you know what? i think destiny is tounting me...i was looking for my inuyasha notebook, and i came across the pic i did of kuro...SON OF A MOTHER FUCKING BITCH I HATE LOVE!!!DX

damnit...i thought i was over him...guess not...and i know, i was gone for a while.i was in temecula.*sigh* i wish i wasnt in love.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZxAAspHOfF4
wow, this brings back memories...

OH MY FUCKING GOD! I SAW ZACH AT THE FAIR!!!!*dies*

ok...i might go o the chcarnival today....if it dosnt rain. i want to talk to him, but im so afraid of what hes going to say again. i diddnt like last night at all.....my body hates me i think to....when i tried to cry last night, when everyone was finally asleep, the tears wouldnt come out!!!> < i guess a soul wants to cry when it wants to cry...  ........i NEED to get all this out of my head.....

i walk in th rain so no one sees me crying
i stay in the dark so one one sees me dying
i dont know what to say or do
so instead can i stay with you??
-amane ryo

damnit!i cant fucking stand this anymore!!!im crying!im not soposed too! my tears want to come out, but i need them inside until tonight!!I HATE THIS! why am i so damned!?!?!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BKxnJ5iyC-w
wont anyone?

... i miss him.why?i never met the friggen guy...yet i feel like crying...all my friends are always talking about their new boyfriends... or how they just broke up. i did that once.ONCE. and hated it. iv been shot down(on purpos)once. iv shoten down...i think three times...i guess its coming back at me.but i...guess i did hurt them. i diddnt mean to though...i just...said"i think of you more as a friend"....damn. im such a bitch...and extremely selfish.... i want to talk to him so bad.....

fuck... I LOVE HIM!!!*cries*

damnit...i still cant get him out!!! > < ....im going to go to a carnival today. i wont be back till late...sorry. and....i dont know if im going to ba on as much as i usually am...which most of you wont even notice....all these tears in my heart are filling up...they might come out soon...i hope not...

i diddnt know it would hurt this much....no one will want to see me tonight now.....

damnit...i diddnt know it would make me wanna cry so bad....*holding back tears best she can*

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qLhfZjbf2j4
sad ass song...for me.

*about a boy and girls love*

*A boy and a girl
The best of friends
From elementary to high school
From beginning to end
Through all these years
Their friendship grew
They both felt the same
But neither knew*
(Each waking moment
Since the day that they met
They both loved each other
Sunrise to sunset)
*He was all she had
In her terrible life
He was the one
Who kept her from her knife*
(She was his angel
She made him smile
Though life threw him curves
She made it worth all the while)
*Then one day
Things went terribly wrong
The next few weeks
Were like a very sad song*
(He made her jealous
On purpose he tried
When the girl asked "do you love her?"
On purpose he lied)
*He played with jealousy
Like it was a game
Little did he know
Things would never be the same*
(His plan was working
But he had no clue
How wrong things would go
The damage he would do)
*One night she broke down
Feeling very alone
Just her and the blade
No one else home*
(She dialed his number
He answered "hello"
She told him she loved him
Then hung up the phone)
*He raced to her house
But came a minute too late
Found her lying in blood
And her heart had no rate*
(Beside her was a note
And in it her confession
Her love for this boy
Her only obsession)
*As he read the note
He knelt down and cried
Grabbed her knife
And that night they both died*
(She was found in his arms
Both of them dead
Under her note
His handwriting said)
*"I loved her so
She never knew
All this time
I loved her too"*



yeah...this made me wana cry sooooooo bad...
but my parents would never let me live it down....so,theyr in there stil.

i usually feel better when hearing someone has it better than me. but...damn.poor aura. i didnt mean to put her in that memory...im sorry. ....and damn. i guess i do like him. i asked...whoever it is up there to give me a sighn, and, they did.TT^TT but he has someone already! i dont want him to give that up for anything!...damn. and for you reading this and know who it is, SAY ANYTHING AND I WILL RIP YOUR HEAD OFF. I DONT CARE WHO YOU ARE EITHER, KEEP THIS TO YOURSELF. TVT ...ok. i think im done...for a while.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nWDfH51gvc0

man i wish i could do that at school....

i wouldnt know what id do if someone wasnt on right now...XD lmao!

OK.NEW RULES. YOU WANT TO READ MY DIARY AND DONT GET IT,

KEEP IT TO YOURSELF.

damnit....i think i like him....alot.i dont wanna though.>< i promised i wouldnt fall for somone like that.*breaths*damn....i love him...(that felt....good and bad at the same time)

um...i think im in love....but i dont wanna be.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qJnuhNcRM9U
i love you all so much!^ ^and im here whenever you need me!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Df87H9hGgWQ<original.