Well, at least that's over with. I did my practical exam as Anesthetist this morning... I dont think it went very well.
I passed (I hope) and we got further than any group has gotten so far, but I messed up on a lot of things. Luckily I caught the one that would have made me fail, just like that. I did something wrong with my drug calculations and drew up double the dose needed of our induction agent. Thank gods I did the surgery log as well as the tattoo log, because if I hadn't been comparing my amounts to those used for the cat for the group before us, I would never have caught. The AceHydro was just like, 0.1ml different from the previous cat, but the propofol was almost 4ml to their 2ml. Shauna or Dr Reid would have stopped me before I gave it, but yeah, I could totally have OD'd our cat. Then, I had total sterility issues (which is a really big deal for surgery, if that wasn't obvious). I forgot to take off my lab coat and put on my cap and mask before I scrubbed the incision site, -and- I even moved the patient into surgery without realizing my error. *head in hands* Then I proceeded to contaminate the drape by leaning over it several times as I was doing my anesthetic monitoring, and I -also- forgot to tie the patient down. *sigh*
I dont know what else I forgot, but I'm sure there were a few things. So I'm pretty much brain dead from stress at this point and am skipping all my afternoon classes and going to sit in the computer commons and make up microbiology study notes instead, because that requires no brain power. Thank goodness surgical assistant next week will be a million times easier and less stressful than today was.
Tomorrow is my practical exam for small animal clinics in the position of Anesthetist. I wasn't nervous till today, now I am. Today's first group never even got their patient into surgery. The second group did, but didnt manage to finish. It shouldn't really be that much different than a normal day in clinics, really.... Right? Except that the staff will be acting like they know nothing, and it's all going to be on me and Ann till we get into surgery and Dr.Reid starts doing the surgery. We're determined to get completely finished and at least be waking our patient up before our time limit expires. We have an hour and 45 minutes. It sounds like a lot, but time just seems to slip away.. Well, keep your fingers crossed for me. Ann and I tent to work really well together, so I'm not super crazy worried, but still, I'm nervous. I hate that feeling, I'm -never- nervous about tests.. or hardly ever at least.. And we got home way later than I expected to today, so I didnt eat for too long a stretch and my stomach was killing me the whole way home. It's going to be fucked up for the rest of the week now. I really should study for the pharm quiz but with that, plus staying up later than I should last night and getting woken up early this morning.. I dont know if I have enough brain power at this point in my day to study drugs. One quiz isnt going to kill me, at this point. Gah.. Need school to be done for the semester. Could go for some cuddles too..
I bought my Mom a digital camera for Christmas today, and I'm almost tempted to keep it for my self *chuckles* It seems like a good little camera. I was playing around with it, getting the initial date and what not set-up done so she didn't have to (and figuring out how things worked enough that when she asks for help, I can give it!) I hope she likes it... She's going to be super mad at me though *grins* I really should not have spent so much on her, considering I have no income currently, but I know she's going to be thrilled, so it's worth it, completely. *nods* Now I can't wait till Christmas to see the expression on her face when she opens it! Hopefully she will have gotten some money from her parents for Christmas though, because I couldn't afford to get her rechargeable batteries or a decent memory card either..
I had a dream, last night, that I was baking cookies with my Dad (which I will actually be doing today, but not with Dad) There were at least a half dozen eggs already cracked into the bowl, and the last one I cracked was rotten, and I had to throw it all away and start over.. Odd things, dreams.. The bowl was much to small to be making a recipe that required that many eggs any how..
It's -so- the coffee... Damn it all..
All right, I am officially ridiculous. I'm always a bit absent minded, that's normal. For example, I have forgotten to take my stethoscope out of my large animal kit before I give it to Ash the last 4 weeks running, and today was no exception. However, today I one upped my self. I also, it would seem, managed to forget the plastic bag with the dirty clothes I changed out of, at the dairy barn. I have my coveralls and my boots (which are really more essential) but yeah, no clothes. So I'm -really- hoping that the bag will still be there on Monday when Dr.Blair and Erin are back at the barn, because if they're not.. I'm out a favorite pair of pants. Granted they have a huge hole in one knee and a hole developing in the other, but they're old and comfortable! *sigh*
But then again, this is the girl who, when running through a mental checklist on her way out the door one day -actually checked- to make sure she had her head, and promptly burst out laughing. (yes, I actually reached up and touched my head to make sure it was there) Only me, I swear...
