[lady_in_red]'s diary

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Written about Tuesday 2005-05-31
Written: (7119 days ago)

BEST DAY EVER ME AND DANY BACK TOGETHER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I
LOVE
DANY
XXXXXX

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Written about Monday 2005-05-30
Written: (7120 days ago)

nothing ever changes i dont think it ever will
as much as i pray it will
what is normal? and when will it return
this vicious circle some time soon it will kill
both of us, together then
now apart
but forever in my heart
i dream and i wish
the truth. what is that? why cant you see
dreams and wishes never bring you any closer to me
does what i say shock you
did you already know
that you own my heart
and why i cannot go
i cannotleave today, maybe ill walk tomorrow
later. when is that?? when i cannot see my future
lots to say
just no voice
and no choice
wot i say comes out wrong
thats why i wrote this song
to show im not totally lost
i can find my way home if i have to.

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Written about Sunday 2005-05-29
Written: (7121 days ago)

hey,
a good weekend in all......good times good times.....did laser quest, only girl, n i bet half of them lol!!!! Go me...im off aainon friday with...well just dany so far but i think stef and ozzy and slack and lucy may want to come too....would be a bit awkward with just me and dany!!!!
was textin him today...he said as it stands we arnt getting back together.....sad really...........we made i good couple....i thought...seems i though wrong...i think......

never knew that i could feel like this
like ive never seen the sky efore
i want to vanish inside your kiss
everyday i love you more
listen to your heart
can you hear it sing??
telling me to give you everything
seasons may change
winter to spring
but i love you
until the end of time

come what may
come what may
i will love you
until my dying day

suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace
suddenly my life doesnt seem such a waste
it all revolves around you
and theres no mountain too high
no river too wide
sing out this song and ill be there by you side
storm cloudsmay gather and stars may collide
but i love you
until the end of time

come what may
come what may
i will love you
until my dying day

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Written about Friday 2005-05-27
Written: (7123 days ago)

she crys herself to sleep
and he sits to watch her weep
the glow of the candle light on her face
he takes her hand to say goodbye
she knows they cant live a lie
but the end is just too soon, such a waste
she looks up, tears on her cheeks
he has been dreading this for weeks
the loves not there, theres nothing he can do
he wipes her tears away
shes praying for another day
she still loves him, its so out of the blue
she opened up her mind and heart
he came in and tore it apart
a look of saddness holds in her eyes
he walks away, towards the door
she cant bare, it she looks to the floor
no final words, too choked to say goodbye

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Written about Friday 2005-05-27
Written: (7123 days ago)

Your body's warm
But you are not
You give a little
Not a lot
You coup your love
Until we kiss
You're all I want
But not like this
I'm watching you disappear
But you, you were never here

It's only your shadow
Never yourself
It's only your shadow
Nobody else
It's only your shadow
Filling the room
Arriving too late
And leaving too soon
And leaving too soon

Your body gives
But then holds back
The sun is bright
The sky is black
Can only be another sign
I cannot keep what isn't mine
You left and it lingers on
But you, you were almost gone

It's only your shadow
Never yourself
It's only your shadow
Nobody else
It's only your shadow
Filling the room
Arriving too late
And leaving too soon
And leaving too soon

I cannot tell if you mean what you say
You say it so loud, but you sound far away
Maybe I had just a glimpse of your soul
Or was that your shadow I saw on the wall
I'm watching you disappear
But you, you were never here

It's only your shadow
Never yourself
It's only your shadow
Nobody else
It's only your shadow
Filling the room
Arriving too late
No, no, no
It's only your shadow
It's only your shadow
Nobody else
It's only your shadow
Arriving too late
And leaving too soon

It's only your shadow

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Written about Friday 2005-05-27
Written: (7123 days ago)

you don't run with the crowd
you go your own way
you don't play after dark
you light up my day
got your own kinda' style it sets you apart
baby thats why you captured my heart

i know sometimes you feel like you dont fit in
and this world doesnt know what you have within
when i look at you i see something rare
a rose that can grow anywhere
and theres no one i know that can compare

what makes you different makesyou beautiful
whats there inside you shines through to me
in your eyes i see all the love ill ever need
what makes you different makes you beautiful to me

you got something so real
you touched me so deep
see material things
dont matter to me
so come as you are
you got nothing to prove
you won me with all that you do
and i wanna take this chance to say to you


what makes you different makesyou beautiful
whats there inside you shines through to me
in your eyes i see all the love ill ever need
what makes you different makes you beautiful to me

you don't know how you touched my life
oh in so many ways i just cant describe
you taught me what love is suppose to be
its all the little things that make you beautiful to me

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Written about Friday 2005-05-27
Written: (7123 days ago)

hey all.....
had a realli good day..endof term..played hide and seek inmr P's classroom...lol...god it was hilerious!!!!! today id like to make some shout outs to a few of my people.....

