Well, I'm completely over 'he who must not be named' because he is disgusting. YES!!! Dee...sgusting. I look at my other entries and shiver. Please shoot me. I was the most pathetic puppy dog alive. Sure, I was very happy, but you don't need a guy to make you happy. I make myself happy in my own ways now, and screw anyone who think otherwise. And to think I used to like such a player/loser/ugly/disgusting freak.

I just feel sick even thinking about it. Glad I'm over that now.

Hey! I'm sooo happy today! Because on wednesday I'm seeing *CENSORED*!!! yes, I know! he's gonna meet me, Abby, Meghan and Holly at the mall! I cannot wait...i havn't seen him forever. Then I'm going to go to parent-teacher interviews and then to the Dream Centre. It's gonna be a great time! Cannot wait! If mom springs something on me at the last minute i will fucking kill her! AAAAAAAAAA anyways, i have been happy every since Thursday, when I wrote my first entry. Ever since I found out about *CENSORED*. Anyways, gotta go, see you later.

i think all my entries will be classified as private in case *CENSORED*, or say, josh, or holly, or whatever, gets a hold of them...anyways, i'm here today to describe josh. how do you describe josh? physically, i mean...the emotional level takes maybe twice as long to describe in which case this entry will be much longer than anticipated...anyways, how do you describe him? he has, i guess you could say, a beautiful face. meghan says he's hot, but i really dont think thats it. he has, i dunno, a capitivating face, for lack of a better word. he has a face that you want to look at, but when he catches your eyes, you instinctively look away, because you dont want him to know that you're looking. he has these weird cheekbones that stick out, and well, for more description, look at a pciture. i mean, i dont feel any romantic attraction to him. he's a great friend and a good hugger, and all, but nothing would ever happen between us, because a) i dont feel anything like that for him and b) it would crush lizzie into little tiny bitty pieces. now onto josh's spiritualness..i think he is one of the best friends i've ever had. melodramatic at times, yes, and annoying too. but he is always there when you want/need him and you can tell him anything, he wont judge you or make fun of you and he listens. i love him all the way...as a friend. ceeya