[♥Tc VanDeVal Tc♥]'s diary
there once was a boy who sat above the sea. always every day he look apon it every night to see the darkness that it hold, every morring to watch the colors of the rainbow flow though the waves....see every dimond that cant be held.
if I was to have one...tatoo
FROM [RaineDagyr] PAGE:
Pick the MONTH that you were born in. Your friends might understand you better...
JANUARY:
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive . Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very Stubborn and money cautious.
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FEBRUARY:
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness
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MARCH:
Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate, shy, and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling.Love
S'me.
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APRIL:
Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.
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MAY:
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.
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JUNE:
Easy to talk to. Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone* always on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. one guy/girl kind of person. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. loves music. pretty/handsom
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JULY:
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.
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AUGUST:
Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egotistic. Takes high pride of oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.
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SEPTEMBER:
Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal and always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Positive Attitude. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves sports, leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic. Sexy but has brains.
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OCTOBER:
Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly.Br
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NOVEMBER:
Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciates praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Highly Sexual. Uncertain in relationships. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable. Extremely smart.
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DECEMBER:
Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egoistic. Take high pride in oneself
Written about Friday 2005-06-03
Written: (7112 days ago)
My Angel Love
Oh heaven above
Thank you for sending my love
He is an angel of my affection
Sent to Earth for my protection
Angel of mercy, angel of hope
Sent to help me to cope
I love my angel, I love my man
I love him dearly with all that I am
Oh heaven far above
Thank you for sending my one true love.
by
[shnikies]
THE SEVEN DEADLY SINS
ANGER
1. Who did you last get angry with? my brother
2. What is your weapon of choice? pen,knife,swor
3. Would you hit a member of the opposite sex? woudnt want too...if i had no choise maybe....
4. How about of the same sex? ok,,,point him out.
5. Who was the last person who got really angry at you? lets see...well there was this girl who wanted to kil me with a knife for no reason...this guy just because he heard a lie about me.....
6. What is your pet peeve? poeple who hurt people just to hurt them....
7. Do you keep grudges, or can you let them go easily? I forgive but dont forget....
SLOTH
1. What is one thing you're supposed to do daily that you haven't done in a long time? house work
2. What is the latest you've ever woken up? in a day 12am in a week it was firday to monday sleep.
3. Name a person you've been meaning to contact, but haven't? if want them I find them.
4. What is the last lame excuse you made? not now.
5. Have you ever watched an infomercial all the way through? once ladder one....
6. How many times did you hit the snooze button on your alarm clock today? I dont I got someone else to do it for me...
GLUTTONY
1. What is your overpriced yuppie beverage of choice? dont have one....
2. Meat eaters: white meat or red meat? red meat on white meat. with cheese
3. What is the greatest amount of alcohol you've had in one sitting/outing
4. Have you ever used a professional diet company? no
5. Do you have an issue with your weight? Nope.
6. Do you prefer sweets, salty foods, or spicy foods? all of the above some time all at once.
7. Have you ever looked at a small housepet or child and thought food!? yes
LUST
1. How many people have you seen naked (not counting movies/family)? 9
2. How many people have seen YOU naked (not counting physicians/fam
3. Have you ever caught yourself staring at the chest/crotch of a member of your gender of choice during a normal conversation? yea one too many times
4. Have you "done it"? yes
5. What is your favorite body part on a person of your gender of choice? skin....
6. Have you ever been propositioned by a prostitute? yes then she offered for free she also lived at my house...
7. Have you ever had to get tested for an STD or pregnancy?no!
GREED
1. How many credit cards do you own? 0
2. What's your guilty pleasure store? ???
3. If you had $1 million, what would you do with it? santity
4. Would you rather be rich, or famous? rich, I dont like atention
5. Would you accept a boring job if it meant you would make megabucks? yea, I can make anything fun if I try...
6. Have you ever stolen anything? yes food...
7. How many MP3s are on your hard drive?....nope
PRIDE
1. What one thing have you done that you're most proud of? of every thing I do that can never be done agian...
2. What one thing have you done that your parents are most proud of? acrobatixs
3. What thing would you like to accomplish in your life? to make my car or the bike...long story...
4. Do you get annoyed by coming in second place? no I dont try for place just i know if I want it I will get it...
5. Have you ever entered a contest of skill, knowing you were of much higher skill than all the other competitors? yes too offten....then I dont try...
6. Have you ever cheated on something to get a higher score? no.
7. What did you do today that you're proud of? woke up.
ENVY
1. What item (or person) of your friends would you most want to have for your own? land...lots of it.
2. Who would you want to go on "Trading Spaces" with? noone,
3. If you could be anyone else in the world, who would you be? my self years ago...
4. Have you ever been cheated on? yeap...
5. Have you ever wished you had a physical feature different from your own? my back it kills me...
6. What inborn trait do you see in others that you wish you had for yourself? mindlessness..
7. Do you wish you'd come up with this survey? no!
8. Finally, what is your favorite deadly sin? Lust-pride
got this from some one forgot who.
well life is iife...I got sick...sinies.
