[Fixien]'s diary
My mermaid
My princes: Gabriël
My mermaid-thing with very muchos hair!!
This one is hanging in my room, drawn it on a late night...
Me=you, you=me
My life is yours, yours is mine
So when I die, you'll die
When you die, I'll die
When I cry, you'll cry
When you leave, I'll leave
When I scream, you'll scream
But what happens
When we both survive?
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Magical hand
A pen in my hand
Like bottled magic
It keep writing
For ever and ever on
Like a wand
A beautiful magic
I'll keep writing
For ever and ever on
Everyone is quiet
Everyone is staring
They keep looking at me
Why can't they look away?
Why do they keep staring?
Why do they not speak?
I look around
And I see that
Everyone is gone
The wind
Leaving my shit behind
Flying like an eagle
Floating with the wind
In my own little place
I won a battle
I lost a race
The clocks ticks
My time comes....
Thrashing other lifes
Which is your doom
Is my faith
I just have to bleed
And wait
Seeing my life go by
In a flash
I remember
It's not my life I trash
My life ends here
Although yours may not
My end is very clear
Yours are strangled in one big knot
I'll leave this world
before or at my time
Leaving you live here
Thrashing yours, not mine
Even when I remember
Who love me
Who need me
I'll just let myself free
Unlocking my soul
In a neverending space
Just letting me floot around
Never saying the phrase
"I miss you all so much"
I won't say it
I won't miss you at all
Not even just a little bit
Never sleep Never die
It's easy to say
When you don't have to try
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When you took an easy way
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Never speak Never walk
Don't do a thing
Don't you dare to talk
~
Think about nothing
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Never drink Never eat
Don't let yourself die
Before we meet
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Don't you even try
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Never stand Never go
Don't leave yourself
Don't let your blood flow
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Don't go yourself
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Never laugh Never smile
Just wait
It could take a while
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Opening my gate
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Never hate Never love
There's someone
Who will deserve your love
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I still hope I'll be that one
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Regen
Tranen op mijn wang
Onweer
Tranen in mijn huis
Winter
Kou in mijn kamer
Zomer
Kou in mijn huis
Overdag
Donker in mijn hoofd
's Nachts
Donker in mijn ziel
Ijs
Overal en nergens
Water
Overal om mij heen
Leven
In mijn lichaam
Dood
In mijn ziel
I'm being busy with this really big project, you can call it but it isn't like that...
It's taking all my time, and i don't even like doing it!!! I hate it....:SNot so good of me...:S
I thought by myself...Let's write in this again...It's been that long! Last year in march I wrote it...I jus finished my biolgie test....It was a to do thing...With unions and potatoes...Rea
We still got 3 tests to do but then Friday we have a party at school, for carneval! Jeej! It has got to be funny! And then 4 days of party....Looki
Let's see what can I write more...
Oh yeah! I'm trying to upload some pics on elfwood...It doen't go that quick...it takes for ever! 2 weeks almost....Well
I go and check how many tickets there are still before me...
HI! I'm on school...And I'm bored! Me and my friend are sitting next to eachother and chatting trough ET and Email...:P
Today was my first day after the break....it was so much fun...NOT! My life is at the moment a bit negatie...My grades aren't that good(they suck!)...my parents are angry with me because i don't study enough...my boyfriend lives too far away(an hour:-P)...we got lot of tests coming up...more things that i can't think of right now...
I'd better shold go started with studying...i'm going to make music today! YAY! the only thing that is good!
I got my last christmas present today! A very nice(:P) shirt from nightwish...i wanted that shirt s much that i said it wouldn't matter if it came too late for christmas...I wanted this shirt for a long time!
My grandad which died in February has is birthday tomorrow...i dont know if i like that, hanging around with whole my family(including my aunt and her daughter from germany...bleg
Further there isnt something new happening...ec
i had a really bad day yesterday...i didnt even want to go to my guitarlesson! but it was just a to bad day!
we had the 3 last hours just teribble lessons: German, Ecenomic and History! we were all very sleepy at the end of teh day! and than i than by the time I had to go to my lesson it started to rain! how dare they?!?!?! i was just pissed at everything!
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that was today! and yesterday! :D;D
i'm on school now for about 4 or 5 days, and i been having great fun with my friends! that's the only thing i like about school...seein
I'm going to swim today, with my little sister(YAY!). i'm going with her cos nobody else wants to go with me, ME HAs No Friends!!! I'm desperated!
Aw...well, we're going on vacation in a few days...:D, that's fantastic, isn't it???
i went back to the camoing for 3 whole days...it was nice..just a bit relaxing and looking around ;)...i had great fun, and i have a new band with a swing(i looked it up on the internet, but i think it's the worng word)...i was sitting al my spair time there and just thinking of how life would be if i live in middle-earth or something, and all kind of weird things! ;)
tomorrow [Tiwele] is leaving...tomo
goodnight, goodbye, goodmorning