god freakin nobody is on at the same time i am. like, none of my friends anyways

random quote from my bestfriend hunter

"our times away from each other make our times together more special!"

okay i feel so pissed at myself. more pissed at myself than i ever probably will for a LOOOOOOOOOOONG time. well i feel really bad because i shouldnt have broken up with my ex boyfriend over the internet because now he totally hates my guts (WHICH i dont blame him) but he was still a really good friend and i wanted it to stay that way but i totally fucked things up so here i am, back at the beginning, wondering if its best to just give up going out altogether. and i feel bad cuz this dude was a good friend!!! he was one of my best friends before we were even going out and now i still wanna be friends with him but i know that he totally thinks that i should burn in hell and i feel REALLY BAD lol....ugh. but yeah, i'm pretty sure i'll get over it.....after a long time but...in the meantime, i should find out if he wants to bite my head off cuz (hes on elftown) he ended the relationship "friends" with me (again, totally dont blame him, i'm such a bitch) and yeah, that sucks. i mean, dont like him anymore, but i still feel bad! i still wanna be friends!

velvet

camp white deer camp white deer camp white deer camp white deer camp white deer camp white deer camp white deer camp white deer camp white deer....CAMP WHITE DEER GODDAMMIT THAT STUPID FUCKING CAMP WHITE DEER IS FUCKING POSSESING ME!! not really but i'm seriously pissed......

YES!! I TALKED TO CAMERON YESTERDAY! TWICE! YES! i was right, he came home kinda late, lol. it was bitchin 2 hear his voice after three weeks though!!!!!!! LOL he was being his funny self too which was tight.

xoxo,

luv alwayz,

velvet

PS ONE MORE DAY UNTIL I SEE CAMERON

well my bf came home today but i havent gotten to talk to him DAMMIT! cuz he doesnt have my number and i already called and i got the machine and hes not on the computer. i have the strangest feeling he's coming home late lol but yeaaah, i just cant wait to see him!!!

xoxo,

luv alwayz,

velvet

PS two more days until i see cameron

well my bf cameron is coming back tomorrow!! i havent seen him in three weeks and its been HORRIBLE!!! i mean for crying out loud the last time i saw him we werent even going out!! the last time we actually TALKED we werent going out, this pisses me off. but he seriously does like me (at least thats what i heard) but yup....I MISS HIM SO MUCH! i'm gonna talk to him tomorrow and then on monday i'm just gonna hug him and squeeze him and hug him and squeeze him...okay that sounds really fucking nasty i didnt mean it like that fucking a that sounds so wrong. oh well. but yeah......umm.....so how bout them yankees......umm lol okay.

xoxo,

luv alwayz,

velvet

PS Three more days until i see cameron

well i just finished reading harry potter and the half blood prince. IF YOU ARE CURRENTLY READING THIS BOOK AND DO NOT WANT ME TO SPOIL THE ENDING FOR YOU, STOP READING THIS ENTRY RIGHT......NOW!

















GIVE AWAY:
okay well basically it was really sad but the best book yet. meaning of story? harry finds the true meaning of the prophocy and realizes that he doesnt HAVE to go after voldemort, but one way or another its going to be one of them killing the other so he can choose the way it will end. this whole time it actually turns out that snape is on voldemorts side and hes been reporting to voldemort and he's actually the reason that harrys parents are dead because when dumbledore was interviewing professor traleney (w/e her stupid name is, she's not even mentioned that much in this book) she told him the prophocy cuz she went all beserk and snape was listening outside the door and he pretended that he accidentally got lost the loser. anways, hes also the half blood prince (YES everyone thought that it would be a totally new character but it turns out that he is most definitly half blood and the reason y his nickname is the half blood prince is because his moms maiden name is prince and she was a witch whereas his father was a muggle, so he was more proud of his mummie) uh, harry and ginny date and the break up but its a good break up because harry doesnt want voldemort to use ginny as bait for harry (ex. killing her, kiddnapping, etc.). ron and hermione obviously want each other so bad it makes me wanna puke cuz they wont date. the reason y tonks is so upset is because shes in love with lupin but he doesnt wanna marry her cuz hes werewolf but in the end everything works out, ron and lavender date and all they every freakin do is snog but thats okay cuz in the end the stop dating too THANK GOD i was gonna puke, she called him "Won-Won" UGH gross...fluer and bill are getting married but bills face gets all messed up but fluer still loves him (everyone thought that she just liked him for his looks but she actually did like him) so they are going to get married still, dumbledore had a funeral, and......oh yeah, malfoy works for voldemort now. i mean, he was the person that was supposed to kill dumbledore but his mom made snape swear that if malfoy didnt carry it out then he would so yup yup, thats what happened.

