[♥Tc VanDeVal Tc♥]'s diary
Written about Tuesday 2006-06-20
Written: (6730 days ago)
the glow of this moon makes me shine.
once a Question was asked,
that you could not answer.
It layed in my heart,
until the pen met this paper.
that looks to you,
wishing of me.
She should know,
she's looking at me,
as I look too her.
We meet in the night,
Together we lay under the moon,
hoping for dreams to come true.
looking at your face
as she would too mine.
I'm still here looking at you,
as you look to me.
may you watch over us
for where both under the moon.
YOU CAN ASK ME SIX QUESTIONS::
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No matter how random, revealing, rude, or pointless
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I promise to answer them 100% truthfully
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All questions are COMPLETELY confidential - send to my inbox
got from some one eles
nothing i can give to mend a heart, nothing i can do do to give life too you, all i can leave is some tissue, to wipe your eyes and say bless you. can not stop your mouth from speaking, i can't stop your ears from listening, i can leave you this mirror for you too see the truth, but then i cant whisper in your ear the answer you so whis to hear, for love can never be found, it can only be given, all i can give is a rose too you , for i am just a Random Member passing though.
TO:
[bubblemae] Diary:
days keep on going my heart keeps on dying.my eyes keep on crying.my mouth keeps on lying to myself.my ears keep on wanting another answer.why?why
Ancient Moon, O ageless traveler,
sailing on the sea of stars
winters cold and winter darkness
warps us in these frozen hours,
bring the sun to warm us with it's power
Turn your shining force to ours.
thanks Lady Nymp...
When love is lost
My heart is bleeding blood.
My mind is dying.
My body is getting colder then the ocean.
My soul is melting in the fires of hell.
My love is gone with the wind.
My hair is now silver as snow.
My eyes are blind to what I see.
My skin as pale as one’s sail.
My life is gone, forever is my soul.
My brain has been sealed into an icy peak.
My love has cease and can never live again.
When heart is found
My heart is beating.
My mind is driving.
My body is wormed by the fire inside.
My soul is hardened from the love of another.
My love is returned with the ocean tide.
My hair is turns gold with arrow’s flight .
My eyes now have sight.
My skin as glowing, even at night.
My life ago is no more, fore now I am whole.
My brain has been free into the sky.
My love is now, never too leave again.
edited from [Nikos Kitten] diary.
(the world is a beatiful place, when your asleep!!)
Dream of a dream, sleep to night, see this sight.
Of a field so green by a pond full of trees, see this house,
small littel home, yard full of flowers from the world, of every color and size, the door of the garage blue and white.
You kncok and it opens. You look opon, to find the room full of oddest things. The floor made of many diffrent tiles. Five chairs that dont seem to match any thing. A bule with a tall back but deep seat, a green with a short back but soft cushion, and a bright orange one with a tall back and high seat, aranged around a metel table. Another green chair faceing the wall with fire in front of it. the ceiling has many light placed above each area. "welcome to my palce of rest... You may come here anytime form any where... Stay as long as you want for time stands still here... Be an hour or a day the time never moves... Sleep if you wish an wake when you want. You may sit where you want, you wil find one too like" You look at largest bed you ever seen. Looks like a giant pollow, "Well it is a giant pillow, feather pillow, many of them to be more actuate" above the head board a pic of death on it's hourse. "Better to remind me he can wait as long as I" you go to the bed and jump on to it...feels like clouds under you, holding you up as you sink in too it. you lay there longer to realize you dont want to move.
"I shall let you sleep to dream this dream" *the white shop light gose off, the black lights around the room turn on. the whole room has many drawings that glow, the door shuts to see the bright florescent spray paint mural on it. The ceiling has mountain flowing across it.
the Garage as it was, a place one and all.
