those that know my life are no where near in times of need. this i hope can change soon. but if in time it does not i will have regrets the rest of my mortal life, or that of those arround me. the pain that i feel is only compared to the crushing ideas of an old beat up, destroyed car sent into a compactor that is slowly breaking all the support and the internal becoming smaller and less emotion can be held, time still passes and the sapce still continues to shrink until there is no more, and the heart beckmes black with hate and unable to give emotion... that is how my life feels after what has happened to me.
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the wandering souls of this dimention leave us blind and confused, stalkers of the night keep away from the light. darkness is your friend, let it guide you to your true destony. The darkness hides the mysteries of life from us and if we look hard enough it will reveal them to us...

i feel that today will bring about grief and terror, like every second sunday does until 8:00pm. i need to get out of here sooner to pick up my prize from Channel 93.3 and i also need to run by HT to pick up a new set of ear rings to get them back to size, while i'm at the mall see if i can find any of my friends...

this day has been manual labor 9-5. once that "joy" was done i searced for a friend but they weren't there. the rest of the "day" was spent on nothing. now that the sun is down i thrive like none other.