In a way this song describes me in a strange way, lol. Not totally cause I'm not alone now. But it still has to do with me in a way. And it's a kick ass song, lol.

Ok, this is about the last entry. I would like to thank the few that have supported both of us through this. There aren't many of you, but you know who you are and you are truly great friends, thanks.

Ok, this is for everyone who says we aren't gonna make it. Me and Kim love each other very much and this isn't fake love, this is real. I just don't understand why so many people have to be against us, I mean, what does it matter to them, these are our lives. So please just leave us the hell alone. And I'm talking about a few people specifiacally. Thanks for your time.

HIM Lyrics

You Are The One Lyrics


No I won't surrender
At any cost
You're something so sweet and tender
From my heart

Yes I've done my evil
I've done my good
Just believe me honey
I won't let go off you

You are the one
And there's no regrets at all
You are the one
And there's no regrets at all

We've had our share of misfortune
We've had our blues
And God is not on our side
Yes it's true
We keep forgetting baby
The others too
There is no one who can take that away
From me and you

You are the one
And there's no regrets at all

You are the one
And there's no regrets at all

Green Day - She's A Rebel Lyrics

She's a rebel
She's a saint
She's salt of the earth
And she's dangerous

She's a rebel
Vigilante
Missing link on the brink
Of destruction

From Chicago to Toronto
She's the one that they
Call old whatsername

She's the symbol
of resistance
and she's holding on my
heart like a hand grenade

is she dreaming
what I'm thinking
is she the mother of all bombs
gonna detonate

is she trouble
like I'm trouble
make it a double
twist of fate
or a melody that

sings the revolution
the dawning of our lives
she brings the liberation
that I just cant define
nothing comes to mind

She's a rebel
She's a saint
She's salt of the earth
And she's dangerous

She's a rebel
Vigilante
Missing link on the brink
Of destruction

She's a rebel, She's a rebel, She's a rebel, And she's
dangerous
She's a rebel, She's a rebel, She's a rebel, And she's
dangerous

Yeah, this really fucking sucks. My parakeet presly died. I know most people would say that it's just a fucking bird and I shouldn't be sad, but he was my bird. I've had him for 2 years, he was like a part of the family. So I'm kinda sad now, I mean, it really sucks.

K = All the kindness you have shown me
I = How incomplete I would be without you
M = The many years I want to spend with you

C = All the things we can do together
U = Just how unique and special you are
B = How lovely my virtual bride looks
I = How insane I would be without you
O = How you have gone over and beyond for me

This reminds me of a school project I did once. Had to do it with my name and my phone number, lol.

It's around 3 right now. I have to leave in an hour to go and wash my aunts van for a bit of extra spening money. Ummmm..... lets see here. Today kind of sucked b/c it was boring as hell. I fixed my comp. so now it's works. Let's see here, what else. I'm probably gonna be going to some lake woth my friend bruce on friday, 2marrow I'm gonna be going to buy some new shit from hot topic. I keep reading the poems that my g/f wrote me over and over. She is so damn amazing. I love her. I think thats about it for right now. Peace.

Remember this kim

Your not pretty
I don't want you
And I wouldn't cry if you left

Your Beautiful
I need you
And I would die if you left.

Ok, on with the journal now. It's like 6 something now in the morning, been getting up early for school. At least to get used to getting up early, lol. Scool doesn't start untill the 25th. Ummmm..... thats about it i guess. Bye for now.

Hey, whats up people. I feel great right now. I think this may be the only time in my life I have been truly happy. Not depressed, suicidal, or any other shit, I'm actually happy. I've started saving money for my trip to florida, I don't have much right now, but I'll get more. As long as I have enough money to get there and to feed myself for a few days, then I'm fine. I can tell you the first thing I'm gonna do when I get down there is spend the whole day with kim. After that I'm off to look for a place to live, and if I can't find one, then I'll just sleep somewhere else. I'm very resourceful, I'll find a place. I'm gonna try and make a trade for free board if I like help clean the place or something. If that doesn't work then I'll just stay at a church or something for a few days untill I find a place. Yeah, no matter what I'm going, I'll figure things out when I get there. It'll work out somehow. All I need to know is that I'll be close to kim, everything else is just not as important. I don't know how many times I've said this, but I love her so much. I'll say it over and over. I love her. Just being able to see her and take her out will be enough to make the trip worth it all.