Tc VanDeVal
To: [Tarina]
my grams rules of the house.
that while in our homes they wont engage in activities "we dont approve of-such as drugging, drinking, or bringing in sexual partners to excess." ...key word excess, define: amount that can not be handled.
that "job-hunting" is their primary responsiblilit
that they will share the household chores and take proper care of their personal space and belongings.
that they will afford us "a fair amount of privacy- and we will grant them the same."
that they will "extend common courtesies," ei.."I wont be home for dinner tonight." (which we promise not to follow up with "So where will you be going?")
that "we will be able to discuss things that bother us- and we'll make every effort to negotiate a solution."
that they will "contribute a percentage of thier earnings to cover everyday household expenses" such as utilities, phone bills, ect...
there once was a boy who sat above the sea. always every day he look apon it every night to see the darkness that it hold, every morring to watch the colors of the rainbow flow though the waves....see every dimond that cant be held.
if I was to have one...tatoo
FROM [RaineDagyr] PAGE:
Pick the MONTH that you were born in. Your friends might understand you better...
JANUARY:
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive . Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very Stubborn and money cautious.
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FEBRUARY:
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness
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MARCH:
Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate, shy, and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling.Love
S'me.
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APRIL:
Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.
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MAY:
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.
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JUNE:
Easy to talk to. Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone* always on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. one guy/girl kind of person. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. loves music. pretty/handsom
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JULY:
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.
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AUGUST:
Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egotistic. Takes high pride of oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.
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SEPTEMBER:
Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal and always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Positive Attitude. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves sports, leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic. Sexy but has brains.
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OCTOBER:
Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly.Br
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NOVEMBER:
Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciates praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Highly Sexual. Uncertain in relationships. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable. Extremely smart.
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DECEMBER:
Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egoistic. Take high pride in oneself
Written about Friday 2005-06-03
Written: (7112 days ago)
My Angel Love
Oh heaven above
Thank you for sending my love
He is an angel of my affection
Sent to Earth for my protection
Angel of mercy, angel of hope
Sent to help me to cope
I love my angel, I love my man
I love him dearly with all that I am
Oh heaven far above
Thank you for sending my one true love.
by
[shnikies]
THE SEVEN DEADLY SINS
ANGER
1. Who did you last get angry with? my brother
2. What is your weapon of choice? pen,knife,swor
3. Would you hit a member of the opposite sex? woudnt want too...if i had no choise maybe....
4. How about of the same sex? ok,,,point him out.
5. Who was the last person who got really angry at you? lets see...well there was this girl who wanted to kil me with a knife for no reason...this guy just because he heard a lie about me.....
6. What is your pet peeve? poeple who hurt people just to hurt them....
7. Do you keep grudges, or can you let them go easily? I forgive but dont forget....
SLOTH
1. What is one thing you're supposed to do daily that you haven't done in a long time? house work
2. What is the latest you've ever woken up? in a day 12am in a week it was firday to monday sleep.
3. Name a person you've been meaning to contact, but haven't? if want them I find them.
4. What is the last lame excuse you made? not now.
5. Have you ever watched an infomercial all the way through? once ladder one....
6. How many times did you hit the snooze button on your alarm clock today? I dont I got someone else to do it for me...
GLUTTONY
1. What is your overpriced yuppie beverage of choice? dont have one....
2. Meat eaters: white meat or red meat? red meat on white meat. with cheese
3. What is the greatest amount of alcohol you've had in one sitting/outing
4. Have you ever used a professional diet company? no
5. Do you have an issue with your weight? Nope.
6. Do you prefer sweets, salty foods, or spicy foods? all of the above some time all at once.
7. Have you ever looked at a small housepet or child and thought food!? yes
LUST
1. How many people have you seen naked (not counting movies/family)? 9
2. How many people have seen YOU naked (not counting physicians/fam
3. Have you ever caught yourself staring at the chest/crotch of a member of your gender of choice during a normal conversation? yea one too many times
4. Have you "done it"? yes
5. What is your favorite body part on a person of your gender of choice? skin....
6. Have you ever been propositioned by a prostitute? yes then she offered for free she also lived at my house...
7. Have you ever had to get tested for an STD or pregnancy?no!
GREED
1. How many credit cards do you own? 0
2. What's your guilty pleasure store? ???
3. If you had $1 million, what would you do with it? santity
4. Would you rather be rich, or famous? rich, I dont like atention
5. Would you accept a boring job if it meant you would make megabucks? yea, I can make anything fun if I try...
6. Have you ever stolen anything? yes food...
7. How many MP3s are on your hard drive?....nope
PRIDE
1. What one thing have you done that you're most proud of? of every thing I do that can never be done agian...
2. What one thing have you done that your parents are most proud of? acrobatixs
3. What thing would you like to accomplish in your life? to make my car or the bike...long story...
4. Do you get annoyed by coming in second place? no I dont try for place just i know if I want it I will get it...
5. Have you ever entered a contest of skill, knowing you were of much higher skill than all the other competitors? yes too offten....then I dont try...
