hmmm...i dunno wat to say anymore..ppl expect so much and i cant giv more than wat i am givin now...mike if u see this by any chance..which i hope u do..um i just wanna say that..i do trust u its just i mean u been treatin me like a piece of shit..like i did sumthin wrong i mean im not a dog u dont hav to treat me like an idiot or sumthin..i mean i care a lot bout u and i love u and i know the feeling isn't mutual bt dats not an excuse to treat me like shit..i dont expect u to feel the same or to treat me with royalty bt u hurt me a lot and u hurt my feelins a lot and treatin me the way u do sux! its just makin everythin work...and right now wat u asked for i cannot giv until i actually want to and feel ready so pls dont rush me and dont get pissed off...and dont make me feel bad bcos it is a really major thing u asked for..i mean if things go slow and slowly but surely develop then later wen i feel ready then i might actually consider it...

I really would like a new life!!

Everything is falling apart and you people arent being so niceither!