hey yall
well today is friday...tomorrow is joanna's party which im looking forward to after the week ive had....i told you about Dany well yesterday i made complete ARSE of myself by nearly killing him and this year 7 who keeps asking him out and who he is friends with...... screamed, shouted alot...now all the year 7s think im a crazy biatch lol
Dany,
You once told me this:
''dont leave the person who you love for the person who you like because the person who you like wil leave you for the person that they love''
Love is always there
just sometimes
never seen
not felt
look deep
its there
i can still see it in your eyes
your smile never lies
Love is still there
just
never seen
not felt
LOOK


Love Lauren xxx

this is only my second diary entry...i want to write more regulary really.....
First and most importantly me and Dany broke up...extreamly sad because as it stands we are not really talking...i wish we were..i miss him so very much....to see him everyday makes me feel sick that ive lost him...for a second time makes it harder. when all i want to do is tell him how much he means to me...maybe i cant tell him to his face..hope he reads this:
Dany,
i know your hurting now, that makes the both of us. i dont hate you. im not even angry. im disapointed. not in you. in life. fate seems to deal us a crap hand right now yeah? i know you know i love you, more than words, but i had to tell you....so you dont forget.....dont forget us....dont forget me....i no youll be one of those people ill never forget...ever.....the image of your beautiful face will stay with me until the day i die.....at our age we shouldnt have regrets..but i have just one.....i regret not telling you just how much you mean to me everyday
''a kiss without commitments like a flower without the rain
it only leads to pain
it fills my heart with emptieness
your touch without commitments like the calm before the strom
the tears that start to form in my eyes
when i kissed you i was curious
the child that i was
i never realised that i would love your soul
and in the magic of the moment i was swept to the side
and i saw your heart so small and tender
the pyhsical is fine but i cannot avoid the pain
im like an express train as i surge towards the mountain
i am certain as im living i cannot do this again
we're much too greater friends to play games
when i kissedit was evrything i dreamed it would be
but i never dreamed it would mean so much to me
and our friendship is too valuable to carelessly lose
so today i choose to really love you
Daniel your heart is like newly budding rose
expanding as you grow
your petals have been bruised but you have so much love to give
and its so beautiful to see
your beautiful to me my friend
and when i kissed you i believed it wouldnt get in the way
i want to stay your friend and have you mine
and im hoping that our god can make great things of our lives
his love survives the greatest struggle
Daniel your cage is open nothing in your way
a friend youll always stay to me whatever else were gunna be
a friend youll always stay to me''
laurenxxxx

hey everyone,
this is my first diary entry....enjoy
stef selpt last night was ace! we ate n watched DVDs till 3 this moring. went shopping 2day but had no money!!!! we saw the most gorge skirt ever, the kind you could wear to a wedding (hint dany!!)
well maybe ill talk more laters
lauren xxx