fuck
im still thinking of chiyo...i dont want to fight my best friend...but, if she really wants to kill my shoro that much, im now her worst enemy.(how many times have i said this?)

iv been listening to avenged seven fold alot...thinking of shoro and me. "we have to kill him before he destroies us all" my ass....chiyo, im glad your having a baby, but what the hell!?! i think those random pregnency mood swings are fucking with your mind. i mean really? think of how he was acting over at your house? he was soooo sweet. and to you too. would someone like that hurt someone? maybe kyogra, but not my shoro. hes way too sweet.

chiyo, im sorry. but if you still feel like hes that evil, your going to have to destroy me with him. i cant go a second time without him...that year without him was hell. absolute hell. and if you try to hurt him, ill never forgive you.
i love shoro

rae-chan...maybe she can help...well, mental wise. thats so cool i have somone other than shinju or paul thats always on...im still wondering if chiyo is serious...i need to tell her what going on...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JyM82clM0aQ
seize the day
ill die regreting the time you lost
its emty and cold without you here
to many people to wake over

okay! my horoscope just freaked the shit out of me!!@-@
Money is looking rather fabulous today, and since it’s the start of the weekend why not treat yourself, especially after such a heavy week. Start with a scented bath and follow up with a makeover. You should start feeling like a million dollars and be ready to hit the mall!
heavy week? hell yeah is was! and, its still going on too!!!

im still worried about shoro-sama. horohoro dosnt like demons, and chiyo is acitng funny. they wont kill my shoro. i love him too much.i want chiyo on so i can tell her shes wrong.my shoro is only bent on destoying kyogra. no one else.i sear. hes too gentel the rest of the time. there...is one thing that could make him that evil, enough to want to kill me, but we're woking on that. that mark thing they gave him on his back is a sutra thing, that puts a bad spirit...thing inside him. he only uses it in grave danger, but once he uses it, he dose turn on everyone. but we get him out of it. iv only seen him in it twice. yeah,chiyo, hes evil. he tried to eat me...literally! he took a big chunk out of my arm. but once he turned back, ... he wouldnt let go of me, and wouldnt stop crying. he kept telling me he loved me and he was sorry. that was almost a week ago, so hes better now. ... he just told me he loved me again. now, would somone so evil, do anything like that? tell me chiyo. would they? would they...*blush* lay with that person? out of true feelings? would they look for that person as soon as they left them? he was looking for me for god knows how long. and i love him with all my heart and soul. so, if you still want to kill my shoro, chiyo, youll have to kill me first. and id like to see you do that.

i made this for kuro-onii and micah-chan!!! i need to switch the hair though...









okay, that didnt work. chiyo will NOT take my shoro away from me. he is not a monster. i know what he did, and it wasnt his fault. that...elite thing. he took it a year before he finally found me. they tricked him.they told him they would help him find me if he did anything they wanted him to do. well, someone finally told him it was a hoax.and i believ everything he told me. OVER MY DEAD BODY will she EVER touch MY shoro-sama. i love him to no end,chiyo. and that will never change. and, did you ever think kyogra could have something to do with it? think outside the box,mace.its not fair to me or shoro. HE IS INNOCENT.

chiyo...why?

im worried about aura-chan and mushi-chan...thier both so sick...and, you know who got to chiyo and the others...im worried abouts them too. everything is swirling around me rith now....he KILLED them. hes my problem. not theirs.why is he going after all them? next time i see him, ill be the one last standing. not him. after what happened to shoro a few nights ago, i dont know whats going on anymore...my leg gave out on me again today too. i dont know if that has anything to do with anything, but...oh well. ill get him. i promis.oh!and i congradulate ****(just in case)and ******** on thier second child coming on the way!...wow, that didnt last long...

*sighs*
i am soooooo tired!!!><
i dont get very many people latley....PUDDING!!!!so that includes myself now...> <;;; im still working on the second ep of nekko hanashi, and i should put it up soon....*sleeps*b gnhvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv*snort*huh?oops...fell asleep....

DAMINT!!! i cant believe how stupid i am!!!> < last night i woke up at like...3:00,and decided to wright in my journal...well, if anyone woke up becides me in my house, i would never hear the end of it.so, for the first time i use my BRAND NEW lamp, i try to dim it a little by putting a bra,hat,and t-shirt on it so no one would know i was awake. after im done wrighting, i smell somthing burning. i take off the stuff, and there is a hole in my hat, burn mark on my bra, and iv never felt a t-shirt that hot before. i run into the bathroom and put them under water....i am such a baka....and that was my favorite hat too....*head/desk*

i love you shoro!!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gOyBNv6T7Ss

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qpCOcgPduyE
whoa!! a new cd already!?! iv never herd this song before...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r6f3Upe81Wo
teenagers
this is the fucking awsomest mcr video!!!>_<
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OF9UB_xrhMI
im not okay!!!

man!i feel weird today...since shoro whent bezzerk last night,(and took that giant chunk from my arm)i feel all achy!!> < im still trying to figure out this whole"other form" of his. we'll get to the bottom of this...ill find out why hes on that list, and take him off it. i lve just too darn much to give up.and chiyo, or whoever has to tell me, has to tell me what kind of list he's on!!!they all keep beaitng around the bsh, and its driving me mad!!!> < i hit shoro yesterday, cuz him and dainame got into a fight. iv never seen them act that way before. especially tawords eachother. man, i still cant get that "other form"of shoro's out of my head...he looks so...scary. iv never been terrified like that before. i just kept looking up at him. i couldnt even move. he really scared me.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gawcyODiKls
simple plan-welcome to my life
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bm4TNOCfezE
im just a kid
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BXSl4Z3zq78
addicted

wow.i owe alot to kuro today. adriana(a friend at school)moved to martinez, and i dont know when ill see her again...thanks kuro, for cheering up your little sister.she needed it alot...oh!and happy birthday shadow!!!

one more thing...this stupid friggen cough thing wont go away!!!>< its driving me nuts!!!><

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UG6Zk2XzNqg

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tnuMgj7V-Ao

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jyxxUuL34r0

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VXW1YO8jFic

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gWjAyX87Sb0

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aStJVG_LSzE