Hm. So. All this mess is obviously my fault. And I really don't know how to fix it. Saying I'm sorry wouldn't really be the truth because I still hurt very much. -sighs.- GOD! ... -bashes head against keyboard, then rests it there.- Alex...forgive me... -sobs.-
Don't know what to say. I really just don't know. ... What went wrong, Alex? Why do you want me to hate you so? Why? -sighs.- I guess this is it. This is the end. The end. The absolute end...to our friendship. ... Because you're so wrapped up in your self-loathing self and suicidal thoughts... I tried to help you. I honestly did. But in the end, it amounted up to nothing. Absolutely nothing. Except more self-loathing. I hope you're happy. Good bye, Alex.
Dude...this really sucks ass... Hiei's leaving Elftown...agai
-sighs.-
People fucking suck. They think it's so funny and just OK to joke around about drugs and shit when it's a serious matter. How the hell... GOD! >_< o;warihg;wairp
-secludes self.-
I don't expect any of you losers to care what is written here today. So, on a lighter, more cheerful note, I've decided to join the marching band for my school next year. I bet you my band director will be just oh-so-thrilled
So...this is my first entry...and it says my diary is sad and empty. Ironically, it will stay sad. I...don't really know how to describe my feelings at the moment. I feel very alone. I haven't talked to my boyfriend in what seems like two weeks due to him having insomnia. -sighs.- I know this probably means nothing to anyone who happens to read this...and if it does, please pay no bother. I am merely just trying to comfort myself some. I am tired of feeling like I'm about to break down and cry... Sadly speaking, I have sometimes thought of breaking up with my beloved Matto-sama, but I could never do that, for I love him too much, and I've tried so hard to get him as my own. He's the best thing that's ever happened to me... I...I can't... I...will wait... -curls up into a ball, mumbling to herself.-