Emilybob: my betest m8 you really stuck by me through all the hard times....thank you so much...you know more about me than i do and you always help me though...whenever me and ozzy feel like doing simething stupid we think about you and how much it would hurt you...you've probably saved our lives.....thank you so very much...luv yas......clutchin children like damp refugees!!! xx

Ozzy: like i said yesterday your my one and only sugarplum...the person i know can rely on to tell me the truth...about myslef and other people......your honest and genuine..i know i can rely on you and at themoment i need that kind of friendship.....we're both a bit fucked up but we'll get through...i hope....we will........luv yas....xx

Slack: what can i can???.....lets get stoned...just kidding.....cheers dude...luv yas....xxxx

Stef: my hunni bunni....the best mate a girl could ask for...bless ya...you get me through..thank you.....luv yas xxx

Ilz: my snazzest mate......cheers.....luv yas xxx

Lola: what can i say...not alot...we've bee through alot together...ull be one ill remeber forever...xxx


Dany: I love you

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Written about Thursday 2005-05-26
Written: (7124 days ago)

bless tom

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Written about Thursday 2005-05-26
Written: (7124 days ago)

It's been a while how have you been doing
Do you over think about me and you and
All the things we used to do
The times that we shared
Well I've been looking for love and affection
It's brought me back in your direction
Even though we've been apart
Your part of my soul
Ok I know (I know I was a fool)
A fool (To lose my faith in you)
But girl before you go
I want you to know

That I think of you every day, baby
And I can't seem to get away
from these feelings
And I, I need to tell you some how
That I need your love right now

Looking back I can see things clearly
The mistakes that I paid for dearly
Taking love for granted only leaves you alone
Well if we talked you would understand that
Time has made me a better man and
With your love behind me there's nowhere I can't go

So take a chance (Just take a chance on me)
And you'll see (It's where you need to be)
If your heart it tells you so
You'll know what I know

That I think of you every day, baby
And I can't seem to get away from these feelings
And I, I need to tell you some how
That I need your love right now

Right now is the time for both of us
To put aside our differences and trust
All the words I never used to say
Now I've found a way
(Now I've found a way)

That I think of you every day, baby
(I think of you, I think of you, baby)
And I can't seem to get away from these feelings
(I can't seem to, I can't seem to, get away, get away)
And I, I need to tell you some how
(Some how)
That I need your love (Your love, right now)
(Right now)

That I think of you every day, baby
(baby)
And I can't seem to get away from these feelings
(I can't seem..
From these feelings)
And I, I need to tell you some how
That I need your love right now

I said I need your love right now..

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Written about Thursday 2005-05-26
Written: (7124 days ago)

hey yall...made a complete arse of myself and upset Dany and myself in the process...not good

here i stand alone with this weight upon my heart
and it will not go away
in my head i keep on looking back
right back to the start
wondering what it was that made you change

well i tried but i had to draw the line
but still this question keepson spinning in my mind

what if i had never let you go?
would you be the man i used to know?
if id stayed
if you'd tried
if we could only turn back time
but i guess we'll never know

many roads to take some to joy some to heart ache
anyone can lose their way
and if i said that we could turn it back
right back to the start
would you take the chance and make a change??

do you think how it would have been sometimes?
do you pray that id never left your side??

what if i had never let you go?
would you be the man i used to know?
if id stayed
if you'd tried
if we could only turn back time
but i guess we'll never know

if only we could turn the hands of time
if i could take it back would you still be mine?

well i tried but i had to draw the line
but still this question keepson spinning in my mind


what if i had never let you go?
would you be the man i used to know?
what if i had never walked away
cos i still love you more than i could say
if id stayed
if you'd tried
if we could only turn back time
but i guess we'll never know
we'll never know


ozzy, my one and only sugarplum:
we'll get through this together, i promise....ur themost honest sweetest guy i ever met......and the most genuine...but too soft foryour own good lol...bless your little soul....luv u

that all today folks
lauren

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Written about Monday 2005-05-23
Written: (7127 days ago)

hey yall
today as been better for me as me and dany seem to be finally getting closer...i wanna be close to him again...i feel safer with him.....plus (sounds corney) i miss his smell lol...i miss him full stop...ahh...bless him.....sweetest guy ever...
today is my brothers birthday lol happy birthday danny.
yeah scarey...Alex said today 'ya know if i didnt know you two (me and dany, lovely dany not my brother) id think you too were brother and sister'
THAT WOULD BE WRONG ALEX also illegal i think lol................ewwwwwwwwwww dnay as my brother....ill stick to the person i love thank you very much................
love lauren

