*paranoid*
a cloud of fog rolls over me
a haze of confusion controls me
not knowing what to do
or how to act around you
my feelings rolled into a bundle
the blood dripping and forming a puddle
to many things going on at once
with anger i hear loud grunts
filled with life,yet pale and deadlike
tears flowing,yet not sad when i cry
overwhelmed,im going to hell,
my soul is to sell, i pushed you and i fell
lifes a journey that ends too soon
then you get stuck and marooned
my blood is pounding
people are crouding
my body knumb with shock
i quickly glace at the clock
i look in fear
towards the rear
i heard something i never wanted to hear
too much to bear
ploping down in my chair
i run my hands through his hair
why isnt life fair
i think as i stare
at the mask of darkness that casts upon his soul.
its your life that it costs
everyone awayz talking mess
it causes so much stress
you cant deny
so dont bother to lie
you never shut up
youre the one whos corrupt
you always jugde me
by what you see
stop stereotyping everyone
they dont like it none
shut your mouth for one second
take a look at what you becon
look at what your causing
the world is in play but you keep pausing
you force destruction on others
you make them feel smothered
your the one who causes shootings at school
your the one who make them feel like a fool
give us a rest
stop causing so much stress
you cause every one to loose confidence
you make everyone feel distress
you bring people down
you push them around
your the one who makes them lost
and its your life that it costs
why?
why is all this happening to me?
how can this be
why is my life falling apart before my eyes?
i think as i try not to cry
be strong
hold on
and never let go
please...i really wanna know
why is my life falling apart
why is this happening to me?
what did i do to deserve this?
why is my life such hell
im never coming out of my shell
i hate my life
i hate this place
to everyone and everything
what does this mean?
send me a sign
help me catch up because im falling behind
whyme? why does this have to happen to me?what did i dpo to deserve this? what important thing did i miss?!
WILTED FLOWERS
wilted flowers so pale and dead,
life is a sacrifice with nothing left,
misery and sorrow has left nothing for tommorrow,
guide me through the dark winding path,
and let everyone feel my wrath,
tie will pass none the less,
so why wont this stress?
god it is boring rite now!!!
omg!!i came home this afternoon afterschool and there were a huge swarms of honey bees in our back yard and in our house thats why im typing this at 11:42 at nite!! most of them are gone thank god!!!
aparently were not the only ones having this problem!!there are lotz of people well anywayz im gointo bed i have to get up early were leaving to go to the orielly spring nationals in houston...at 6 am!!! i just got home from work!! n they r making me get up at like 5 am!!! on a saturday!!!!!!
well..good nite!!!
my life is falling apart....every thing i care about and look 4 ward 2 is being taken away from me all of a sudden...well i dont have a life rite now so never mind!!!
I NEED A REASON...
tears fill my eyes
i want to cry
my weakness shows from within
where have i been?
my life has becoe nothing
i need it to be something
theres no point in waking up
this is all happening so abrupt!!
cant take it
not gonna make it
so stop faking it
stop this shit!!
the darkness is getting stronger
cant hold on any longer
live life while its good
and let your self be understood
my life is become nothing
i need it to be something
i need a reason to wake up in the morning
tell the rain to stop pouring
just let me change the channel in my life
i need a reason to strive
to stay alive
i need a reason......