THINGS YOU WOULD NEED TO KNOW WHEN TALKING TO ME.


1. As much as you think my mind is in the gutter, it really is
2. I realy dont care about you ex-buy friends. you can talk about then, but mostly I will not say much about it.
3. I like to get a hug or a small kiss with out a reason
4. Don't argue with me when I say how you look.
5. The way I treat you is the way I want to be treated.
6. when I say some thing, I mean it.
7. that time of the month, dont need to more then that.
8. Please dont send Are you there? messages, talk to me or ask about me. I working wheile I am here. It take me time to get back to you.
9. If I am talking to you, log out when you have to go. that way I know.
10. I am very open minded, and like talking about any thing.
11. easy way to get me to talk is to ask me things. I'm not good at starting a conversion.
12. I dont make bets, well not for money. I tend to win too
13. when you ask me how you look? I will say what I think.
14. I dont know much about music, band name or songs.
15. I do like a lot of music, I do sing very quitly with the ones I know.
16. you don't have to apologize when you think you did something "wrong."
17. I do things randomly, even say thing randomly to pleople.
18. try to be spontaneous, it's fun that way.
19. Be care full what you ask me, I just might do it....
20. Dont try to hurt me on purpose, what goes around comes back around.
21. don't ask me 3 things; age, real name, where I live. if I wanted you to know I would tell you. I dont want to know those thing from you.
22. I do not care about what other people think about how I look.
23. If you send me a q's list, answer it with your own answers first. you can ask me any thing...
24. Dont think I am a nice person, I am very mean inside.
25. I am crazy, just ask the 3 of us.
26. I dont like excuse, what happens, happens.
27. I love food, and cooking.
28. If you talk about gay things, I am a guy, so please dont talk about guys kissing guys or things like that. it's good for them, but I just dont care to talk about it.
29. once I say never talk to me, dont.
30. One I say "I give up" when arugeing, that just means I dont want to arugee. dose not mean I will forget about it.
31. Try this if you live with a guy, you want the seat down when he is done, put the seat up when your done.

had some fun with yahoo avatras.

her presents lights up the room.
her smile can warm any heart,
her heart so warm as life moves though it.
my hand in her's
not to leave.
for I am your's,
for all of time.
even in age,
even in death.
I am your's forever more.

I smile,
when I can,
let life pass me bye,
as time slow around me,
an dreams become reality.

As You Sleep

Closed my eyes just to see.
Across the land I may be.
I go to you in the night.
Looked at you as you sleep.
All curled up, with your pillow so tight.
Laying there dreaming what could be.
I lay there next to you.
My chest to your back, breathing on your neck.
Our legs stuck together. My arms around you.
I feel a heart beat from your chest, even heat as you sleep.
There I stay till you wake. Not to move for I must sleep.




You feel my breath on your neck. feel the heat on your back.
hear you heart,from your chest.

Closed my eyes just to see.
Looked thruough yours, as you sleep.
Laying there dreaming of what could be.
All curled up, with your pillow so tight.
I go to you in the night

lust

Sweet am I, you are sweeter then one can buy.
none may have, what you may be.
All I want is a taste of thee.
Bit your lip, chew on an ear.
Lick of the neck, what can be next.
Kiss your lips, rub your chest.
Lick your breast, touch you thigh, bite your stomach.
I watch your eyes as I Kiss you every where.
Taken off your cloths, none to bare, mine as well, for I have to share.
My skin against yours, my back is here. My tongue kissing in there.
Scratch it if you dare.
Make you mark to know I was here.
I bite you every where.
To no surprise, I know what you want, you want me here, or even there.
You will even take me every where.
When I bite I leave no trace, still it lingers even now, how you taste.
I want you now; I want you here.

If I was in despair,
Would they care?
If I was no longer here,
Would they shed a single tear?
If I should fall,
Would they call?
If I was depressed,
Would they think of me as a pest?
If I was in danger,
Would they become a stranger?
If I was taunted,
Would they make me feel wanted?
If I moved elsewhere,
Would they care?

from [Crimson Angel] page

What can bring you back from this death?

This pain I feel, it is yours.
It hurts so much that my life stands still.
My heart is weeping, yours has stoped.
Life is gone, soul no more.
All I do is weep even more.