if u have a question about it, ask me cuz know almost every freaking word in it now (lol jk, but i noticed most of the typos)

xoxo,

luv alwayz,

velvet

PS Four more days until i see cameron

YAY the guy that i really liked asked me out and now i'm officially no longer boyfriendless!! yayayayayayaa

i'm sad. i'm not gonna see the guy that i like a lot for a a week. but i always tell myself its worth the wait. and guess what? no matter how long the wait is, its worth it. we always hang out and we always chat and he's always giving me stuff and letting me have a piggy back ride, its awesome i hope we end up going out cuz this is killing me!!!!

xoxo

luv alwayz,

velvet

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thats how many BUZZ!'s me and my friend sent to each other on YIM right now

it would be great if someone counted them for me lol

if you do, plz let me know how many BUZZ!'s there are

i stole this from my friend [jrod] lol

What would you do if I:

1) I committed suicide:
2) I said I liked you:
3) I kissed you:
4) I lived next door to you:
5) I started smoking:
6) I stole something:
7) I was hospitalized:
8) I ran away from home:
9) I got into a fight and you weren't there:

What do you think about my:

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4) Hair:
5) Clothes:
6) Mannerisms:

Other:

1) Who are you?
2) Are we friends?
3) When and how did we meet?
4) How have I affected you?
5) What do you think of me?
6) What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7) How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
8) Do you love me?
9) Have I ever hurt you?
10) Would you hug me?
11) Would you kiss me?
12) Would you make love to me?
13) Would you marry me?
14) Emotionally, what stands out?
15) Do you wish I was cooler?
16) On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?
17) Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
18) Am I loveable?
19) How long have you known me?
20) Describe me in one word.
21) What was your first impression of me?
22) Do you still think that way about me now?
23) What do you think my weakness is?
24) Do you think I'll get married?
25) What about me makes you happy?
26) What about me makes you sad?
27) What reminds you of me?
28) What's something you would change about me?
29) How well do you know me?
30) Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't? And if so, what was it?
31) Do you think I would kill someone?
32) Are we close?
33) Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?

okay, i'm pissed cuz i'm stuck at my moms friends place again and i'm talking 2 [Knobert] on the fone at the same time as i am on the computer and i'm pissed off because i'm stuck in this hell hole. and [Knobert] keeps saying that i'm not ugly but i think that i am because i am so ha! hahahahaha, like i would ever get a date!!!

xoxo,

luv alwayz,

velvet

Well i broke up with my bf today. but i need to be single for a while thats all. i have so much going on that i couldnt keep up really...i feel kinda bad though...

velvet

10 questions. This can be quite intresting.
Pick a band and answer only using that band's song titles (its harder than you think)...
Chosen Band: The Beatles
1. Are you male or female?: She's a Woman
2. Describe yourself: Blackbird
3. How do some people feel about you?: the fool on the hill
4. How do you feel about yourself?: Love me Do
5. Describe your family?: Day Tripper
6. Where would you rather be?: Penny Lane
7. Describe what you want to be: Lucy in the sky with dimonds
8. Describe how you live: Ob-la-di, ob-la-da
9. Describe how you love: Hello, Goodbye
10.Describe what you hate: While my guitar gently weeps

i feel like SHIT. like, u know, S-H-I-T. i'm going to go and just throw up until i'm blue god!!!!

xoxo

love alwayz,

velvet

I'm am so seriously pissed off. i'm at the library right now and i just realized that if i dont stop dumping every guy that i go out with after three months, then when i'm older, i'll die alone, unwanted, and unloved and how bridget jones puts it, "found, half eaten by dogs three weeks later". god i seriously need to get serious about boys cuz they arent all actually that bad now that i think about it....i guess..

God i'm so freaking pissed. This girl is all like, "Velvet, ur my bestfriend" and the next thing u know she says all this crap about me behind my back. i mean, she said that i was a lesbian and that i tried to rape her when i went to her house and spent the night (NOT true, i'm totally straight) and then she said that some other girl was a lesbian and that i dont like her because she isnt a lesbian. well actually none of it is true and thats the part that really pisses me off. and the fact that shes acting like nothing happened. she acts like i'm her bestfriend. actually she doesnt even know that i know because the person that she told goes to a different school so she doesnt even think that she knows me but i do i've known that girl for two years. god i'm so pissed. nothing can help me. no one can help me. only my bestest friend inky can help me and he's far away....i wish that i could talk 2 him rite now but he goes to a totally different school. at least i have his bracelet with me rite now so that i can remember him. its the one livestrong that says music=life lolz so hott


xoxo

luv alwayz,

velvet