OK.NEW RULES. YOU WANT TO READ MY DIARY AND DONT GET IT,

KEEP IT TO YOURSELF.

damnit....i think i like him....alot.i dont wanna though.>< i promised i wouldnt fall for somone like that.*breaths*damn....i love him...(that felt....good and bad at the same time)

um...i think im in love....but i dont wanna be.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qJnuhNcRM9U
i love you all so much!^ ^and im here whenever you need me!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Df87H9hGgWQ<original.

ok...no messages to worry about now...*sighs* man...iv been getting real dizzy lately.....i wonder why?im always dizzy....but not like this.oh well.if i pass out,then ill worry about it.

i dont know where i would be if my friends werent here.shadow and kuro take such good care of me....and momo gave me that protection badge.paul is alway able to put a smile on me,and shinju-chan is always there for me.im gonna miss talking to kyo, he said hes probobly not gonna come on elftown anymore...he dosnt want anyone to miss him, but thats just who i am.

i cant believe spring break is over already...i cant talk to anyone on here for a while now...im gonna have to come on later...*cries*but...my friends are here for me...(i think...O O...) but,even if they arent, im here for them.no matter what, if anyone of them needs my help, im here for em!*punches air*

this is the kind of guy shoro wants me to find, since he knows he cant always protect me here. i want a guy like that too. just like him.

damn...shoro changed again last night...im really starting to get worried...im not getting any of this at all...maybe i will later...

yeah...thats me.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fbbLsffZv-E
another gun for hire or just another day
when you are done you just abuse it
whatever you say
if you were offered some
would you wanna bite the hand?
would you betray a friend to prove your cold and then
walk away
we were born with nothing
i dont want
but you need somthing
you want glory
i need none of it
its coming between us
people are born with
people are born without
some people have
what others want
what some go without
some people live free
some people just want more
as for me i
got all that i need
do you still think were not brave if we dont bleed?
weve seen so much blood and violece already
how much do you need?
you have and fight your war
and talk of being free
wont let you in there
just using you so why wont you see?
some people are born so much closer to the sun
holding out thier hands
and grabbing gloden rays
they are the
chosen few
but we both know of corse that
thats not you or me
id be telling the truth if i said it dont matter
so how about you?
can you tell me really?
you dont need it
you dont want it

damn it.thats it im calling her and telling her whats going on.she hasnt been on and i wanna know whats what here...

ok...just put shoro as he dose do these:
1 . Tell her she is beautiful, not hott, fine or sexy.
2 . Hold her hand at any moment even if it just for a second.
3 . Kiss her on the forehead.
4 . Leave her voice messages to wake up to.
5 . Always tell her you love her at any and all times.
6 . When she is upset hold her tight and tell her how much she means to you.
7 . Recognize the small things . . . They usally mean the most.
8 . Call her sweety or baby or honey.
9 . Sing to her no matter how horrible your voice is.
10 . Pick her over all the other girls you hang out with.
11 . Write her notes. {she loves them}
12 . Introduce her to family and friends as your girlfriend.
13 . Play with her hair.
14 . Pick her up, tickle her and play-wrestle with her.
15 . Sit in the park and just talk to her.
16 . Tell her funny jokes.. tell her stupid jokes.. just tell her jokes.
17 . Throw pebbles at her window in the middle of the night just because you missed her.
18 . Let her fall asleep in your arms.
19 . Carve your names into a tree.
20 . If she's mad at you, kiss her.
21 . Give her piggyback rides.
22 . Bring her flowers just because.
23 . Treat her the same around your friends as you do when your alone.
24 . Look her in the eyes and smile.
25 . Let her take as many pictures of you as she wants.
26 . Slow dance with her, even if there isn't any music playing.
27 . Kiss her in the rain.
28 . If you're in love with her...tell her.
he is the one person that can make me smile most.

