEAN SULLIVAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

no more new sister she has gone it gets kinda lonely now but oh well she shouldent have beaen he sh** out of me should she??

im in love but its not the light happy love that two people share over double ice cream milkshaks with two straws one each and wen they get to the bottom there is a pationate kiss NO im in soooo deep i cant move i cant breath it husts oh by god it hurts iv got to get out got to leave but how im trapped in the endless caverness prison of love where there is no parole

stuff to do
stuff to kill
stuff to do against my will

life has become soo much worse i really rather feel like ending it i have a new sister and she is a pain the arse im in love with her boyfriend and my boyfriend dumped me wonder how i should top myself there are many ways i shall list them:
1.the usual slitting of the wrists but there is no guarntee that it will work
2.theres always the excessive alcohol and overdose but you spew all over yourself and if someone fit finds u your screwed arent you??
3.then you could be like a lemming and throw yourself off a cliff
4. i could always stab myself
5.or last but not least you could do all of these things in one that could be fun

hey life is such a bitch at the moment evrythiing is falling apart i need a friend i can trust i do have friends but i cant really trust them apart from one but she is busy that is so typical cos i need a friend
maddy is a really great friend but she doesent listen very weell her elfy name is [making the world a better place]
holly is bein a rite pain in the arse at the moment her name is [you kick the bucket , ill swing me legs]
and nat is cool her name is [Pler!]
thanx for reading love ya !


Beth !!! xXx