DAMINT!!! i cant believe how stupid i am!!!> < last night i woke up at like...3:00,and decided to wright in my journal...well, if anyone woke up becides me in my house, i would never hear the end of it.so, for the first time i use my BRAND NEW lamp, i try to dim it a little by putting a bra,hat,and t-shirt on it so no one would know i was awake. after im done wrighting, i smell somthing burning. i take off the stuff, and there is a hole in my hat, burn mark on my bra, and iv never felt a t-shirt that hot before. i run into the bathroom and put them under water....i am such a baka....and that was my favorite hat too....*head/desk*

i love you shoro!!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gOyBNv6T7Ss

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qpCOcgPduyE
whoa!! a new cd already!?! iv never herd this song before...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r6f3Upe81Wo
teenagers
this is the fucking awsomest mcr video!!!>_<
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OF9UB_xrhMI
im not okay!!!

man!i feel weird today...since shoro whent bezzerk last night,(and took that giant chunk from my arm)i feel all achy!!> < im still trying to figure out this whole"other form" of his. we'll get to the bottom of this...ill find out why hes on that list, and take him off it. i lve just too darn much to give up.and chiyo, or whoever has to tell me, has to tell me what kind of list he's on!!!they all keep beaitng around the bsh, and its driving me mad!!!> < i hit shoro yesterday, cuz him and dainame got into a fight. iv never seen them act that way before. especially tawords eachother. man, i still cant get that "other form"of shoro's out of my head...he looks so...scary. iv never been terrified like that before. i just kept looking up at him. i couldnt even move. he really scared me.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gawcyODiKls
simple plan-welcome to my life
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bm4TNOCfezE
im just a kid
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BXSl4Z3zq78
addicted

wow.i owe alot to kuro today. adriana(a friend at school)moved to martinez, and i dont know when ill see her again...thanks kuro, for cheering up your little sister.she needed it alot...oh!and happy birthday shadow!!!

one more thing...this stupid friggen cough thing wont go away!!!>< its driving me nuts!!!><

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UG6Zk2XzNqg

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tnuMgj7V-Ao

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jyxxUuL34r0

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VXW1YO8jFic

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gWjAyX87Sb0

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aStJVG_LSzE

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jyxxUuL34r0

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PzJRNeLCTPI
wow...this brought back SOME memories......

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RMWgBxoeLdI
gracie showed me this one.

too much shit latley...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uwbrw9rsbdE&mode=related&search=
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ww4MSP8v3kI
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PlrpdC5iN0w&mode=related&search=

okay,3rd one today. i dont fucking get anything anymore! everyone tells me this, then they tell me that! the same person! i dont get it! this isnt fair! why cant somone just fucking get it into their thik fucking heads, that im not smart! i dont get this! im just that way and you will either deal with it, or not! i dont care. im just not even going to try to get it if you tell me one thing than another! chiyo confuses me! shoro confuses me! my fucking parents cunfuse the shit out of me! why wont you tell me what you want to say!?! just say that this is this. or that is that, and leave it there. ill take the truth! but if you try to feed me crap, no!! i wont! cuz I DONT GET THIS!!! with fucking dumbass parents! and cunfusing friends! im not willing! you know who you are! and if yuo say somthing, say it right! its not fair to me to be tossed around with! im one soul. ppl think, oh! well, i dont know them! or, who cares! well, think of it on the other side too! only get them back if they did somthing to you! and dont confuse me!!! SHIT!

i love shoro more than fucking anything. nothing can change that.

i am soooooooooooooooo confused!!! i dont know ..... awwww....><

talk to honey_ren_len tomarrwo...today....im not good. my parents got into another fight. this time, it was bad...i thought school was hell, and yet here is worse that school. dose that mean here is worse than hell? idk... but at least i know im okay and surrounded by ppl that care about me. not that no one cares here...i think... im just scarred. i cant type right now. ill leave this to the ppl that care about me. message me. please. and only if you care...

school is hell, yet home is worse... i want to go to school and never come back somtimes...