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Written about Sunday 2005-05-22
Written: (7128 days ago)

Hiya,
Jo's party what can i say??? FUN!!!!!!!!!
Though i learnt alot.....no matter how happy people seem on the outside, we all have secrets inside...and you can only be truly happy if you are yourself.....you shouldnt have regrets.....live life like it will never end but live today as if it might be your last..... if you love someone tell them...youll be kicking yourself when your 80 if you dont which is hard to do and how you break a hip (God Bless Phoebe Buffet)
For Alex, the Best Alex i no:
Are you swimming upstream in oceans of blue?
Do you feel like you're sinking?
Are you sick of the rain after all you've been through?
Well I know what you're thinking
When you can't take it
You can make it
Sometime soon I know you'll see

'cause when you're in your darkest hour
And all of the light just fades away
When you're like a single flower whose colours have turned to shades of gray
Well hang on, and be strong

We're taking each step one day at a time
You can't lose your spirit
Let live and let live forget and forgive
It's all how you see it
And just remember keep it together
Don't you know you're never alone

'cause when you're in your darkest hour
And all of the light just fades away
When you're like a single flower whose colours have turned to shades of gray
Well hang on, and be strong

No you're not defeated
And soon you'll be smiling once again
Then you won't have to feel it
Let it go with the wind
Time passes us by
And know that you're aloud to cry

'cause when you're in your darkest hour
And all of the light just fades away
When you're like a single flower whose colours have turned to shades of gray
Well hang on and be strong

love lauren

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Written about Friday 2005-05-20
Written: (7130 days ago)

hey yall
well today is friday...tomorrow is joanna's party which im looking forward to after the week ive had....i told you about Dany well yesterday i made complete ARSE of myself by nearly killing him and this year 7 who keeps asking him out and who he is friends with...... screamed, shouted alot...now all the year 7s think im a crazy biatch lol
Dany,
You once told me this:
''dont leave the person who you love for the person who you like because the person who you like wil leave you for the person that they love''
Love is always there
just sometimes
never seen
not felt
look deep
its there
i can still see it in your eyes
your smile never lies
Love is still there
just
never seen
not felt
LOOK


Love Lauren xxx

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Written about Wednesday 2005-05-18
Written: (7132 days ago)

this is only my second diary entry...i want to write more regulary really.....
First and most importantly me and Dany broke up...extreamly sad because as it stands we are not really talking...i wish we were..i miss him so very much....to see him everyday makes me feel sick that ive lost him...for a second time makes it harder. when all i want to do is tell him how much he means to me...maybe i cant tell him to his face..hope he reads this:
Dany,
i know your hurting now, that makes the both of us. i dont hate you. im not even angry. im disapointed. not in you. in life. fate seems to deal us a crap hand right now yeah? i know you know i love you, more than words, but i had to tell you....so you dont forget.....dont forget us....dont forget me....i no youll be one of those people ill never forget...ever.....the image of your beautiful face will stay with me until the day i die.....at our age we shouldnt have regrets..but i have just one.....i regret not telling you just how much you mean to me everyday
''a kiss without commitments like a flower without the rain
it only leads to pain
it fills my heart with emptieness
your touch without commitments like the calm before the strom
the tears that start to form in my eyes
when i kissed you i was curious
the child that i was
i never realised that i would love your soul
and in the magic of the moment i was swept to the side
and i saw your heart so small and tender
the pyhsical is fine but i cannot avoid the pain
im like an express train as i surge towards the mountain
i am certain as im living i cannot do this again
we're much too greater friends to play games
when i kissedit was evrything i dreamed it would be
but i never dreamed it would mean so much to me
and our friendship is too valuable to carelessly lose
so today i choose to really love you
Daniel your heart is like newly budding rose
expanding as you grow
your petals have been bruised but you have so much love to give
and its so beautiful to see
your beautiful to me my friend
and when i kissed you i believed it wouldnt get in the way
i want to stay your friend and have you mine
and im hoping that our god can make great things of our lives
his love survives the greatest struggle
Daniel your cage is open nothing in your way
a friend youll always stay to me whatever else were gunna be
a friend youll always stay to me''
laurenxxxx

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Written about Wednesday 2005-03-30
Written: (7181 days ago)

hey everyone,
this is my first diary entry....enjoy
stef selpt last night was ace! we ate n watched DVDs till 3 this moring. went shopping 2day but had no money!!!! we saw the most gorge skirt ever, the kind you could wear to a wedding (hint dany!!)
well maybe ill talk more laters
lauren xxx

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