I cant believe this happened....again.

But, I REALLLLLLLLLY like him.....*Sigh* I just dont think Im made for anyone, I was an extra in the bach...

Whats wrong with me lately????

Is it that IV gotten to trust NO ONE?

Or is that NO ONES gotten to trust ME?

I guess Im just having another moment or whatever....But, I guess maby I really am just...useless.That people only listen to me so Id shut up eventually.I just...dont know who to trust right now...Its all spining around...Shit here, shit there.Im looking around and seeing people wiping shit from their noses from kissing so much ass latley...Or people so greedy that if they find a dollor bill when theyv gotten a hundred with them they wont bother putting it in the "Bring our troops home" Box....And people complaining so much about how what they have is so wrong, while people are going every day without a single thing. Where will this all end? And why am I feeling like this all put together + 1000000x worse? If I act like an ass to you, or you dont feel like talking if I message you, then dont. And...try not to come to me with stupid fucking pointless shit right now...Im not in the mood.

Forgive me if you can, I dont care if you do or dont.I just feel like shit right now, its another selfish moment, let it pass....My hearts just giving my brain a hard time. I dont know if I like Ryan or not, I dont know what to do on here anymore about situations like that. Iv just....gone through (MY OWN!!NOT YOURS) hell lately...I have to call a friends boyfriend to see if I can get him to spill on Ashley, and if he IS cheating on her, I might not be on for a while, (MABY) either from injuries or lack of emotion. And, one last thing,

STOP RANTING AT ME! RANT TO ME IF YOU ABSOLUTELY HAVE TO!!!

PLEASE JOIN The Hidden World!!!! WE NEED MORE RPERS!

Nevermind that about my mom, she just wants me around so I have to go through what she dose.....If HE wasnt around, we'd all be happy....It was so peaceful when he was gone.

Again....My dad is SUCK AN ASSHOLE!!!!!

Sometimes I actually think that he threatens my mom since she gives into it so much and takes it out on me still.....I liked it better when he was still in jail...I HATE IT HERE. I KNOW Im going to die sooner than Im soposed to when we move...

I dont know why he cant just stop being a pathatic asswipe and accept he DOSNT control us...I do, I hate that man. Only thing hes good for is making money....

Sometimes I think he never wanted me...My mom is only mean to me when he gets her started. Sometimes I just want to slap the FUCK out of him...BASTARD!!!! Hes so annoying..."Retard" "Bitch" "Spoiled brat"....Fuck face...

<end/dad rant>

Ok...I fucked up AGAIN...

I was talking to some old friend who werent on my list any more, and I THINK he was playing...but her boyfriend told me he killed himself. Me not knowing, since with the whole 6th sense thing and night talker shit, was playing around with her and I asked her if he really killed himself. She left right after. I FUCKED UP AGAIN! AND IT HASNT RAINED YET! WHAT THE HELL!?!?!? I thought he was kidding....I think I said something I shouldnt have...>> IM SORRY KYO AND KISAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*Cries horribly*

Sorry I left guys!!!

My mom got me off here right in the middle of everything (AGAIN!!!!) just to watch my fucking father get drunk off of one beer and act like an ass hole!!!!Im tired of him, I really am.

Imma sleep now...*Pass out* Oh! And for the last diary thingy, we found out who is was. YAY! I ISH AVENGED!!!>.> Though they came to me first...Im not a whor though...Q_Q

WHO EVER WAS ON MY RP MOMMYS ACCOUNT I WILL HUNT YOU DOWN AND KILL YOU MYSELF!!!YOU FUCKERS THINK ITS FUNNY!!!IF YOUR THEM AND READING THIS I SUGJEST YOU WATCH YOUR ASS!!!!ILL SHOW YOU TO RP WOMAN RAPE ME YOU FUCKERS!!!!!!!!!

I only got this thing because I LOVE the look on Bakura's face. XDDDD Almost as good as the one where he gets run over by the boulder:

Ok, I have to go soon. If I log out out of nowhere, sorry.XDD I Love you guys!!!*KISSH!* Bye!(Soon!

I FOUND MY CLIP!!!!!!!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tU7zj7u-n3s&mode=related&search=



FALL OUT BOY!I FOUND MY CLIP!!! Im in to top rightcorner at the first part with pete wntz's side!!Its dark, but you can see an arm flail. THATS MEH!

*SCREAMS!* I FOUND A CLIP FROM THE CONCERT I WHEN TO!!!!!!!OMFG!!!!!!

Aki's version of the perfect guy. XDD *Remake of the ones on here*

1)Someone who will be there when you cry.......and cry with you
2)Someone who will pay for your food........even though you work at the resturant.
3)Someone who will pay for your clothes...even though you just got your paycheck
4)Someone who will look into your eyes and slowley come in for the kiss.........Although your sick
5)Someone who will always be there for you.......even though theyr on vaction a 100 miles away
*Still working on it.XD*

I have to go guys. Dieing of fatigue. -____________-|'|'

ALL!

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