Standing there over you.
I ask my self what to do.
Hold you tight, hold you here.
Got to know, are you still there.

Healing your wounds, makeing amends.
your lips to mine giving you breath.
My hands on your chest beating your heart.
Can I keep you from falling apart.


my eyes run dry, no longer a tear.
All I have is a fear.
driffting from me
This is done, I have none.
If I fail, we will die.
Hear my cry,
Join my soul.

I took this pain.
I filled your lungs.
I feel your heart.
Now give hope to your soul.
Lets make us whole

I hear your voice
It in my head
Hold on dear, i'm almost there.
Open your eyes, now sruprized.
"You see me there"


"Wanting to bring you back here too."
"Wanting to bring back what is not here."
"will my touch make your heart beat."
"My touch move your blood"
"give you hope in your soul"
"take from you this pain"
"My love of your life"
*"Will my touch cause you to cringe away"
*"Or will it cause your body to sway"

(ADD A NEW LINE AND SEND BACK)
GETTING IDEAS

LAYER ONE:
-- Name: VanDeVal
-- Nickname: Tc
-- Birthdate:
-- Birthplace:
-- Hair color: brown
-- Height: 5'6
-- Righty or lefty: both





Layer two
-- Your heritage: 25%native american/german/duch/irish/mut.
-- The shoes you wore today: dont like shoes
-- Your weakness: lost causes
-- Your fears: none i dont like
-- Your perfect pizza: 10 lbs pizza had to eat with a spoon
-- Goal you'd like to achieve: getting over my dilexea words and shaps letter carp.





LAYER THREE
-- Your most overused phrase: "i dont know"
-- Your thoughts first waking up: *you will have to ask me this one*
-- Your best physical feature: Agility
-- Your bedtime: sleep whats that...
-- Your most missed memory: the garage


LAYER FOUR
-- Soda: none
-- Fast food joint: none
-- Single or group dates: both
-- Adidas or Nike: its shoes
-- Chocolate or vanilla: both but icecream then vanilla
-- Cappuccino or coffee: hot chocolate/cappuccino





LAYER FIVE
-- Smoke: some times
-- Sing: only tone dogs can hear.
-- Take a shower every day: yes
-- Have a crush(es):
-- Do you think you've been in love: yes it can hurt
-- Want to go to college: yes
-- Like school: sometimes
-- Want to get married: yes
-- Believe in yourself: when ever i can.
-- Get motion sickness: not yet
-- Think you're attractive: other may say so.
-- Think you're a health freak: not even close
-- Get along with your parents: some times
-- Like thunderstorms: every one of them. the best time to take a walk.
-- Play an instrument: not good...

LAYER SIX
In the past 6 months...
-- Drank alcohol: yes
-- Smoked: yes
-- Done a drug: (this includes asprin): yes, if not then no
-- Made out: yes
-- Gone on a date: yes
-- Gone to the mall: no
-- Eaten sushi: no
-- Been on stage: no
-- Gone skating: no
-- Made homemade cookies: yes
-- Gone skinny-dipping: yes
-- Dyed your hair: no
-- Stolen anything: only food.





LAYER SEVEN
Ever...
-- Played a game that required removal of clothing: yes
-- Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: yes
-- Been caught doing something: no
-- Been called a tease: yes
-- Gotten beaten up: fights no one wins.
-- Shoplifted: food
-- Changed who you were to fit in: no


LAYER EIGHT
-- Numbers and names of children: Alexander(1)
-- Describe your dream wedding: no idea
-- How you want to die: smokeing a blunt
-- Where do you want to go to college: where i can
-- What do you want to be when you grow up: me
-- What country would you most like to visit: many of them






LAYER NINE
In the preferred sex...lots of
-- Best eye color:
-- Best hair color:
-- Short or long hair:
-- Best height:
-- Best weight:
-- Best articles of clothing:
-- Best first date location:
-- Best first kiss location: any where on the body





LAYER TEN
-- Number of drugs taken illegally: 7
-- Number of people I could trust with my life: 3
-- Number of CDs that I own:
-- Number of piercings: 1
-- Number of tattoes: want just one
-- Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper: 2
--Number of scars on my body: more then I could count
-- Number of things in my past that I regret: I never regret


[A curious know-it-all] got this list from

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got from some one eles

nothing i can give to mend a heart, nothing i can do do to give life too you, all i can leave is some tissue, to wipe your eyes and say bless you. can not stop your mouth from speaking, i can't stop your ears from listening, i can leave you this mirror for you too see the truth, but then i cant whisper in your ear the answer you so whis to hear, for love can never be found, it can only be given, all i can give is a rose too you , for i am just a Random Member passing though.


