I guess I will try again in this diary . I have been so down lately and have not wanted to bring others down.

I have been assessing my life and have not liked what I see ~

It used to be that I was dedicated to living a good life , free of unlawful activites . I have now become a drug addict ~ It started in '97 for me , back then I had gone to the Drs many times to try to find out why I felt awful pain all over my body , as well as many other strange complaints . I  was then intraduced to oxycontin . Back then , I used it right , just swallowed them ; and though this was not my prescription it was a life save for me !

I started looking for my own Dr , and couldn't find one that knew about fibromyalggia ~ also around this time I cought a good sized man falling as we transfered him from wheel chair to van seat ~ I ended up catching him in mid air , and thus a back injury , that is making it hard every day !

I have waited the last three years for social security disability , and man your fucking pride goes down the toilet ! I now have it and with that I feel happy to have an income , and worthless at the same time .

I guess I will try again in this diary . I have been so down lately and have not wanted to bring others down.

I have been assessing my life and have not liked what I see ~

It used to be that I was dedicated to living a good life , free of unlawful activites . I have now become a drug addict ~ It started in '97 for me , back then I had gone to the Drs many times to try to find out why I felt awful pain all over my body , as well as many other strange complaints . I  was then intraduced to oxycontin . Back then , I used it right , just swallowed them ; and though this was not my prescription it was a life save for me !

I started looking for my own Dr , and couldn't find one that knew about fibromyalggia ~ also around this time I cought a good sized man falling as we transfered him from wheel chair to van seat ~ I ended up catching him in mid air , and thus a back injury , that is making me so sad every day now . {more later}