I'm actually starting to think that my trouble sleeping is due to a sensitivity to caffeine, from not having it for so long. Because it seems the nights I have trouble sleeping are the ones I had coffee in the morning.. Twice more and I'll be sure. I may have to give up coffee, again... *sigh*
Today, instead of paying attention in Practice Management (a most useless class, I might add) I put together a study schedule for every day between now and then end of Finals. If I follow it, I will be completely prepared to write my finals and should do very well on each of them. Now, all that remains to be seen is whether I am disciplined enough to actually -stick- to the schedule I've made...
Oooh, yucky! The High for monday is -14. Ug. I'd like to be somewhere warm now please... Cold without snow is just garbage.
Well I have to say that was the most pleasantly relaxing and stress free day I have had in some time. The most ambitious thing I did all day was pick up a few groceries, and that was mainly because I was at the grocery store -anyhow- because that's where the postal outlet is and there was a package from my mom waiting for me. Other than that I laid in bed, read a really good book, played around with recording music and compressing it so I could put it on my MP3 player, and watched a really enjoyable romantic comedy called "The Holiday" that was wonderful in that it made me laugh lots, and not cry once. *nods* And now.. I think I'll read some more, because I'm not quite ready to go to sleep. *waves and wanders off*
So, today's excitement... The school was on fire this morning when I got there. It was highly entertaining, actually. *giggles* 5 fire trucks and an ambulance (to the best of my knowledge, no one was even slightly injured)
From what I've heard, someone in one of the denturist labs in F wing poured a reactive chemical down the drain, when it was definitely -not- supposed to go there.. This resulted in copious amounts of smoke and some nasty fumes that had E and F wings evacuated and shut down for the better part of the day, with all classes in those wings canceled (why couldn't -I- have class in those wings, I ask you?!)
Everything was opened up again by the end of the day, I'm not sure how much damage there was to the lab the fire occurred in, but the only evidence lingering in the halls was a foul smell and sooty footprints leading out of that room.
Heh, I always knew that some day, my school would be on fire...
Bah! That's done then. I think I passed... the test was easier than I expected it to be, but that in it self has me worried... Oh well, it's done and it's done. Now we wait and see.
I'm taking a night off (with the unfortunate exception of a micro worksheet due tomorrow...) but compared to my week, it's an easy night. Been up since 4, and I'm bloody tired.
I think Pharmacology is going to be the course with the potential to break this year for me. I simply can not imagine anything that could be harder for me than this stupid (but yes, completely necessary) class.
For whatever reason, it seems, lately, that if I have a really bad, migraine level headache, the pain killers wont take effect unless I go to sleep for a while. As a result, I slept through Micro-biology today.. A most annoying development.
Today was a good day. This morning -totally- made up for the crappiness that was the beginning of the week. Why? Because I got to ride Erin's horse today *nods, grinning* Not for long, just a couple of turns around the parking lot, but it was bareback and we trotted and it was fun. I haven't ridden in -way- too long. I was giggling madly while we were trotting. Some times the little things are all you need.
Feeling really blah this week for some reason. Maybe it's that it's midterms, which always = less sleep and more stress, maybe it's other things, maybe a combination of both. All I know is that I sure would like to get back to the way I've been for most of the previous weeks, which was pretty damn happy. I've pretty much given up on this week, but next week will be better, right?
It's been one of those sleep dep days, it has. This morning in Radiology, I was giggling and pushing buttons until Ann told me to go sit down and not touch anything...
Damn but I hate not being able to sleep. It happens so rarely.. I honestly cant remember the last time I had this much trouble falling asleep when I wasn't sick. I actually think that the last time this happened was the last time I had the flu real bad, which was, literally, -years- ago. I had such a high fever that anything against my skin was terrible, and laying down was not even an option. How I wished I could float... I was so tired... Except, tonight, I have no idea why I cant sleep. All I know is, I have to go to school tomorrow, so I really -need- to be able to sleep. And there's not even any one on line to talk to.. *sigh*
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This song makes me smile every time I hear it..
I am suffused by an unusual sense of well being and peace right now.
It's not very conducive to studying though...