Growing
Hush my little precious one
time to dry those tears
momma will never leave you
close those tired sleepy eyes
and dream of sweet dreams
i will be here still when you wake
my little baby oh how you're growing
hush my little one
your 1 years old now
you make mommy very proud
all on your own you learned to walk
close your eyes
and dream of all your 1st times
my little baby is 1 now
hush my little love
mommy will take care of it
my how the years have passed
you're 5 now
you're going to school
to become smart
my little baby isn't a baby
hush my child
momma is still here
i love my child
for me how thoughtful
see we don't need anyone else
just u and me
my child is now 10
Hush my darling
i know what your going through
i have been there more than once
i know that breaking up with someone isn't easy
remember i was young once
come let me help you
my baby is now a teen
oh my child you're now all grown
it's your special day
i don't think i could be any prouder
you are getting married
don't worry i'll be fine
i ain't loosing my child
i am gaining another
hush my precious little one
grandma is here until mommy comes
close those pretty little eyes
and when you open them
mommy and daddy should be here
grandma's here to give you everything to spoil you
Grandma's here to listen to your fears
Oh my love here i go
it is my time now
for i have had enough of this
i want to be with u
but u don't believe me
what do u want from me
i am only 16
i don't truely know what i want
i just know that i love you
with all my being
please baby just hold me close
tell me that u love me
then just maybe i will still be here
what do i have to do
would me not having a life
make u happy
would it make u trust me
may be i am better off dead
but i wish to be held and loved by you
baby why do u think the worse when u see me with a guy
don't u trust me enough to know i love you
there will never be another for me
that guy u thought i was kissing
turns out to be a gurl and these lips weren't kissing anything
the only person i wish to be kissing and caressing is you
baby can't you see that?
i love you with all my heart
you are my savor
the reason i still live
i now have no friends i can call mine
i have no one here to keep me on this earth
without u i don't have the need to live
baby *cries* i love you
and since i heard this
i have done nothen but cried
please baby believe me when i tell you all this
that you are the only one for me
but i guess it's my time
my time to go away from this earth
i hope that you find happiness without me
for my happiness is with you
Questions
why does life have to be so confusing?
why can't it just be easy?
why am i here?
what is my purpose?
who am i?
where am i?
why can't i remember anything?
why am i so got damn confuse?
why don't someone answer my questions?
is it cuz no one knows the answers?
this may not be much to you
but it means a lot to me
that our love forever stays true
for i love you with all my being
i don't think i'd be here
if it wasn't for your love
oh how i wish to be there
i n your oh such loving arms
Hush my love it's only for a while
just give it time to grow
we'll soon be holding our first child
things will never be the same
i know my love for i feel it too
what will we name it
you are going to have to add another room
here my love give me your hand
do you feel that
our baby is saying hello
feel its little foot?
my love it is time
no more time to prepare
just remember i love ya
hi baby mommy loves you
daddy loves you
baby baby don't die
god why u taking my baby
i ain't giving up hope
i want my baby
my baby going to live
why aren't you ever on any more?
Don't you care about me?
where are you?
why don't u at least send me a message?
i worry about you for i don't know what to think
i love you with all my heart
and i don't know what i would do if something went wrong
i am confused on what to do
what can i do that won't make u think the worse of me
why do i ask all these questions
when u aren't even here to help answer them
i just know this...
i love ya
i miss my sexy man so much i want to kill the bitchy slut tara. baby i love you till my dieing day
I am so confused about my life I don't know what to do I love my man so much I don't think I would still be here if he left me which I know he won't I love You baby
today turn out to be good slept till noon and then got on the computer got done my careers homework and listen music I am happy for once in a week!-
lots of projects to get done semester tests are on the 18th getting a head start on them.
Today started out slow
1)appointment at 9 am
2)volunter work at 1 pm
3)babysitting/sp
Days go by don't know where they seem to go to
My life is dark and nothen but blackness
I have found my light though and I hope it doesn't leave me
I don't think I can stand going back into the black space again
Life is changing every time i seem to blink my life as turn before my eyes i think of death each time i look back on my life
No school today.
I want someone to love me and hold me in their arms. I guess I am destine to be alone. My little brother seems to make sure that I stay love free. Oh Lord why am I here if I have no purpose?
If you know the answer to any of the questions in my diary please let me know the answer.
How come I have to give up on what I want to do just cuz my little bro doesn't have anyone to play? I can't go and hang out with friends for living sake it is a FRIDAY! I should be out with friends or on a date. But oh no I have to stay home with my brother.
Sick for 2 days parents don't care they aren't even home! When my brother is sick they stay home to make sure he gets better but me oh no. I am not the precious baby boy. I am their no good lazy daughter (according to them) I work just as hard as they do! I can't stand it any longer! I want no make that need my life back!
Babysitting got school tomorrow booooo! can't wait until winter vacation. Time to myself
No school tomorrow hurray! Sinces it is a holiday I don't have to work! I get to hang around with my friends. I love my halloween costume.
How is a girl to live her life and have some fun when she has to take care of another's person child(my little brother)24/7? I have no time to goof around with my friends, go to the movies, or anything a normal teen would be able to do. Cuz I have to be there for my little brother. If I am not there for him then there would be no one else to. When I am not busy waitressing I babysit and take my little brother with me. I try my hardest to make sure my brother has everything he needs. Like when I am waitressing I have a friend come over to stay with him.