[Aki Neko]'s diary
Your soul is caring.
Other people are your concern, even if you don't know them. If you see a person trip you worry is he is okay. You put your loved ones first and you're very mature. When someones sick you're nurturing and always try to help family and friends when failure strikes them. You can be called the motherly one, if you are in a group of people, which doesn't have to be bad. Love is something that's already in you and you have a lot to give whether you believe it or not. Your friends probably love you very much and come to when they need help since you're reliable. People can feel secure with you and generally like you.
Your connection with darkness is through your depression. Hated, sad and often feeling lonely, there is only a few that appreciate the real you. You tend to keep to yourself and away from the world since you don't want to be hurt and betrayed again. Music gives you the understanding you need to get through; it's your "therapy". Or you express yourself through art or writing to get emotional releases. Chances are you're also an anti-social person, who only enjoys spending time with close friends, if even that. The world has finally showed it's true face for you it feels, and you wish life wasn't this miserable to live through. Maybe you'll find happiness in the future, but right now you're simply hiding away from the world. Who needs people anyway?
"Love is life. And if you miss love, you miss life" by Leo Buscaglia.
Yes, love is indeed what you desire in your life. If you have it or not is another matter, but it is in your eyes the most important feeling. You tend to be a romantic dreamer and want you and your love to have that kind of perfect love that you hear about in fairytales. However that can be hard to find, but it doesn't mean you are going to stop looking.
how shy are you?
[] You don't like public speaking.
[] You find it hard to talk to strangers.
[] You don't like to look people in the eye.
[x] You hate using public restrooms.
[x] You don't like to go shopping alone.
TOTAL: 2
[x] Being introduced to new people makes you nervous.
[] When you're in a group of people, it's difficult to think of what to say
[] You have a lot of trouble talking to the opposite sex
[x] You hate to be teased
[] You hate answering the door
total: 2
[x] You can't stand people watching you.
[] One on one conversations make you nervous.
[x] You don't like to ask people for help.
[x] You hate to read out loud
[] You don't like asking questions.
TOTAL: 3
[] You dread ordering food at restaurants.
[x] You are uncomfortable at parties, unless you know everyone well.
[] You don't like to talk, because you're afraid of being embarrassed by what you say.
[] You wish you were more outgoing.
[]You hate being in the center of any room
TOTAL : 1
[x] You don't know how to react to compliments.
[] You don't like crowds.
[] You prefer reading, writing or listening to music than being around too many people.
[] You blush easily.
[x] You spend a lot of time in your room.
Total: 2
Add all the x's and multiply by 4 then put "I'm _% shy"
im 40% shy.
Written about Thursday 2007-06-14
Written: (6314 days ago)
Sick of Crying.
Tired of Trying.
Yeah, I'm smiling.
But inside i'm D Y I N G.
[Did u know? Before you go to sleep at night there is 1 person of the opposite sex thinking of you. They want you, they want to kiss u, they want to be with you. They are always thinking about you before they go to sleep at night. And they are longing to be with you. This is all true. If you think you're alone, try to look around.]
and
http://www.veo
they say a black cat is bad luck,but i say they are good luck. well, either way the luck is luck, but what about the luck for the cat?
Written about Sunday 2007-06-10
Written: (6319 days ago)
"What A Kiss Means"
*Kiss on the stomach-----"l
*Kiss on the Forehead ----"Forever you will be mine"
*Kiss on the Ear ---"I'm horny"
*Kiss on the Cheek ---"We're friends"
*Kiss on the Hand ---"I adore you"
*Kiss on the Neck ---"We belong together"
*Kiss on the Shoulder ---"I want you"
*Kiss on the Lips ---"I love you" OR "I want you"
*Holding Hands ---"We can learn to love each other"
*Slap on the Butt ---"That's mine"
*Playing with the Ear ---"I can't live without you"
*Holding on tight ---"Don't let go"
*Looking into each other's Eyes ---"Don't let go"
*Playing with Hair on Head ---"Tell me you love me"
*Arms around the Waist ---"I love you too much to let go"
*Laughing while Kissing ---"I am completley Comfortable with you"
--Advice--
*Dont ask for a kiss, take one.
*If you were thinking about someone while reading this,
you're definitely in Love (or strong like).
[If you REALLY LIKE SOMEONE right now,AND YOU MISS THEM and can't get them out of your head,then re-post this within 1 minute and whoever you miss will surprise you...]
Written about Saturday 2007-06-09
Written: (6319 days ago)
i cant fucking stand this anymore...
IM TIRED OF BEING PLAYED!!!
i loved you danny, how could you? i fucking fell for it again...i hate love...i hate it!
