[Aki Neko]'s diary
... i miss him.why?i never met the friggen guy...yet i feel like crying...all my friends are always talking about their new boyfriends... or how they just broke up. i did that once.ONCE. and hated it. iv been shot down(on purpos)once. iv shoten down...i think three times...i guess its coming back at me.but i...guess i did hurt them. i diddnt mean to though...i just...said"i think of you more as a friend"....dam
fuck... I LOVE HIM!!!*cries*
damnit...i still cant get him out!!! > < ....im going to go to a carnival today. i wont be back till late...sorry. and....i dont know if im going to ba on as much as i usually am...which most of you wont even notice....all these tears in my heart are filling up...they might come out soon...i hope not...
i diddnt know it would hurt this much....no one will want to see me tonight now.....
damnit...i diddnt know it would make me wanna cry so bad....*holdin
http://www.you
sad ass song...for me.
*about a boy and girls love*
*A boy and a girl
The best of friends
From elementary to high school
From beginning to end
Through all these years
Their friendship grew
They both felt the same
But neither knew*
(Each waking moment
Since the day that they met
They both loved each other
Sunrise to sunset)
*He was all she had
In her terrible life
He was the one
Who kept her from her knife*
(She was his angel
She made him smile
Though life threw him curves
She made it worth all the while)
*Then one day
Things went terribly wrong
The next few weeks
Were like a very sad song*
(He made her jealous
On purpose he tried
When the girl asked "do you love her?"
On purpose he lied)
*He played with jealousy
Like it was a game
Little did he know
Things would never be the same*
(His plan was working
But he had no clue
How wrong things would go
The damage he would do)
*One night she broke down
Feeling very alone
Just her and the blade
No one else home*
(She dialed his number
He answered "hello"
She told him she loved him
Then hung up the phone)
*He raced to her house
But came a minute too late
Found her lying in blood
And her heart had no rate*
(Beside her was a note
And in it her confession
Her love for this boy
Her only obsession)
*As he read the note
He knelt down and cried
Grabbed her knife
And that night they both died*
(She was found in his arms
Both of them dead
Under her note
His handwriting said)
*"I loved her so
She never knew
All this time
I loved her too"*
yeah...this made me wana cry sooooooo bad...
but my parents would never let me live it down....so,the
Written about Tuesday 2007-04-17
Written: (6431 days ago)
i usually feel better when hearing someone has it better than me. but...damn.poo
http://www.you
man i wish i could do that at school....
i wouldnt know what id do if someone wasnt on right now...XD lmao!
OK.NEW RULES. YOU WANT TO READ MY DIARY AND DONT GET IT,
KEEP IT TO YOURSELF.
damnit....i think i like him....alot.i dont wanna though.>< i promised i wouldnt fall for somone like that.*breaths*
um...i think im in love....but i dont wanna be.
http://www.you
i love you all so much!^ ^and im here whenever you need me!
http://www.you
ok...no messages to worry about now...*sighs* man...iv been getting real dizzy lately.....i wonder why?im always dizzy....but not like this.oh well.if i pass out,then ill worry about it.
i dont know where i would be if my friends werent here.shadow and kuro take such good care of me....and momo gave me that protection badge.paul is alway able to put a smile on me,and shinju-chan is always there for me.im gonna miss talking to kyo, he said hes probobly not gonna come on elftown anymore...he dosnt want anyone to miss him, but thats just who i am.
i cant believe spring break is over already...i cant talk to anyone on here for a while now...im gonna have to come on later...*cries
this is the kind of guy shoro wants me to find, since he knows he cant always protect me here. i want a guy like that too. just like him.
damn...shoro changed again last night...im really starting to get worried...im not getting any of this at all...maybe i will later...
yeah...thats me.
http://www.you
another gun for hire or just another day
when you are done you just abuse it
whatever you say
if you were offered some
would you wanna bite the hand?
would you betray a friend to prove your cold and then
walk away
we were born with nothing
i dont want
but you need somthing
you want glory
i need none of it
its coming between us
people are born with
people are born without
some people have
what others want
what some go without
some people live free
some people just want more
as for me i
got all that i need
do you still think were not brave if we dont bleed?
weve seen so much blood and violece already
how much do you need?
you have and fight your war
and talk of being free
wont let you in there
just using you so why wont you see?
some people are born so much closer to the sun
holding out thier hands
and grabbing gloden rays
they are the
chosen few
but we both know of corse that
thats not you or me
id be telling the truth if i said it dont matter
so how about you?
can you tell me really?
you dont need it
you dont want it
damn it.thats it im calling her and telling her whats going on.she hasnt been on and i wanna know whats what here...
ok...just put shoro as he dose do these:
1 . Tell her she is beautiful, not hott, fine or sexy.
2 . Hold her hand at any moment even if it just for a second.
3 . Kiss her on the forehead.
4 . Leave her voice messages to wake up to.
5 . Always tell her you love her at any and all times.
6 . When she is upset hold her tight and tell her how much she means to you.
7 . Recognize the small things . . . They usally mean the most.
8 . Call her sweety or baby or honey.
9 . Sing to her no matter how horrible your voice is.
10 . Pick her over all the other girls you hang out with.
11 . Write her notes. {she loves them}
12 . Introduce her to family and friends as your girlfriend.
13 . Play with her hair.
14 . Pick her up, tickle her and play-wrestle with her.
15 . Sit in the park and just talk to her.
16 . Tell her funny jokes.. tell her stupid jokes.. just tell her jokes.
17 . Throw pebbles at her window in the middle of the night just because you missed her.
18 . Let her fall asleep in your arms.
19 . Carve your names into a tree.
20 . If she's mad at you, kiss her.
21 . Give her piggyback rides.
22 . Bring her flowers just because.
23 . Treat her the same around your friends as you do when your alone.
24 . Look her in the eyes and smile.
25 . Let her take as many pictures of you as she wants.
26 . Slow dance with her, even if there isn't any music playing.
27 . Kiss her in the rain.
28 . If you're in love with her...tell her.
he is the one person that can make me smile most.