hey yall...made a complete arse of myself and upset Dany and myself in the process...not good

here i stand alone with this weight upon my heart
and it will not go away
in my head i keep on looking back
right back to the start
wondering what it was that made you change

well i tried but i had to draw the line
but still this question keepson spinning in my mind

what if i had never let you go?
would you be the man i used to know?
if id stayed
if you'd tried
if we could only turn back time
but i guess we'll never know

many roads to take some to joy some to heart ache
anyone can lose their way
and if i said that we could turn it back
right back to the start
would you take the chance and make a change??

do you think how it would have been sometimes?
do you pray that id never left your side??

what if i had never let you go?
would you be the man i used to know?
if id stayed
if you'd tried
if we could only turn back time
but i guess we'll never know

if only we could turn the hands of time
if i could take it back would you still be mine?

well i tried but i had to draw the line
but still this question keepson spinning in my mind


what if i had never let you go?
would you be the man i used to know?
what if i had never walked away
cos i still love you more than i could say
if id stayed
if you'd tried
if we could only turn back time
but i guess we'll never know
we'll never know


ozzy, my one and only sugarplum:
we'll get through this together, i promise....ur themost honest sweetest guy i ever met......and the most genuine...but too soft foryour own good lol...bless your little soul....luv u

that all today folks
lauren

hey yall
today as been better for me as me and dany seem to be finally getting closer...i wanna be close to him again...i feel safer with him.....plus (sounds corney) i miss his smell lol...i miss him full stop...ahh...bless him.....sweetest guy ever...
today is my brothers birthday lol happy birthday danny.
yeah scarey...Alex said today 'ya know if i didnt know you two (me and dany, lovely dany not my brother) id think you too were brother and sister'
THAT WOULD BE WRONG ALEX also illegal i think lol................ewwwwwwwwwww dnay as my brother....ill stick to the person i love thank you very much................
love lauren

Hiya,
Jo's party what can i say??? FUN!!!!!!!!!
Though i learnt alot.....no matter how happy people seem on the outside, we all have secrets inside...and you can only be truly happy if you are yourself.....you shouldnt have regrets.....live life like it will never end but live today as if it might be your last..... if you love someone tell them...youll be kicking yourself when your 80 if you dont which is hard to do and how you break a hip (God Bless Phoebe Buffet)
For Alex, the Best Alex i no:
Are you swimming upstream in oceans of blue?
Do you feel like you're sinking?
Are you sick of the rain after all you've been through?
Well I know what you're thinking
When you can't take it
You can make it
Sometime soon I know you'll see

'cause when you're in your darkest hour
And all of the light just fades away
When you're like a single flower whose colours have turned to shades of gray
Well hang on, and be strong

We're taking each step one day at a time
You can't lose your spirit
Let live and let live forget and forgive
It's all how you see it
And just remember keep it together
Don't you know you're never alone

'cause when you're in your darkest hour
And all of the light just fades away
When you're like a single flower whose colours have turned to shades of gray
Well hang on, and be strong

No you're not defeated
And soon you'll be smiling once again
Then you won't have to feel it
Let it go with the wind
Time passes us by
And know that you're aloud to cry

'cause when you're in your darkest hour
And all of the light just fades away
When you're like a single flower whose colours have turned to shades of gray
Well hang on and be strong

love lauren

hey yall
well today is friday...tomorrow is joanna's party which im looking forward to after the week ive had....i told you about Dany well yesterday i made complete ARSE of myself by nearly killing him and this year 7 who keeps asking him out and who he is friends with...... screamed, shouted alot...now all the year 7s think im a crazy biatch lol
Dany,
You once told me this:
''dont leave the person who you love for the person who you like because the person who you like wil leave you for the person that they love''
Love is always there
just sometimes
never seen
not felt
look deep
its there
i can still see it in your eyes
your smile never lies
Love is still there
just
never seen
not felt
LOOK


Love Lauren xxx

this is only my second diary entry...i want to write more regulary really.....
First and most importantly me and Dany broke up...extreamly sad because as it stands we are not really talking...i wish we were..i miss him so very much....to see him everyday makes me feel sick that ive lost him...for a second time makes it harder. when all i want to do is tell him how much he means to me...maybe i cant tell him to his face..hope he reads this:
Dany,
i know your hurting now, that makes the both of us. i dont hate you. im not even angry. im disapointed. not in you. in life. fate seems to deal us a crap hand right now yeah? i know you know i love you, more than words, but i had to tell you....so you dont forget.....dont forget us....dont forget me....i no youll be one of those people ill never forget...ever.....the image of your beautiful face will stay with me until the day i die.....at our age we shouldnt have regrets..but i have just one.....i regret not telling you just how much you mean to me everyday
''a kiss without commitments like a flower without the rain
it only leads to pain
it fills my heart with emptieness
your touch without commitments like the calm before the strom
the tears that start to form in my eyes
when i kissed you i was curious
the child that i was
i never realised that i would love your soul
and in the magic of the moment i was swept to the side
and i saw your heart so small and tender
the pyhsical is fine but i cannot avoid the pain
im like an express train as i surge towards the mountain
i am certain as im living i cannot do this again
we're much too greater friends to play games
when i kissedit was evrything i dreamed it would be
but i never dreamed it would mean so much to me
and our friendship is too valuable to carelessly lose
so today i choose to really love you
Daniel your heart is like newly budding rose
expanding as you grow
your petals have been bruised but you have so much love to give
and its so beautiful to see
your beautiful to me my friend
and when i kissed you i believed it wouldnt get in the way
i want to stay your friend and have you mine
and im hoping that our god can make great things of our lives
his love survives the greatest struggle
Daniel your cage is open nothing in your way
a friend youll always stay to me whatever else were gunna be
a friend youll always stay to me''
laurenxxxx

hey everyone,
this is my first diary entry....enjoy
stef selpt last night was ace! we ate n watched DVDs till 3 this moring. went shopping 2day but had no money!!!! we saw the most gorge skirt ever, the kind you could wear to a wedding (hint dany!!)
well maybe ill talk more laters
lauren xxx