6. Have you ever cheated on something to get a higher score? no.
7. What did you do today that you're proud of? woke up.
ENVY
1. What item (or person) of your friends would you most want to have for your own? land...lots of it.
2. Who would you want to go on "Trading Spaces" with? noone,
3. If you could be anyone else in the world, who would you be? my self years ago...
4. Have you ever been cheated on? yeap...
5. Have you ever wished you had a physical feature different from your own? my back it kills me...
6. What inborn trait do you see in others that you wish you had for yourself? mindlessness..
7. Do you wish you'd come up with this survey? no!
8. Finally, what is your favorite deadly sin? Lust-pride
got this from some one forgot who.
well life is iife...I got sick...sinies.
BORN FEB, 21, AEXANDER ROBERTO JENSEN,
7BLS 1 ONCE, 19 1/2 INCHES LG , , DARK BROWN HAIR
HIS EYES STARTED AS BLUE - DEEP BRITE BLUE. IN THE AST WEEK THEY CHANGED FROM BULE,GREEN, YELLOW TINT, SOME TIME ALL THOSE IN RINGS AROUND THE CENTER. HE ALWAYS OOKING AROUND HIM, STAIRS IN TO YOUR EYE WITH GREAT WONDER, HE IS PEACFU MOST OF THE TIME, LIKES TO SLEEP ON MY CHEST. DOSENT FUSS UNLESS HE WANTS SOME THING, OTHER WISE HE IS QUITE lOOKING AROUND.
i'M HAPPY i THINK I NEED HIM MORE THEN HE NEED ME...i DONT FEEL AS i DONT HAVE PERPOUSE...I dont get sleep still but thats a part of being a father. I hope the best for him... i wish to teach him al I know...and even more about him self. he will teach me more about my self
some pople have there time...your last dairy made alot of since...even I need a break from all the things around me... to think about what I want as you might be about your self...you will find your self sooner or later...as much as I know you and maybe not much, but I do know your heart is more pure then your mind, but you dont have to listen to this...life is not the best but we can make what we want out of it...if we try. your heart feels what is right in your world for each one is diffrent and no two pople live in the same reatily.
My life changes agian, i'm to be a father, it is a boy due feb, 19. I dont know how to fee about it, I know i'm not ready yet...I'm good with kids, but have many demons in me... i never want him to see, or feel....I'm happy as well, I have some one that cares about me very much...as i care for her...but stil things bother me...nothing i guse. I work so much I'm at work right now... the two last times I've been here was during my lunch... I help with the bills my mom has, as well as taking care of my own...I come home tierd...some times I walk in and fall on the couch asleep. I dont want to be that way when he is born, I want to be there for him at anytime, I worrry that I'm not going to be abe to hep him as much as I want...as we as how to tkae care of him...I dont know how, loop I'm not ready...I'm been in thouseneds of homes and stayed with many many f\diffrent famlies. over the years I seen many wasy a famiy works and dont...but that dose not mean thats how mine wil turn out...... I wont know how it wil work... al the lives I've studied, people I've meet and heard there stories.. wil only hep not anwser....
well take care for now I have to go back to work...
Written about Thursday 2004-11-04
Written: (7324 days ago)
your never alone as long as their are people that you care about...for they never forget you...as you never forget them...forever in your mind, never out of reach, always in your heart...
take care
Yours Truly,
michael VanDeVal
life is good...I have a job not a good one but one none the less...mi amor(erica) is liveing with me now for about a month...she makes me very happy...I think I make her just as happy...we talk offten...I haven't been able to take her to many places yet...but I will as so as I can. she has meet most of my friends...some are happy for me others dont think she is good for me...but those who say that are mostly girls any way....I dont care what thay think I'm happy...and as long as she's happy I will stay happy.
well thats all for now...
today's your b-day so I must give you a gift....*knock
hope you like chocolate.....
take care
VanDeVal
for DragonflyRaver b-day