Can you hear that?
I hear someone crying
yet I can't find the source.
I see blood
But whose?
I hear someone arguing with themselves
she's very depressed
she wants to live yet wants to die
She is questiong her existance
And what people tell her
Someone hurted her big time
And now she doubts she will get over it
Lies, they are all lies-she says
I wish I could comfort her
tell her there are others
tell her my story so she knows
that she ain't alone
with i could stop her
but i don't know where to find her
it isn't good to hold back the tears
yet crying doen't solve anything either
why do people hurt others for no reason?
he told her he loved her
says it doesn't matter that there is an age difference
yet the next day he says he can't date her anymore
cuz of the age difference
but what is the truth behind the reason?
she feels like she is going insane!
i just wish i could reach her in time
i know the feeling for i have been there more than once
but sweetheart we are the stronger ones
not the guys
we have the brains and the guts to get what we need to survive
just remember that you are strong
and that the pain will go away with some time
learn from that pain
and give it another try
for not all guys are the same
You are here to cheer me up when I am down
You are here to listen to my sorrows
Bad days come and go
But you will always be here for me
As I will for you
Know that if you need someone to trust
You can come to me
I will give you a listening ear
Just as you have to me
You are a true person
One of a kind...
Just like me in so many ways
If I could only have one friend
I would want someone just like you!
I will be here for you forever
Just as I hope for you to be there for me
I am glad that we have the pleasure
Of having a pure friendship
Why can't I do anything right?
I know that no one is perfect.
But everything I do or say is wrong!
I voice my feelings...
I loose my friends.
I hang out with my guy friends...
I get accussed of cheating.
What am I doing that always gets me in trouble?
Death looks good right now.
But I know I would be hurting a few people.
Don't think of me as heartless cuz I do have a heart
I can't stand this any more though
Someone please save me!
Growing
Hush my little precious one
time to dry those tears
momma will never leave you
close those tired sleepy eyes
and dream of sweet dreams
i will be here still when you wake
my little baby oh how you're growing
hush my little one
your 1 years old now
you make mommy very proud
all on your own you learned to walk
close your eyes
and dream of all your 1st times
my little baby is 1 now
hush my little love
mommy will take care of it
my how the years have passed
you're 5 now
you're going to school
to become smart
my little baby isn't a baby
hush my child
momma is still here
i love my child
for me how thoughtful
see we don't need anyone else
just u and me
my child is now 10
Hush my darling
i know what your going through
i have been there more than once
i know that breaking up with someone isn't easy
remember i was young once
come let me help you
my baby is now a teen
oh my child you're now all grown
it's your special day
i don't think i could be any prouder
you are getting married
don't worry i'll be fine
i ain't loosing my child
i am gaining another
hush my precious little one
grandma is here until mommy comes
close those pretty little eyes
and when you open them
mommy and daddy should be here
grandma's here to give you everything to spoil you
Grandma's here to listen to your fears
Oh my love here i go
it is my time now
for i have had enough of this
i want to be with u
but u don't believe me
what do u want from me
i am only 16
i don't truely know what i want
i just know that i love you
with all my being
please baby just hold me close
tell me that u love me
then just maybe i will still be here
what do i have to do
would me not having a life
make u happy
would it make u trust me
may be i am better off dead
but i wish to be held and loved by you
baby why do u think the worse when u see me with a guy
don't u trust me enough to know i love you
there will never be another for me
that guy u thought i was kissing
turns out to be a gurl and these lips weren't kissing anything
the only person i wish to be kissing and caressing is you
baby can't you see that?
i love you with all my heart
you are my savor
the reason i still live
i now have no friends i can call mine
i have no one here to keep me on this earth
without u i don't have the need to live
baby *cries* i love you
and since i heard this
i have done nothen but cried
please baby believe me when i tell you all this
that you are the only one for me
but i guess it's my time
my time to go away from this earth
i hope that you find happiness without me
for my happiness is with you
Questions
why does life have to be so confusing?
why can't it just be easy?
why am i here?
what is my purpose?
who am i?
where am i?
why can't i remember anything?
why am i so got damn confuse?
why don't someone answer my questions?
is it cuz no one knows the answers?
this may not be much to you
but it means a lot to me
that our love forever stays true
for i love you with all my being
i don't think i'd be here
if it wasn't for your love
oh how i wish to be there
i n your oh such loving arms
Hush my love it's only for a while
just give it time to grow
we'll soon be holding our first child
things will never be the same
i know my love for i feel it too
what will we name it
you are going to have to add another room
here my love give me your hand
do you feel that
our baby is saying hello
feel its little foot?
my love it is time
no more time to prepare
just remember i love ya
hi baby mommy loves you
daddy loves you
baby baby don't die
god why u taking my baby
i ain't giving up hope
i want my baby
my baby going to live
why aren't you ever on any more?
Don't you care about me?
where are you?
why don't u at least send me a message?
i worry about you for i don't know what to think
i love you with all my heart
and i don't know what i would do if something went wrong
i am confused on what to do
what can i do that won't make u think the worse of me
why do i ask all these questions
when u aren't even here to help answer them
i just know this...
i love ya
i miss my sexy man so much i want to kill the bitchy slut tara. baby i love you till my dieing day
I am so confused about my life I don't know what to do I love my man so much I don't think I would still be here if he left me which I know he won't I love You baby
today turn out to be good slept till noon and then got on the computer got done my careers homework and listen music I am happy for once in a week!-
lots of projects to get done semester tests are on the 18th getting a head start on them.
Today started out slow
1)appointment at 9 am
2)volunter work at 1 pm
3)babysitting/sp
Days go by don't know where they seem to go to
My life is dark and nothen but blackness
I have found my light though and I hope it doesn't leave me
I don't think I can stand going back into the black space again
Life is changing every time i seem to blink my life as turn before my eyes i think of death each time i look back on my life
No school today.
I want someone to love me and hold me in their arms. I guess I am destine to be alone. My little brother seems to make sure that I stay love free. Oh Lord why am I here if I have no purpose?
If you know the answer to any of the questions in my diary please let me know the answer.
How come I have to give up on what I want to do just cuz my little bro doesn't have anyone to play? I can't go and hang out with friends for living sake it is a FRIDAY! I should be out with friends or on a date. But oh no I have to stay home with my brother.
Sick for 2 days parents don't care they aren't even home! When my brother is sick they stay home to make sure he gets better but me oh no. I am not the precious baby boy. I am their no good lazy daughter (according to them) I work just as hard as they do! I can't stand it any longer! I want no make that need my life back!