*sighs* i think chiyo really hates me now...

she said "you cant defeat us". i dont want to. why would i want to hurt my friend? she just dosnt trust my shoro...i wont completely hate her until she actually launches an attack. i love my shoro, and she cant change that, no matter how much she wants to....

chiyo, you my friend,but i will not stand for you hurting the man i love.

fuck
im still thinking of chiyo...i dont want to fight my best friend...but, if she really wants to kill my shoro that much, im now her worst enemy.(how many times have i said this?)

iv been listening to avenged seven fold alot...thinking of shoro and me. "we have to kill him before he destroies us all" my ass....chiyo, im glad your having a baby, but what the hell!?! i think those random pregnency mood swings are fucking with your mind. i mean really? think of how he was acting over at your house? he was soooo sweet. and to you too. would someone like that hurt someone? maybe kyogra, but not my shoro. hes way too sweet.

chiyo, im sorry. but if you still feel like hes that evil, your going to have to destroy me with him. i cant go a second time without him...that year without him was hell. absolute hell. and if you try to hurt him, ill never forgive you.
i love shoro

rae-chan...maybe she can help...well, mental wise. thats so cool i have somone other than shinju or paul thats always on...im still wondering if chiyo is serious...i need to tell her what going on...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JyM82clM0aQ
seize the day
ill die regreting the time you lost
its emty and cold without you here
to many people to wake over

okay! my horoscope just freaked the shit out of me!!@-@
Money is looking rather fabulous today, and since it’s the start of the weekend why not treat yourself, especially after such a heavy week. Start with a scented bath and follow up with a makeover. You should start feeling like a million dollars and be ready to hit the mall!
heavy week? hell yeah is was! and, its still going on too!!!

im still worried about shoro-sama. horohoro dosnt like demons, and chiyo is acitng funny. they wont kill my shoro. i love him too much.i want chiyo on so i can tell her shes wrong.my shoro is only bent on destoying kyogra. no one else.i sear. hes too gentel the rest of the time. there...is one thing that could make him that evil, enough to want to kill me, but we're woking on that. that mark thing they gave him on his back is a sutra thing, that puts a bad spirit...thing inside him. he only uses it in grave danger, but once he uses it, he dose turn on everyone. but we get him out of it. iv only seen him in it twice. yeah,chiyo, hes evil. he tried to eat me...literally! he took a big chunk out of my arm. but once he turned back, ... he wouldnt let go of me, and wouldnt stop crying. he kept telling me he loved me and he was sorry. that was almost a week ago, so hes better now. ... he just told me he loved me again. now, would somone so evil, do anything like that? tell me chiyo. would they? would they...*blush* lay with that person? out of true feelings? would they look for that person as soon as they left them? he was looking for me for god knows how long. and i love him with all my heart and soul. so, if you still want to kill my shoro, chiyo, youll have to kill me first. and id like to see you do that.

i made this for kuro-onii and micah-chan!!! i need to switch the hair though...









okay, that didnt work. chiyo will NOT take my shoro away from me. he is not a monster. i know what he did, and it wasnt his fault. that...elite thing. he took it a year before he finally found me. they tricked him.they told him they would help him find me if he did anything they wanted him to do. well, someone finally told him it was a hoax.and i believ everything he told me. OVER MY DEAD BODY will she EVER touch MY shoro-sama. i love him to no end,chiyo. and that will never change. and, did you ever think kyogra could have something to do with it? think outside the box,mace.its not fair to me or shoro. HE IS INNOCENT.

chiyo...why?

im worried about aura-chan and mushi-chan...thier both so sick...and, you know who got to chiyo and the others...im worried abouts them too. everything is swirling around me rith now....he KILLED them. hes my problem. not theirs.why is he going after all them? next time i see him, ill be the one last standing. not him. after what happened to shoro a few nights ago, i dont know whats going on anymore...my leg gave out on me again today too. i dont know if that has anything to do with anything, but...oh well. ill get him. i promis.oh!and i congradulate ****(just in case)and ******** on thier second child coming on the way!...wow, that didnt last long...