Okay so Eric and I had a "conversation" last night but we were interrupted and I was blackmailed by my sister! Stupid bloody cow! Anyhoo, I sent him an email and I said, "What would you to do me if I was there and you found me nude in your bed?" and he replied, "one: why would u be? And two: what the fuck do u think, i'd tie u up and use u for sex whenever i felt like it, i'd fuck u 20 times a day"

I asked Brandon to marry me. He said no. I cried, Eric cared for me. Told me to try to get a grip on myself and to go get my stuff and go home. He also said he'd give me a backrub tomorrow to try to make me feel better. But THAT's IT! I believe him when he says That's it. Because I agree. I mean a kiss wouldn't hurt, but from what's happened in the past I see where he's coming from, escpecially since we're trying to quit doing that.

I HAD SEX YESTERDAY! Damn was it good! We started out with an argument. He said something really bad to me, I cried, he said he was sorry for being an asshole, he held me while I calmed down and apologized over and over again. He said it was okay, then when we were walking over to our friend Shamera, teehee, she said, "Aww a romantic moment with an anoying beeping sound in the background!" lol... I love her. Anyways, so when she left we walked down to the scenery shop and back and he slapped my ass. Then he looked around the corner and I put my cd down with my stuff and then I followed him and he went backstage for some reason and I for some reason followed him. Then he opened the door to the boys dressing room and asked me if I wanted to come in with him. I'll write the rest later tonight, right now I wanna go pass the fuck out.