I would like to apologize for my periodically long absences, my stepdad stole the modem, again. And everytime I found it with him not being home, it didnt work!
So I finally called tech support, they fixed the box that he tried to smash! ...douchebag...
And now I have net again! but only when he isnt home...
Which is from 11 to 4 on some days, but mostly from 2 to 4.
On weekends I cant say how long ill be on...probably not at all.
He said, after a long talk explaining how much of a horrible worthless son I am (yes his words!), that I can have it back after I show some "Improvement". Which is basically me doing the same thing ive been doing for years, just now I have to write it on some board or else he wont notice.
Now the funniest part about this is, my mom mentioned that my sister does nothing around the house, so he told me and her to split the work, and have it done before he got home.
Well...problem with that is my sister gets home a little after 4, he gets home around 3:50 to 4...so if I dont do my work AND my sisters work then I dont get the computer back...ever.

So im sorry to everyone who will be missing me dearly, ill try to be on as often as possible, but if im caught then I have to wait until I get my own computer...

yup im totally awesome... even though I didnt win...fuck.

Alright, everyones forgiveness I implore.
My mothers douchebag stole the internet modem at my house, so Im without internet until he decides to stop being a whiny little girl. So im gonna be gone for some time...
im at [Neferoth, the lethargic stigmata]'s house right now...

Ok the lovely [Diede.] came up with the new thing that will soon sweep the internet!!!!
No longer will we have to worry about the stupid emo hearts (<3)
Now we have:
*drumroll*

<4!!!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PJYxCSXjhLI
Everyone watch this, its great.

98% of teens wont stand up for god...XD god is screwed!

my house is haunted!
I was in the shower when the temperature of the water kept going up and down as if someone was flushing the toilet!
MY HOUSE IS HAUNTED BY EVIL BATHROOM GNOMES!!!!!!!!!!!
then later on the soap fell...but Im to smart for them ^^ I didnt fall for their evil ruse! I grabbed a second bar of soap I keep in there just in case evil bathroom gnomes have nefarious plans involving dropped soap and a spoon!

if your my friend reading this: Remind me to buy Bathroom Gnome repellent.

Ive had another revelation:

I AM FUCKING TERRIFIED OF DEATH!
life coming to an end, just emptiness...no heaven or hell. all my joys of life gone...FUCK ITS SCARY! Death is the ultimate end, there is no greater defeat than dying, not even living in torment...just dying is scary as hell. There is nothing I fear more than just dropping dead one day. I want to live forever, so I can forever realize the true joys of life...
I truly pity the death hungry, not only are they sacraficing their life, but they are literally going nowhere...
Fuck...many years from now I will be laying in a fucking deathbed and I will die! I DONT WANT THAT TO HAPPEN! I dont care if I get old and wrinkly and saggy...I just want to live for fucking ever.

I think its people who have this thought make the prettiest corpses...just the look in their eyes says "My only regret is life had to end" its beautiful..but a horrible thing...
Its the suicidal, the depressed, etc that make ugly corpses, they lie there and rot...they left nothing behind, no legacy all the had was death, they threw their lives away and now their dead body reflects it...
as LaVey said "Some people make prettier corpses than others"

I have a confession:
Last night I had sex with jesus. And I dont know whats funnier, the fact that I had to fake an orgasm he was so disappointing (how a guy fakes an orgasm...dont ask) or that Jesus had sex with a guy XD

Ok this is how the movie should have really been.
http://youtube.com/watch?v=gRcj6CAhe7s&;feature=active_sharing
If jack had a band on his boat then he so would have made them play this song while he sang...
yup that would have pissed davy off.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eTbPd7c6rSg
Watch that, for the love of satan its funny as hell!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DyiKbP_IH5k&mode=related&search=
This is what happens when you put mentos in beer!
Trust me this is not one thing to try at home! Its the most stunning and unexpected reaction....if your my friend reading this diary entry you have to watch this!

familyguynow.com is the greatest site ever!

Ive been having some fun with pictures...again.

Here is the original, and politically incorrect, picture:


Here is the modified, more truthful picture:


yes I am fully aware there is a typo in it!

Today I came across a wonderful statistic.
42% of muslims in america claim to be muslim before american
63% of christians claim to be christian before american.

This made me think, just what comes first in my life, satanism, or my american heritage...
I concluded satanism cant come first, that it works in such a way its not a cause or a quest, its a tool and it couldnt come in any order.

I think I would be a human animal before anything, then I would be nazarath.

A good story I know starts with a Christian: He is in serious trouble, in desperation, takes his last change, goes to a phone booth in the freezing rain and dials heaven. He keeps getting a busy signal. After quite some time, someone answers and puts him on hold. They leave him on hold. Then finally he gets to talk to a lesser being like an angel or something. When a Satanist calls Hell, Satan, himself, picks up after the first ring.

ok here is a list of things that piss me off about ET houses:
1. its nothing but a massive slop of incoherent Teen jargon.
2. It has a long collection of pictures not related to the person.

3.The overuse of word shortenings, or bad grammar
4.The page being little more than a spiteful diatribe, if your gonna put your opinions up, do so in wikis.
5. The overuse of huge letters, I used to do it, but everytime I scrolled down it annoyed me. So I stopped ^^
6. The stupid emo hearts (<3)
7. The emo/ myspace picture styles
8. the links to myspace, or emails.
9. The proclamations that the person is a stoner, or an alcoholic.
10. Whining, nonstop explanation of problems in a bio.
11. The motorcycle story, the questions and questionairs, song lyrics etc.
12. putting up pics of your friends and saying beneath it "I will kick your ass if you hurt them" etc. Having this house is protected by banners dont piss me off.

But what angers me the most is seeing a short, or long, description, just a small essay of words. Thats great for getting approved on to et, but change it as soon as possible, make your page interesting!
What angers me further more is seeing the whole "Teen counter culture statement" the whole "im unique, im me...etc" that whole rant that i see a million times on here. Its great that your unique...but let people find out on your own, dont just rant on about it.

lately ive had something on my mind...
most people's ET houses suck.
I mean, they are just a random collection of pictures and words that could be somewhere else...
And there are alot of emo type things that people have going on...
God people need better ET houses.

My mom said I can get a tattoo!!!
For my last B day that I didnt get a single fucking present for....from anyone...thanks assholes!
anyways, Im gonna get Baphomet, with "In Nomine Nostri Satanas Luciferi Excelsi" beneath it in fancy writing, on my right shoulder.
And im gonna get my tounge peirced ^^
Yup im a happy Nazarath!

^^ Im very happy today!
I sent out for a "Satanis the Devil's mass" Dvd double featured with Sinthia the Devil's Doll. ^^ now I get to see satanic, anton lavey ritual goodness ^^