heh i dunno i've been down sence me n RObert broke up n for the last couple of days he's all i can think about. I guess the saying is true u never kno wat u have intill u lose it! heh. He was the most PERFECT thing i ever had. He still tells me he loves me n he said hes happy wen he gets around me n that wen he gets around me i make him forget all the bad stuff that ever happened n that i'm the only person he wants to be with. Well then y is he with lannie? he says hes not even happy to be with her so y is he? heh. Sometimes i wish i'd be in a coma so then i'd just forget everything and everyone n just start life over again heh. Maybe if i had short term memory loss i would forget i loved him i dunno but i just CAN'T forget him but like hes the ONLY thing that can make me happy but it makes me sad b/c he has another girl n he's not even happy to be with her. He wants to be with me so y can't he be? I hate to think about these things but right now its the only thing i can think of. N i'm sorry to the friends i let down or hurt for the past couple weeks i just guess Roberts the only person i've been wanting to be around. Sorry friends i guess i just fell in love with something that made me soo happy n still does but thats i guess wat loves about sometimes it hurts like a bitch but he makes me happy, sad, mad, cry, n weap. I'm really sorry to my friends that love me i love ya'll to no end but right now i need alone time to think n be with Robert i needa make things right with him i dunno how long it will take but i won't give up on the person i love n the person that loves me. Just please friends, sisters, n brothers just give me that time. Thats all i ask from ya'll!!! Love Always, Shelby

BAD mood! ever feel u'll never find anyone that loves u? yeah that kinda stuff. Well basicly my BF told me he never really liked me UGH! Y is it always my heart thats always broke? There goes 2 ppl that broke it! I think i'm done with love maybe i'll find someone in the long-run. Maybe the Lord will let us meet later on in my life but for right now i'm NOT getting in anymore relationships and i probley won't date for a while. I hate this type of feeling! U hear of so many others that their relationships r good and better than ever but its always me thats left crying and wishing someone would love me. Y ME?