Written about Saturday 2007-06-09
Written: (6319 days ago)
i was going to write about danny... but uno-chan told me he like someone else...i thought he was for me. finally, someone that likes me. why does it always turn out ike this??
she might be right...he keeps telling me "youd be nice to date." and "i want to give you your first kiss."...but, i like him alot...is it a lie again?
no offense, uno-chan, but i hope your dead fucking wrong...i thought this was going to turn out right this time...he made me look forward to this upcoming year, and i hate new years...
danny, tell me its not treus...your the first one in quite a while i said those dreadful three words to....i wanted you to be my first boyfriend...
to six dragons:
not when every crush you had turned out like this. well, not exactly. but, the last two, he was my best friend and then hated me for falling for him. he never said another word to me...
the last one wasnt even my friend, and he wouldnt give me the time of day. when i talked to him, he gave me this face that looked like he would rather be licking someone's ass then see me around...
and now, danny tells me he likes me, and might just be a playboy? i thought this one was a real one....
i dont want him to trick me...
what would you do if:
[1) I committed suicide:]I'd be grief stricken
[2) I said I liked you:well you aid you kinda liked me
[3) I kissed you:] you have twice and they were good
[4) I lived next door to you:]O O really?
[5) I started smoking:]would convince you to stop.
[6) I stole something:]it matters what
[7) I was hospitalized:]If itr was bad enough I would go to california
[8) I ran away from home:]I have an extra roome here
[9) I got into a fight and you weren't there] Tell you good job for winning then tickle you to death for fighting
from the admiral.
http://www.you
Girl Next Door lyrics
Small town homecoming queen
She's the star in this scene
There's no way to deny she's lovely
Perfect skin, perfect hair
Perfumed hearts everywhere
Tell myself that inside she's ugly
Maybe I'm just jealous
I can't help but hate her
Secretly I wonder if my boyfriend wants to date her
She is the prom queen I'm in the marching band
She is a cheerleader I'm sitting in the stands
She gets the top bunk I'm sleeping on the floor
She's Miss America and I'm just the girl next door
Senior class president
She must be heaven sent
She was never the last one standing
A backseat debutaunt
Everything that you want
Never to harsh or too demanding
Maybe I'll admit it
I'm a little bitter
Everybody loves her but I just wanna hit her
She is the prom queen I'm in the marching band
She is a cheerleader I'm sitting in the stands
She gets the top bunk I'm sleeping on the floor
She's Miss America and I'm just the girl next door
Oh and I'm just the girl next door
I don't know why I'm feeling sorry for myself
I spend all my time wishing that I was someone else
She is the prom queen I'm in the marching band
She is a cheerleader I'm sitting in the stands
I get a little bit, she gets a little more
She's Miss America and... she's Miss America
I'm just the girl next door...
Written about Tuesday 2007-06-05
Written: (6324 days ago)
Im glad at least one person dosnt hate me for falling for them. I'm REALLY happy for that. Ryan is being an ass, and I have to play his team tomarrow.I'm going to embarres the shit out of myself, like always.And the team isnt going to help either.
My friends Colleen and Thomas took my advice and started going out. Now Colleen wants to go back out with her Ex, and Thomas dosnt have a clue...I think.Oo....I screw up everything.^ ^;;
I wish I knew what it felt like to have someone to love me back....If I ever get a boyfriend, Ill treat him like hes the world. Ill love him as long as he'll love me. And, hopefully can have a shoulder to cry on then.
I hope I'm not thinking to selfishly....
and the one reason i love elftown:
cuz you can mask your feelings.
and the reason i hate elftown:
cuz i cant see the person im talking to,or be there to make them feel better.
damnit...
im really hating myself right now.
i feel like all i can do is mess up.ryan probly thinks im stalking him, since he saw me at the crosswalk.just the way he looked at me was....like zach all over again.i can barly keep myself from just walking over to him and just talking to him. i know he wont want to since he has a girlfriend.*si
with all this, AND my dad being in jail, i have to lie to make my mom happy, and to make myself not feel bad. is that selfish? i dont want to move with just my mom and dad. and so far away let alone. i just told paul it too. he didnt like it all. ill miss them all to much. i cant leave. i just wanna cry right now. i feel like iv turned into a crybaby.its all i did for 4 days last week. i hated it. and the teachers were no help either."Ok, you got 30 seconds to feel better and come in."they said. i stayed out there for 10mins.
*sigh* this is all too hard. and i think that one guy in NM(keeping his name to myself) likes me too. he keeps asking me about my "bf" and since i dont have one, if he could be it. im willing, if i could get the right kind of phone to call him with.
i just dont know. no ones giving me a chance.
http://www.you
how come when i was watching this, and it got to the part of when inu no taisho saved inuyasha mom, i heard a baby crying in the back of my mind??? oh well...but...i felt like i wanted to cry too. along with....i diddnt cry when i saw the movie...oh well. maybe its just me right now.
neeeeeeeeeeh..
http://www.you
BLEH!:p