Just had a fight with one of my best friends, she doesn't want to talk to me right now. I mean, she told me that she didn't want to talk to me and that she would log off if she saw me on. Then I told her that if you don't want to talk to me, fine, fuck you, but i still want to be friends and I'll still be here for you. Then she called me ungrateful and logged off, I mean, that had to be the weirdest fight I have ever been a part of, lol. But seriously, thats fine, I still do want to be her friend, but if she doesn't want to be fine, I'll just sit and wait to see what happens.

[TwiztidYoshi03] a.k.a. Kim, what can I say. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. You mean the world and so much more to me. Guess I just wanted to tell everyone. I can't wait to finally be able to see you. I will be counting the days untill the end of school. I can't wait. I love you and nothing can change that. I'm so happy to know you feel the same. What I feel for you cannot be measured in words. So I guess I'll just have to measure it in the hug I'm gonna give you the second I see you.

Wow, for the first time in a long time I actaully shed a tear. And yes, it's ok for guys to do that sometimes. Even we do it, we jut don't let you know. Yeah, and no matter how many times she says she is not worth it, she it. Trust me, if you knew her, you would agree. She is so worth it. I have never felt this was about anyone before. And I want to be with her so bad. Come the end of this school year, I probably will be. At least I hope I am. Cause I'm saving a little money for a bus ticket now, so I'll be able to get down there. It's all worth it, every last penny. It's $145.00 for a one way trip from Grand Rapids, michigan, to jacksonville, florida. It's so worth it, actually, iy's cheeper than I thought it would be.

Well, I did tell her. Won't give any names, but I'm just glad I got that out. I don't know, she is amazing. But I can't really act on my feelings now. We live in different states, so unless I decide to move there, which I might anyway just to get out of michigan, there is really nothing I can do. But thats ok, I still have a desision to make. It's a hard one, and it will take time, but I'll know soon enough. When the time is right I will have my desision. And right now, I'm leaning one way, but I want to stay where I am for now.

Hey, can't tell you who you are, but I had to get this out. I don't know how to say this. I am falling for you. Damn I hate being the hopeless romantic. Listen, I am having such a hard time with this. I have a g/f, but you have been in my mind lately. It's hard to choose. Maybe I'll know whom I like more soon, maybe it'll be a while. I don't know. I would love to tell you myself, but I can't yet say your name.

I don't know what to do with myself. Life is beginning to get overbearing. It's to damn much, but in a weird way, it's still ok. It all stems from these 3 girls. I'l' explain more next time.

Allright, I was supposed to go see my g/f either yesterday or today, well, I couldn't yesterday, and I just found out I can't today, so I'm pissed. I have to wait untill next monday to go see her. Then in 2 weeks she will be coming back to the town I live in for a little while. So that'll make it a bit easier.

"I've been watching, I've been waiting, in the shadows, for my time. I've been searching, I've been living, for tomorrows all my life." The quote is from a song by The Rasmus, the song is called In the Shadows. I just heard about this group from my friend [Maromi]. I think it sums up my life fairly well sometimes. And I'm still waiting in the shadows, forsaken by most, not know to all the others. But it's ok, this is where I would rather be. I hate being in the spotlight, and I definatly don't want to be one of the popular ones. My friends think I'm cool and thats all that matters.

Ok, another bad day yesterday and I'm sure I'll have another one today. This is my last day, as it will be the last day of the fair. I'm ready to be done with this shit for now. The money will be nice, but some of the assholes that come in almost make it not worth coming in. But again, the money, lol. I still need to call my g/f today, hopefully she will be home, if not, I may see her at the fair, but not for sure yet. I'm still wondering around in my boxers, bored out of my mind, thats about it, bye bye for now.

I don't have a lot to say at the moment. Had a horrible day at work, lol. It's a long story, so I won't get into it now. Maybe later. Did get to ride a few rides though for free, so that made it a bit better. Thats about it really, so, bye bye now.

ok, I know I'm still smoking, but I only had three yesterday, so I definatly cut back. I'm trying to cut back a lot. Listening to the offspring and being bored, thats about all I'm doing. Got to go to work at 3:15p.m. yay, lol. I had so many assholes yell at me yesterday at work. I work as a parker for the local fair, so I tell people where to park, and some people just don't listen. Fucking pisses me off cause I fucking get yelled at for fucking doing my god damned fucking job. It's a lot of fun, lol.