BORN FEB, 21, AEXANDER ROBERTO JENSEN,
7BLS 1 ONCE, 19 1/2 INCHES LG , , DARK BROWN HAIR
HIS EYES STARTED AS BLUE - DEEP BRITE BLUE. IN THE AST WEEK THEY CHANGED FROM BULE,GREEN, YELLOW TINT, SOME TIME ALL THOSE IN RINGS AROUND THE CENTER. HE ALWAYS OOKING AROUND HIM, STAIRS IN TO YOUR EYE WITH GREAT WONDER, HE IS PEACFU MOST OF THE TIME, LIKES TO SLEEP ON MY CHEST. DOSENT FUSS UNLESS HE WANTS SOME THING, OTHER WISE HE IS QUITE lOOKING AROUND.
i'M HAPPY i THINK I NEED HIM MORE THEN HE NEED ME...i DONT FEEL AS i DONT HAVE PERPOUSE...I dont get sleep still but thats a part of being a father. I hope the best for him... i wish to teach him al I know...and even more about him self. he will teach me more about my self
some pople have there time...your last dairy made alot of since...even I need a break from all the things around me... to think about what I want as you might be about your self...you will find your self sooner or later...as much as I know you and maybe not much, but I do know your heart is more pure then your mind, but you dont have to listen to this...life is not the best but we can make what we want out of it...if we try. your heart feels what is right in your world for each one is diffrent and no two pople live in the same reatily.
My life changes agian, i'm to be a father, it is a boy due feb, 19. I dont know how to fee about it, I know i'm not ready yet...I'm good with kids, but have many demons in me... i never want him to see, or feel....I'm happy as well, I have some one that cares about me very much...as i care for her...but stil things bother me...nothing i guse. I work so much I'm at work right now... the two last times I've been here was during my lunch... I help with the bills my mom has, as well as taking care of my own...I come home tierd...some times I walk in and fall on the couch asleep. I dont want to be that way when he is born, I want to be there for him at anytime, I worrry that I'm not going to be abe to hep him as much as I want...as we as how to tkae care of him...I dont know how, loop I'm not ready...I'm been in thouseneds of homes and stayed with many many f\diffrent famlies. over the years I seen many wasy a famiy works and dont...but that dose not mean thats how mine wil turn out...... I wont know how it wil work... al the lives I've studied, people I've meet and heard there stories.. wil only hep not anwser....
well take care for now I have to go back to work...
Written about Thursday 2004-11-04
Written: (7324 days ago)
your never alone as long as their are people that you care about...for they never forget you...as you never forget them...forever in your mind, never out of reach, always in your heart...
take care
Yours Truly,
michael VanDeVal
life is good...I have a job not a good one but one none the less...mi amor(erica) is liveing with me now for about a month...she makes me very happy...I think I make her just as happy...we talk offten...I haven't been able to take her to many places yet...but I will as so as I can. she has meet most of my friends...some are happy for me others dont think she is good for me...but those who say that are mostly girls any way....I dont care what thay think I'm happy...and as long as she's happy I will stay happy.
well thats all for now...
today's your b-day so I must give you a gift....*knock
hope you like chocolate.....
take care
VanDeVal
for DragonflyRaver b-day
you always have someone by you, even if you dont see them infront of you, there is someone there, hoping for you to have a good day, that your life will start to relax, for you to have time to lay back an rest, for the people you care about to be around you. an the poeple who care about you think this way...
"enjoy you day for time is endless and love will be forever"
Tc
VanDeVal
to kinky shy submissive vampire
I have talk too 72 people here...
me in a nut shell
...A gentelmen...A hopeless romantic...A person who will help anyone who needs it. self-sacerfice to bring happyness to others...A demon...A dark soul with nothing to lose, but harmless.
"...enjoy life..time is forever...love is endless
enjoy life...time is endless...hear
enjoy you day for time is endless and love will be forever
Dreams will come true for somebody in the land.
Somebody dreaming,
Dreaming all day.
Somebody dreams about the night
but dreaming all though out the day.
She dreams about a land so far away,
for someone to take her away.
She lies in bed;
resting so peacefully.
Her mind starts to wander,
her eyes begins to close.
She dreams of someone.
Someone so close,
let someone so far.
She dreams; she dreams of him
He will come,
to take her to this land.
Holding her in his arms.
She's never letting go,
saying such sweet things.
They travel all night
to the morning light.
Lying in bed, she dreams about this night
This night never starts,
this night never ends.
He has come this night.
As day begins to break
She begins to wake
Afraid to open her eyes
Her love will be gone,
For Her love is done.
Her thoughts too her dreams.
She still feels his arms around her.
Laying peacefully, she feels a warmth.
She looks to her side to her love laying there,
Still dreaming of her.
A message that talks of a dark angel
An angel once was light that has turned dark.
For her heart has been broken.
Her love is lost….
She weeps thought out the night
She tries to sleep,
But all you hear is her cry.
She cries so quietly in the dark.
Still Her cries can be heard across the land.
In their hearts they feel her screams.
So strong so much pain.
She travels the land
Looking for what has been lost,
She looks all day and all night.
She lost her hope
she lost her love
upon her door she sees a sight.
A rose with a note on her door.
To my dear,
I felt your pain.
I hear your cry
You pass my home as I look to the sky. I'm waiting up to see your face. Hoping you see mine.
I look at you ever so sad. I wish to take all this madness away.
She gathers her strength summons her courage. She travels fast, moving like light. Her heart sees hope to find a friend. And all she has. Was to look down.
O Dark side of the moon what do you see?
never looking to the light.
cold to the touch, but never traveled.
who may see your mountans of time.
our protector from the heaven's rain,
the pusher of oceans...what do you see?
what secrets do U hold?