TO:
[bubblemae] Diary:

days keep on going my heart keeps on dying.my eyes keep on crying.my mouth keeps on lying to myself.my ears keep on wanting another answer.why?why?i ask nothing is as it seems.im not happy im not dead what more do you want?i can't stop the feeling.i can't stop the touch of this life.i pray for help,i pray for love,can't find an escape.wish for a different life.help me!help me!

Ancient Moon, O ageless traveler,
sailing on the sea of stars
winters cold and winter darkness
warps us in these frozen hours,
bring the sun to warm us with it's power
Turn your shining force to ours.


thanks Lady Nymp...

When love is lost
My heart is bleeding blood.
My mind is dying.
My body is getting colder then the ocean.
My soul is melting in the fires of hell.
My love is gone with the wind.
My hair is now silver as snow.
My eyes are blind to what I see.
My skin as pale as one’s sail.
My life is gone, forever is my soul.
My brain has been sealed into an icy peak.
My love has cease and can never live again.

When heart is found
My heart is beating.
My mind is driving.
My body is wormed by the fire inside.
My soul is hardened from the love of another.
My love is returned with the ocean tide.
My hair is turns gold with arrow’s flight .
My eyes now have sight.
My skin as glowing, even at night.
My life ago is no more, fore now I am whole.
My brain has been free into the sky.
My love is now, never too leave again.


edited from [Nikos Kitten] diary.

(the world is a beatiful place, when your asleep!!)


Dream of a dream, sleep to night, see this sight.
Of a field so green by a pond full of trees, see this house,
small littel home, yard full of flowers from the world, of every color and size, the door of the garage blue and white.
  You kncok and it opens. You look opon, to find the room full of oddest things. The floor made of many diffrent tiles. Five chairs that dont seem to match any thing. A bule with a tall back but deep seat, a green with a short back but soft cushion, and a bright orange one with a tall back and high seat, aranged around a metel table. Another green chair faceing the wall with fire in front of it. the ceiling has many light placed above each area. "welcome to my palce of rest... You may come here anytime form any where... Stay as long as you want for time stands still here... Be an hour or a day the time never moves... Sleep if you wish an wake when you want. You may sit where you want, you wil find one too like" You look at largest bed you ever seen. Looks like a giant pollow, "Well it is a giant pillow, feather pillow, many of them to be more actuate" above the head board a pic of death on it's hourse. "Better to remind me he can wait as long as I" you go to the bed and jump on to it...feels like clouds under you, holding you up as you sink in too it. you lay there longer to realize you dont want to move.
"I shall let you sleep to dream this dream" *the white shop light gose off, the black lights around the room turn on. the whole room has many drawings that glow, the door shuts to see the bright florescent spray paint mural on it. The ceiling has mountain flowing across it.


the Garage as it was, a place one and all.



Tc VanDeVal

To: [Tarina]

my grams rules of the house.

that while in our homes they wont engage in activities "we dont approve of-such as drugging, drinking, or bringing in sexual partners to excess." ...key word excess, define: amount that can not be handled.

that "job-hunting" is their primary responsiblility, and they should relize "we wont support them if they dont take it seriously."

that they will share the household chores and take proper care of their personal space and belongings.

that they will afford us "a fair amount of privacy- and we will grant them the same."

that they will "extend common courtesies," ei.."I wont be home for dinner tonight." (which we promise not to follow up with "So where will you be going?")

that "we will be able to discuss things that bother us- and we'll make every effort to negotiate a solution."

that they will "contribute a percentage of thier earnings to cover everyday household expenses" such as utilities, phone bills, ect...

there once was a boy who sat above the sea. always every day he look apon it every night to see the darkness that it hold, every morring to watch the colors of the rainbow flow though the waves....see every dimond that cant be held.